New August Quitter

[traumagnet]

you are doing what you are supposed to do here get angry at us we know it isnt you its the poison leaving your veins. We just wanted you to let your girl in so that if she gets blindsided by it she doesnt come uncorked on you and push you into a situation that you might have tried to in the past medicated yourself with a dip to knock the edge off. We are addicts here to the most addicting chemical on earth. one dip and we are gone rite back into the bowels of hell. We are just brothers and sisters looking out for eachother. Listen you will learn. Me for example I thought I was unique and no one would get me...read the posts we are all similar we just live in different towns and places but we are all connected the nic bitch brought us here and we are all quit and we dont want anyone to cave.

[srans]

Hey everyone,

Let me first apologize for calling out erussell. I know you were just offering advice and I really do appreciate everyones input into my quit. It does help to hear both sides. I'm taking this day by day and just focusing on what is going to get me through this quit. Right now, my fiance isnt what I need, but who knows that may change.

I think what it comes down to for me is that I got myself into this shit on my own. I became a slave to the can on my own doing and even when my other friends who started with me quit after a year or two, I just kept dipping. So this is all on me. And therefore, I want this quit to be all on me. I put myself into this shit, I will bring myself out.

Sorry for the late roll too, but get used to it ha. I'm on the west coast, so my roll will be around 11-12 ET each morning.

Again, I really want to thank everyone for their posts and advice and support. It means a lot to me and its pulling me through and pushing me past the 7-11's I drive by to and from work.

Kevin

Recruit,, your showing a lot of sincerity in your posts. You seem like a smart, intellegent and laid back type of guy. Right now all that may be a little difficult to pull off, so don't beat yourself up. Better you quit and have a little of that here then head down to the corner store to buy the poison.

Don't worry about erussell,,, he can take it. He was right where you are not to long ago,, as all of us. Sometimes I'm surprised things like this don't happen every day, venting I mean.

I'm a little nosy some time,, so I might check in from time to time to see how long you make it before the girl finds out. If she's as smart as I think she is,, your going to have a hard time keeping things from her... Only time will tell. Very interesting to say the least.

Bottom line,, stay quit, whatever it takes. Glad to be quit with you....

[Erussell]

Hey man your still here, that what we all hoped to see while we were busting your balls yesterday! I appreciate the open apology, but again as I said in the PM it isn't necessary. You get pissed at us as much as you want. That's part of the quit bro. I admit my message was not well worded either. I could have been just as tough on you but without a few of the trigger words and you wouldn't have probably reacted the way you did. Hey man glad to have your ass in our Groupe and I am proud like hell to be quitting with you! Don't think this means we are all going to loosen up, lol.

[jake frawley]

If you focus on you and make yourself better, the rest always falls into place. Glad your here

[kkljinc]

Recruit, just keep quitting. Your a few days in everyone will be a little bitchy. Hell at day 72 I went into a rage for 12 hours I could not explain. You're quit and I am quit with you.

[Recruit23]

Hey everyone,

Let me first apologize for calling out erussell. I know you were just offering advice and I really do appreciate everyones input into my quit. It does help to hear both sides. I'm taking this day by day and just focusing on what is going to get me through this quit. Right now, my fiance isnt what I need, but who knows that may change.

I think what it comes down to for me is that I got myself into this shit on my own. I became a slave to the can on my own doing and even when my other friends who started with me quit after a year or two, I just kept dipping. So this is all on me. And therefore, I want this quit to be all on me. I put myself into this shit, I will bring myself out.

Sorry for the late roll too, but get used to it ha. I'm on the west coast, so my roll will be around 11-12 ET each morning.

Again, I really want to thank everyone for their posts and advice and support. It means a lot to me and its pulling me through and pushing me past the 7-11's I drive by to and from work.

Kevin

[jake frawley]

Glad to see you posted role! Today is all that matters.

[jake frawley]

Thanks Nic10. I think thats a good call. I'm gonna go for a run.

Erussell, don't tell me my odds for pulling this off isnt high... thats not cool. Thought this was all about support. There are plenty of success entries I have read from ninja dippers.

Please stay positive if you are going to write on my thread here or keep the judges to yourself. I understand that you are trying to help, but this is my quit. I really do appreciate all of the tips and advice, but let me make my own decisions and dont judge me when they are different from what you believe.

