I quit again

[Dipchit]

I promise not to dip today.

Worktowin 3,975. No dip today.

Keith0617 1864 ODAAT

2,757 - quitting 24 hours at a time

The anxiety is relentless today. I went 5 days with low to no anxiety last week but now I feel like I’m in the first week of my quit. This is crazy. How much suffering does a guy have to endure to get to the other side? Fuck!!!

[MN_Engineer]

I promise not to dip today.

Worktowin 3,975. No dip today.

Keith0617 1864 ODAAT

2,757 - quitting 24 hours at a time

[Keith0617]

I promise not to dip today.

Worktowin 3,975. No dip today.

Keith0617 1864 ODAAT

[worktowin]

I promise not to dip today.

Worktowin 3,975. No dip today.

[Dipchit]

I promise not to dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 153.
Just woke up and can feel the anxiety starting to come back again. It usually gets better after dark but as soon as I wake up it starts to build until it peaks around 10:00 am and then it’s ground hogs day from hell again. Over and over and over. Fucking nicotine withdrawal sucks. Part I don’t get is that you get a couple to a few days without symptoms and you think it’s finally over with and in an instant BOOM

[Keith0617]

Day 152
Feeling a little better this morning but I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch so I’ll see where this goes. It’s another rain/snow mix day today. We haven’t seen the sun for over a week now. This dreary weather sure doesn’t help. BTW if I didn’t blow my last quit I would have 18 years today without a dip. What a dipshit for taking that dip 4 and a half years ago. Well we can’t change the past but we can steer the future so my promise is not to dip today.

worktwoin 3,974.  Glad your day is starting a bit better, Steve.  Enjoy Friday, the best day of the week.  Hit the gym, and celebrate another day of winning.

MN/2,756 hope you find some ways to enjoy your Friday brother. While it's unfortunate you aren't able to celebrate 18 years quit today, your story and presence here helps people like me by providing a concrete reminder that we are never cured and there is no such thing as 'just one'. Complacency is the #1 quit killer and it's crazy how every time I wonder if I can fade from KTC and make it on my own, someone like yourself comes along to slap me back into focus. Posting takes 30 seconds a day; no reason to not protect my quit EDD. So thank you for coming back with a lesson for us and the tenacity to begin again.

It’s just after first break here at work and here comes the anxiety. I was flat and apathetic to begin the day but now the anxiety is ramping up pretty bad. Sense of fear and dread. All because I got stupid and finger banged a tin of cat shit. Can’t believe how long this lasts. Everything science says is 2 to 4 weeks. What a line of bullshit that is.
Rant over.

Keith0617 1863 ODAAT.   

[Dipchit]

Day 152
Feeling a little better this morning but I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch so I’ll see where this goes. It’s another rain/snow mix day today. We haven’t seen the sun for over a week now. This dreary weather sure doesn’t help. BTW if I didn’t blow my last quit I would have 18 years today without a dip. What a dipshit for taking that dip 4 and a half years ago. Well we can’t change the past but we can steer the future so my promise is not to dip today.

worktwoin 3,974.  Glad your day is starting a bit better, Steve.  Enjoy Friday, the best day of the week.  Hit the gym, and celebrate another day of winning.

MN/2,756 hope you find some ways to enjoy your Friday brother. While it's unfortunate you aren't able to celebrate 18 years quit today, your story and presence here helps people like me by providing a concrete reminder that we are never cured and there is no such thing as 'just one'. Complacency is the #1 quit killer and it's crazy how every time I wonder if I can fade from KTC and make it on my own, someone like yourself comes along to slap me back into focus. Posting takes 30 seconds a day; no reason to not protect my quit EDD. So thank you for coming back with a lesson for us and the tenacity to begin again.

It’s just after first break here at work and here comes the anxiety. I was flat and apathetic to begin the day but now the anxiety is ramping up pretty bad. Sense of fear and dread. All because I got stupid and finger banged a tin of cat shit. Can’t believe how long this lasts. Everything science says is 2 to 4 weeks. What a line of bullshit that is.
Rant over.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 152
Feeling a little better this morning but I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch so I’ll see where this goes. It’s another rain/snow mix day today. We haven’t seen the sun for over a week now. This dreary weather sure doesn’t help. BTW if I didn’t blow my last quit I would have 18 years today without a dip. What a dipshit for taking that dip 4 and a half years ago. Well we can’t change the past but we can steer the future so my promise is not to dip today.

worktwoin 3,974.  Glad your day is starting a bit better, Steve.  Enjoy Friday, the best day of the week.  Hit the gym, and celebrate another day of winning.

