Hi all,
My name is Joe, and I've been dipping for the past four years. Ipicked up the habit my Sophomore year of College, where I bought a tin for the first time coming back from Thanksgiving vacation (I remember it very well). At that point, it probably took me two weeks to go through a single tin. I dipped fairly irregularly up until my second semester Junior year. By the time I was a first semester senior, I was dipping all the time, usually around two tins a week. Now, two years on, I can (with some difficulty) finish a tin a day, and generally buy around 3-4 tins a week.
Over the past year, I've noticed that my gums are starting to recede to a significant degree. The back of my throat feels dry, and sometime hurts. I try to drink a lot of water, but it only helps sometimes.
Quite simply, I've started to feel the tangible effects of what tobacco does to one's body. I am shitting a brick that I've developed some form of cancer, and I would like to stop dipping.
Over the past two months, I've 'quit' twice. I failed after the first attempt because I thought I had lost my job due to a misunderstanding between my bosses. I felt bad about myself, and I soothed my pain by filling my mouth with nicotine. I didn't dip for two weeks after that, but then just said "fuck it" and dipped. I've bought four or five tins (can't remember) over two weeks, and now am right back where I started.
I know its a huge wall of text, but I'm super apprehensive about the incidence of cancer in dippers and how shitty it would be to go out because of a stupid habit.
SO...what's up every body. I don't want to die!