Recruit23 hope you check in.. getting over the 1st 24 hours is a big hurdle.

Sounds like Erussell touched a nerve...

I don't have much new to tell you... Except! You are an addict! And addicts are great at justifying anything! I know because I am an addict too... Not telling your girl will bite you in the ass. Do you think you wont have mood changes? Ultimately its your choice. I've read a lot about successful ninja dippers too. The majority of them came clean... Sorry! Can't hold your hand and tell you that your right. Lying is an addicts game!

You will get a ton of support here. But only about things you are real and honest about. Some times negative things will be said to you in order to show you that a new way of thinking is needed.
Nothing about your addiction is positive! Its all negative. So some of the conversations you have will be negative. You will have days when you want to make a post cursing the world! that's o.k.Take what you can from the advice you get and grow. We wont always agree. But we will always help.

Post roll today as soon as you wake up!

[traumagnet]

Havent seen you post roll yet Recruit, are you doing ok do you need to talk to someone? PM if you do.
T

[nebraskadad58]

Thanks Nic10. I think thats a good call. I'm gonna go for a run.

Erussell, don't tell me my odds for pulling this off isnt high... thats not cool. Thought this was all about support. There are plenty of success entries I have read from ninja dippers.

Please stay positive if you are going to write on my thread here or keep the judges to yourself. I understand that you are trying to help, but this is my quit. I really do appreciate all of the tips and advice, but let me make my own decisions and dont judge me when they are different from what you believe.

Recruit23 hope you check in.. getting over the 1st 24 hours is a big hurdle.

[EFNKodiak]

Kevin, you are at the right place to find support at being quit. I was a ninja dipper too or at least I thought I was. I got busted by my girlfriend a few times, my fiance a few times, and my wife a few times. Long story short I lied to my wife about my addiction before we got married and after we were married. I blew it off each time and told her I just bought a tin because I was stressed, bored.... Just lies.

Early in my quit I didn't even consider it an option to tell my wife what I was doing. I would only log onto KTC at work because I didn't want to get busted.

About 12 days quit I told my wife everything - my decision to quit, kill the can, the ninja dipper BS. I was terrified that:

A.) she would not give a shit - as in "why can't you just quit"
B.) she would get up, kick me in the balls, and walk out.
C.) she would ask me why I lied about my addiction.
D.) all of the above and divorce me.

Now my wife is my biggest supporter and I don't have to live with the lies. It has strengthened my quit more than I could imagine.

All that matters in the end is that you have made the choice to live your life without nicotine today. I am proud to be quit with you and everyone at KTC.

[omahaflyer]

Welcome Kevin ! Good job guys. Strength in numbers, build accountability with each other and to the site. I am Quit with all of you.

[worktowin]

The chances of you succeeding if you post roll every day and continue to be a man of your word are 100%. Today that is all that matters. Welcome to day 2. You've got this.

[traumagnet]

I am not gonna bust your balls but, do you want to see another relationship built on trust n truth or lies and deception. What are you gonna do if she held something back and you find out are you gonna be all cool and so oh honey I forgive you...or do you want to fight a fight on a single front with your quit and have her unite with you and say lets kick this in the ass together. You are making a fatal mistake you are thinking for her you are making decisions based on what you think not based on what you know.

I have my fiancé in my corner and she is rocking it with me. she sends me texts every now and then and says today is ....

that is cool we battle the nic bitch together.
up to you I will be here pm me if youre stuck

[Wt57]

Kevin, the path you have chosen is a rough one and everyone here knows that. Many decisions will be yours and only you can make that judgement but we share our experiences and personal judgements to encourage each other on. I was a ninja dipper for 40 years and a ninja quitter (except for my wife of 33 years). Over the past year I've had this discussion with several ninja quitters.
Part of my addiction that I hated the most was the lies. The lies led to me not only hating tabacco, my addiction and my secret life but I grew to hate myself and my weak ass. My first step to quitting actually happened 5 months before my quit date (I stopped lying to my wife) I came clean about what I had become. For me being totally honest with her gave me as much freedom as quitting nicotine. For me telling anyone else all my secret weaknesses is totally unnecessary, but as spouses I want to strive for total honesty and trust. Actually one of the events that led me to taking that step of quitting was my wife's diagnosis of MS. I want to be healthy and ably to care for her if that becomes necessary.
I'm 100% behind you and your quit! Pm me if you need anything.