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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Delahunt on January 28, 2019, 05:35:16 PM
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In my early 20s, so my addiction isn't as long as some on this site, not trying to negate the importance of getting rid of it. Posting here, and will update once a day for the first few weeks, and then whenever I feel from then on. Starting my thread as an accountability factor. Dip has taken over every aspect of my life---school, fitness, sleep, everything. I've been faced with this reality for the past few weeks, but have failed almost everyday of getting rid of it. However, I will finally defeat it. I no longer have to feel like I'm lying to my loved ones, and want to have my overall energy back. I want to be confident in who I am, and I know me dipping everyday has severely obstructed that. I hope to develop more use of this site for support, coping tactics, withdrawal support----etc. Thanks for any potential support coming my way. This site, and everyone who uses it inspires me. I just want to be myself again. And I will conquer this. Tomorrow (as cliche as it sounds) is the day that will start the life-changing process of ridding myself from the chains that is my addiction. Thank you to anyone who reads this.
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In my early 20s, so my addiction isn't as long as some on this site, not trying to negate the importance of getting rid of it. Posting here, and will update once a day for the first few weeks, and then whenever I feel from then on. Starting my thread as an accountability factor. Dip has taken over every aspect of my life---school, fitness, sleep, everything. I've been faced with this reality for the past few weeks, but have failed almost everyday of getting rid of it. However, I will finally defeat it. I no longer have to feel like I'm lying to my loved ones, and want to have my overall energy back. I want to be confident in who I am, and I know me dipping everyday has severely obstructed that. I hope to develop more use of this site for support, coping tactics, withdrawal support----etc. Thanks for any potential support coming my way. This site, and everyone who uses it inspires me. I just want to be myself again. And I will conquer this. Tomorrow (as cliche as it sounds) is the day that will start the life-changing process of ridding myself from the chains that is my addiction. Thank you to anyone who reads this.
Delahunt,
I'm glad you have decided to quit. That is awesome. But why are you waiting for tomorrow? Tomorrow NEVER comes for an addict. Your addict brain will come up with yet another excuse for you not to quit tomorrow. QUIT NOW!!!!
Flush that shit down the toilet and go post Day 1 in the May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group. It is there that you will find the accountability and brotherhood you seek, not here in the "Intros" pages.
This is the price of admission to this site. You must not be using any kind of nicotine product and you must post roll daily in your group. Here is a link to your group May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group (https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1015.345).
Go there now and post roll. Stay nicotine free for 24 hours and come back and post roll again. Do this every day, early in the day so nicotine is off the table.
Exchange digits with other quitters in your group and some of the vets. This will build your accountability network and give you instant access to support if you need it for bad craves.
Again - DON'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW - FLUSH THAT SHIT DOWN THE TOILET AND QUIT NOW>
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In my early 20s, so my addiction isn't as long as some on this site, not trying to negate the importance of getting rid of it. Posting here, and will update once a day for the first few weeks, and then whenever I feel from then on. Starting my thread as an accountability factor. Dip has taken over every aspect of my life---school, fitness, sleep, everything. I've been faced with this reality for the past few weeks, but have failed almost everyday of getting rid of it. However, I will finally defeat it. I no longer have to feel like I'm lying to my loved ones, and want to have my overall energy back. I want to be confident in who I am, and I know me dipping everyday has severely obstructed that. I hope to develop more use of this site for support, coping tactics, withdrawal support----etc. Thanks for any potential support coming my way. This site, and everyone who uses it inspires me. I just want to be myself again. And I will conquer this. Tomorrow (as cliche as it sounds) is the day that will start the life-changing process of ridding myself from the chains that is my addiction. Thank you to anyone who reads this.
Welcome Delahunt I'm glad you came here and are ready to Quit. I am also in the May group! The road won't be easy but we are here for you Brother. If you need anything, feel free to hit me up. This is a great group of folks, we are all going through or had gone through what you are about to.
It may seem a bit weird at first but get ready for folks reaching out to you. I had a bit of a chuckle at first, but then my Wife asked me if everything was ok as my phone was blowing up, I told her its just my quit brothers checking in.. Now she has worked for the local Hospital for a while, so she asked.. What do you need support friends for? I looked at her and asked her when was the last time she quit Nicotine? Never because she never started, I reminded her I am going through a lot of changes and these folks have gone through it all.
Chris2akaska is right, Start tonight, take that stand. We quit for the day and the day only, One Day at a Time. If you choose to wait until tomorrow, I won't hold it against you, but I hope to see your name in Roll tomorrow! Together we got this! Proud to Quit with you Today!