MN/2,756 hope you find some ways to enjoy your Friday brother. While it's unfortunate you aren't able to celebrate 18 years quit today, your story and presence here helps people like me by providing a concrete reminder that we are never cured and there is no such thing as 'just one'. Complacency is the #1 quit killer and it's crazy how every time I wonder if I can fade from KTC and make it on my own, someone like yourself comes along to slap me back into focus. Posting takes 30 seconds a day; no reason to not protect my quit EDD. So thank you for coming back with a lesson for us and the tenacity to begin again.

[worktowin]

Day 152
Feeling a little better this morning but I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch so I’ll see where this goes. It’s another rain/snow mix day today. We haven’t seen the sun for over a week now. This dreary weather sure doesn’t help. BTW if I didn’t blow my last quit I would have 18 years today without a dip. What a dipshit for taking that dip 4 and a half years ago. Well we can’t change the past but we can steer the future so my promise is not to dip today.

worktwoin 3,974.  Glad your day is starting a bit better, Steve.  Enjoy Friday, the best day of the week.  Hit the gym, and celebrate another day of winning.

[Dipchit]

Day 152
Feeling a little better this morning but I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch so I’ll see where this goes. It’s another rain/snow mix day today. We haven’t seen the sun for over a week now. This dreary weather sure doesn’t help. BTW if I didn’t blow my last quit I would have 18 years today without a dip. What a dipshit for taking that dip 4 and a half years ago. Well we can’t change the past but we can steer the future so my promise is not to dip today.

[worktowin]

MN/2,755 - sunny and beautiful here in central MN today; it's a great day to be QUIT.

Keith0617 1862 Same here in MD

Day 151.
Came back from deer camp early for 2 reasons. First reason is I’m tired of all the wind and freezing rain and second my withdrawal came back full force. I had close to a week of pretty good days but I woke up Tuesday morning with the tingles and as I felt that I knew my window of good days was about to slam shut. Yesterday go bad after breakfast and it has only gotten worse since. Severe head pressure with apathy and anxiety. I have lost interest in life itself but I know this will pass but to have a few wonderful days and then have life ripped away from you again is so hard. Fucking nicotine needs to be outlawed. What a horrible chemical. So here we are back in withdrawals.
I promise not to dip today.

Sorry to hear Steve. Everyone is different and I don't want to give you a false 'goal', but it wasn't until after the 200 day mark for me that things started to improve. Glad to hear you had a string of good days; I hope you enjoyed them and that they will give you the motivation to power through this rough patch. Proud to be quit with you TODAY.

worktowin 3,973.  Steve, welcome home!

I don't know if you remember my timeline, but I didn't start "living" again until day 150.  You are right there.  You are now to the point where life isn't a CONSTANT struggle, and rather where you have good days and good times and it doesn't feel like you are in a trench fighting and not moving an inch forward 100% of the time.  Remember, you have had some good days.  Not that long ago that was not the case.  So enjoy and remember the wins, because you have more coming ahead and this does get easier.  It already has, it is just hard to remember that when you are in the moment.  I'm honored to quit with you and the other winners on your team, bro.  Hang in there.  I promise that we do know what we are talking about.

[MN_Engineer]

MN/2,755 - sunny and beautiful here in central MN today; it's a great day to be QUIT.

Keith0617 1862 Same here in MD

Day 151.
Came back from deer camp early for 2 reasons. First reason is I’m tired of all the wind and freezing rain and second my withdrawal came back full force. I had close to a week of pretty good days but I woke up Tuesday morning with the tingles and as I felt that I knew my window of good days was about to slam shut. Yesterday go bad after breakfast and it has only gotten worse since. Severe head pressure with apathy and anxiety. I have lost interest in life itself but I know this will pass but to have a few wonderful days and then have life ripped away from you again is so hard. Fucking nicotine needs to be outlawed. What a horrible chemical. So here we are back in withdrawals.
I promise not to dip today.

Sorry to hear Steve. Everyone is different and I don't want to give you a false 'goal', but it wasn't until after the 200 day mark for me that things started to improve. Glad to hear you had a string of good days; I hope you enjoyed them and that they will give you the motivation to power through this rough patch. Proud to be quit with you TODAY.

[Dipchit]

MN/2,755 - sunny and beautiful here in central MN today; it's a great day to be QUIT.

Keith0617 1862 Same here in MD

Day 151.
Came back from deer camp early for 2 reasons. First reason is I’m tired of all the wind and freezing rain and second my withdrawal came back full force. I had close to a week of pretty good days but I woke up Tuesday morning with the tingles and as I felt that I knew my window of good days was about to slam shut. Yesterday go bad after breakfast and it has only gotten worse since. Severe head pressure with apathy and anxiety. I have lost interest in life itself but I know this will pass but to have a few wonderful days and then have life ripped away from you again is so hard. Fucking nicotine needs to be outlawed. What a horrible chemical. So here we are back in withdrawals.
I promise not to dip today.

[Keith0617]

MN/2,755 - sunny and beautiful here in central MN today; it's a great day to be QUIT.

Keith0617 1862 Same here in MD