I quit again

[AppleJack]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

We've offered everything possible to help you Steve. Your self imposed limitations prevent you from taking full advantage of the entire KTC process which is what makes this place so successful. Our pledge to brotherhood and accountability have kept some of us posting in here with you but unless you open yourself up to doing this our way, there is nothing left for you here. I've only had to say that to a couple people on KTC over my 8 years here and it hurts my soul each time.

I hope you find peace in your life. Godspeed brother.

Ages ago I woulda chimed in with something snarky or cutting. I’ve seen all the quitter types and those who leave these halls really do have a tougher road to walk, I think.

But…

Life’s too short to stir up shit like that. Peace and healing are out there, man. It’s also right here but if you feel you need to step away… so be it. Go find that healing. Find that peace.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

We've offered everything possible to help you Steve. Your self imposed limitations prevent you from taking full advantage of the entire KTC process which is what makes this place so successful. Our pledge to brotherhood and accountability have kept some of us posting in here with you but unless you open yourself up to doing this our way, there is nothing left for you here. I've only had to say that to a couple people on KTC over my 8 years here and it hurts my soul each time.

I hope you find peace in your life. Godspeed brother.

[Dipchit]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

I don't understand why logging into a friendly quitting web site would cause anxiety  You have almost had a year of progress battling your addiction.  Seems like you don't trust us.  If you are really gone for good then good luck!

Stranger999, day 3,114.

Don’t let the door hit you in the ass

Fuck off you little bitch!!
To the rest of the guys like worktowin, Apple Jack, Mnengineer, Stranger etc. thank you all for the support and wisdom. All I ever got from Kieth was useless noise. Now tells me that? Kieth you can go fuck yourself. My screen name would be more suited for you. You all have a great life except you Kieth.

[Keith0617]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

I don't understand why logging into a friendly quitting web site would cause anxiety  You have almost had a year of progress battling your addiction.  Seems like you don't trust us.  If you are really gone for good then good luck!

Stranger999, day 3,114.

Don’t let the door hit you in the ass

[Stranger999]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

I don't understand why logging into a friendly quitting web site would cause anxiety  You have almost had a year of progress battling your addiction.  Seems like you don't trust us.  If you are really gone for good then good luck!

Stranger999, day 3,114.

[Dipchit]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

Every time I log in my anxiety level goes through the roof. Guess I’m done here. I will never dip again. Bye guys and happy not dipping.

[Dipchit]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 278.
Deep black depression. Feeling absolutely defeated and hopeless. I can’t believe how long this shit is lasting. Figured a few weeks and that would be it. Fuckin google is dead wrong about how long nicotine withdrawal lasts. Most sites say 2 to 4 weeks. I won’t dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 277
Some anxiety and bad depression.
No dip today.

[MN_Engineer]

Well I’m back. I can’t remember how many days quit I am but I think it’s around 276 or so. I’ll figure it out tomorrow. It’s been about a month since I last posted and unfortunately I have had zero progress. I’m still battling severe depression and anxiety not to mention monster craves. Only peace I get is when I eventually fall asleep and as soon as I wake up it’s instant panic and dread. I never had any of this while I dipped. I actually felt great when I was dipping. Definitely not going back though. I cannot promise that I will post every day because just logging in gives me anxiety. Probably because it reminds me that I dipped. Thats just the way it’s going to be. I won’t dip today.

Appreciate the update. I'm sorry to hear the battle rages on. But you are closer to better days than you were a month ago so maintain your resolve and don't lose hope. Proud to be quit with you today.

[Dipchit]

Well I’m back. I can’t remember how many days quit I am but I think it’s around 276 or so. I’ll figure it out tomorrow. It’s been about a month since I last posted and unfortunately I have had zero progress. I’m still battling severe depression and anxiety not to mention monster craves. Only peace I get is when I eventually fall asleep and as soon as I wake up it’s instant panic and dread. I never had any of this while I dipped. I actually felt great when I was dipping. Definitely not going back though. I cannot promise that I will post every day because just logging in gives me anxiety. Probably because it reminds me that I dipped. Thats just the way it’s going to be. I won’t dip today.

[worktowin]

Day 247
No dip today. Gunna take a break from all social media and concentrate on life. We are going old school and living like it’s 1994. The whole family. See ya all when we get back.

MN/2,851 - QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 4,069.  You do you bro.  The plan here at KTC is to quit as a team and post daily.  Good luck on your hiatus.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 247
No dip today. Gunna take a break from all social media and concentrate on life. We are going old school and living like it’s 1994. The whole family. See ya all when we get back.

MN/2,851 - QLAMF ODAAT

[Dipchit]

Day 247
No dip today. Gunna take a break from all social media and concentrate on life. We are going old school and living like it’s 1994. The whole family. See ya all when we get back.

[worktowin]

Day 246
No dip today.

Keith0617 1957 What a great day to be a quitter

MN/2,850 - despite the Superbowl, not a drop of alcohol yesterday; woke up feeling great. Even cleaned all the bathrooms in the house after the kids got off to school. No nicotine for this guy today.

worktowin 4,068.  Well, I'm in the alcohol biz.... so I had more than a few drops of alcohol yesterday!  What a great day to live in Kansas City and be a Chiefs fan!  And, of course, a great day to not be a slave to nicotine.  Honored to quit with you guys today.