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In my early 20s, so my addiction isn't as long as some on this site, not trying to negate the importance of getting rid of it. Posting here, and will update once a day for the first few weeks, and then whenever I feel from then on. Starting my thread as an accountability factor. Dip has taken over every aspect of my life---school, fitness, sleep, everything. I've been faced with this reality for the past few weeks, but have failed almost everyday of getting rid of it. However, I will finally defeat it. I no longer have to feel like I'm lying to my loved ones, and want to have my overall energy back. I want to be confident in who I am, and I know me dipping everyday has severely obstructed that. I hope to develop more use of this site for support, coping tactics, withdrawal support----etc. Thanks for any potential support coming my way. This site, and everyone who uses it inspires me. I just want to be myself again. And I will conquer this. Tomorrow (as cliche as it sounds) is the day that will start the life-changing process of ridding myself from the chains that is my addiction. Thank you to anyone who reads this.
Delahunt,
I'm glad you have decided to quit. That is awesome. But why are you waiting for tomorrow? Tomorrow NEVER comes for an addict. Your addict brain will come up with yet another excuse for you not to quit tomorrow. QUIT NOW!!!!
Flush that shit down the toilet and go post Day 1 in the May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group. It is there that you will find the accountability and brotherhood you seek, not here in the "Intros" pages.
This is the price of admission to this site. You must not be using any kind of nicotine product and you must post roll daily in your group. Here is a link to your group May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group (https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1015.345).
Go there now and post roll. Stay nicotine free for 24 hours and come back and post roll again. Do this every day, early in the day so nicotine is off the table.
Exchange digits with other quitters in your group and some of the vets. This will build your accountability network and give you instant access to support if you need it for bad craves.
Again - DON'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW - FLUSH THAT SHIT DOWN THE TOILET AND QUIT NOW>
Damn right. See you on the roll tomorrow. Goodbye to my final can of wintergreen. Won't miss it. Ready to take my life back.
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In my early 20s, so my addiction isn't as long as some on this site, not trying to negate the importance of getting rid of it. Posting here, and will update once a day for the first few weeks, and then whenever I feel from then on. Starting my thread as an accountability factor. Dip has taken over every aspect of my life---school, fitness, sleep, everything. I've been faced with this reality for the past few weeks, but have failed almost everyday of getting rid of it. However, I will finally defeat it. I no longer have to feel like I'm lying to my loved ones, and want to have my overall energy back. I want to be confident in who I am, and I know me dipping everyday has severely obstructed that. I hope to develop more use of this site for support, coping tactics, withdrawal support----etc. Thanks for any potential support coming my way. This site, and everyone who uses it inspires me. I just want to be myself again. And I will conquer this. Tomorrow (as cliche as it sounds) is the day that will start the life-changing process of ridding myself from the chains that is my addiction. Thank you to anyone who reads this.
Delahunt,
I'm glad you have decided to quit. That is awesome. But why are you waiting for tomorrow? Tomorrow NEVER comes for an addict. Your addict brain will come up with yet another excuse for you not to quit tomorrow. QUIT NOW!!!!
Flush that shit down the toilet and go post Day 1 in the May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group. It is there that you will find the accountability and brotherhood you seek, not here in the "Intros" pages.
This is the price of admission to this site. You must not be using any kind of nicotine product and you must post roll daily in your group. Here is a link to your group May 2019 Pre-HOF Quit Group (https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1015.345).
Go there now and post roll. Stay nicotine free for 24 hours and come back and post roll again. Do this every day, early in the day so nicotine is off the table.
Exchange digits with other quitters in your group and some of the vets. This will build your accountability network and give you instant access to support if you need it for bad craves.
Again - DON'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW - FLUSH THAT SHIT DOWN THE TOILET AND QUIT NOW>
Damn right. See you on the roll tomorrow. Goodbye to my final can of wintergreen. Won't miss it. Ready to take my life back.
If you flush it today, you can go post your day 1 today. You count day one from the last dip you had.
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Day One almost down. Started having pretty bad cravings after my workout. Every ounce of me wanted to stop at chevron and grab a tin, but I didn't. That's win number one in my book. I'm choosing to put my health, fitness, sleep, school, relationship, and family before that dumb ass shit I should've never tried. However I'm aware the night isn't over and I've caved many times before so I just have to keep fighting. I will see you boys on the roll tomorrow. Thought about that HOF more than ten times today. Will update again tomorrow night.
Dela
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Day One almost down. Started having pretty bad cravings after my workout. Every ounce of me wanted to stop at chevron and grab a tin, but I didn't. That's win number one in my book. I'm choosing to put my health, fitness, sleep, school, relationship, and family before that dumb ass shit I should've never tried. However I'm aware the night isn't over and I've caved many times before so I just have to keep fighting. I will see you boys on the roll tomorrow. Thought about that HOF more than ten times today. Will update again tomorrow night.
Dela
Still waiting for you to reciprocate your number Dela. Accountability is a two way street. Besides you will get added to my daily meme text. Who the hell does not want to be on MY daily meme text?? roflmao
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Day One almost down. Started having pretty bad cravings after my workout. Every ounce of me wanted to stop at chevron and grab a tin, but I didn't. That's win number one in my book. I'm choosing to put my health, fitness, sleep, school, relationship, and family before that dumb ass shit I should've never tried. However I'm aware the night isn't over and I've caved many times before so I just have to keep fighting. I will see you boys on the roll tomorrow. Thought about that HOF more than ten times today. Will update again tomorrow night.
Dela
Still waiting for you to reciprocate your number Dela. Accountability is a two way street. Besides you will get added to my daily meme text. Who the hell does not want to be on MY daily meme text?? roflmao
Do it Dela... his daily memes are classic! If you need digits, let me know. I’m not exactly senior here, only 25 days into my quit. Trust me that the brothers you meet here will help you stay straight and not put the next lump of cat shit in your lip. They are the reason I come back each day. Ask Chris2alaska, he was the first to each out to me and my response was “I’m too new here yet to share my digits” Yeah, well three weeks later I have no less than 10 sets of digits of fellow brothers in quit. Take a chance and trust the process. You’ll find everyone here gets it and is only here to make it easier and make sure you succeed.
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
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Broke the number one rule of the site. "Nicotine free". What a damn disappointment
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Broke the number one rule of the site. "Nicotine free". What a damn disappointment
I'm no expert, but don't let that define you. I slipped up and put a dip in the night of my planned quit. It was the only one I had that day. I regretted it and vowed not to slip up again. You have to decide to make that one your last one. Just take one step at a time and one day at a time.
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Broke the number one rule of the site. "Nicotine free". What a damn disappointment
Post your promise in the morning. Be a man of your word. Share number with others. Quit. Do it again the next day.
Not hard when it is simplified. If you choose 'your' way, enjoy the ride on your own. It leads to a high percentage failure.
Who are you going to listen too? A bunch of us who are quit with proof the system works or nicotine which wants you to stay the slave and prisoner to your addiction?
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
I want freedom. I want it so so bad. My personality throughout my whole life has been to be so dedicated to something and then in a split second completely change my passions and tendencies and thats what happened today. I'm ashamed of my failure. I want to succeed.
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
I want freedom. I want it so so bad. My personality throughout my whole life has been to be so dedicated to something and then in a split second completely change my passions and tendencies and thats what happened today. I'm ashamed of my failure. I want to succeed.
Nicotine doesn't care about personality. Nicotine doesn't care about anything except to get people addicted. What that means is ALL OF US are equal on this site and this fight. No one is special.
What you are as a person doesn't matter with quitting. What you choose to stand behind from this day to the next when it comes to quitting is what YOU must stand on and build your foundation upon.
We are here to support you. That is it. Are you ready? If not, you will get nailed for caving again (you likely still will get nailed right now for caving already since you didn't build your accountability network when others reached out to you).
This place works if you buy in to the system. It doesn't if you don't. This is your decision and yours only. What say you?
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
I want freedom. I want it so so bad. My personality throughout my whole life has been to be so dedicated to something and then in a split second completely change my passions and tendencies and thats what happened today. I'm ashamed of my failure. I want to succeed.
Nicotine doesn't care about personality. Nicotine doesn't care about anything except to get people addicted. What that means is ALL OF US are equal on this site and this fight. No one is special.
What you are as a person doesn't matter with quitting. What you choose to stand behind from this day to the next when it comes to quitting is what YOU must stand on and build your foundation upon.
We are here to support you. That is it. Are you ready? If not, you will get nailed for caving again (you likely still will get nailed right now for caving already since you didn't build your accountability network when others reached out to you).
This place works if you buy in to the system. It doesn't if you don't. This is your decision and yours only. What say you?
Delahunt,
I sent you my number. I asked for yours but was ignored. I am sure other people sent you there numbers as well. You had the resource you needed to keep from caving. All you had to do is pick up the damn phone.
Like Palpatine said, if you don't buy into the how this place works, then you will more than likely continue to fail. Right now the choice is yours to either keep sucking the tit of that dead bitch plant or flush that shit and get back in here and post Day 1. The choice has always been yours. No one forced that crap in to your mouth, you chose to put it in. Now you can choose to spit it out or keep sucking on it.
If you choose to quit, then I encourage you to go all in and quit for real. Addiction only beats you if you let it. You can beat it if you follow the program and in here the program is really simple.
What's it gonna be???
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Sorry to hear you caved man. Get back to it, The Support is here, Use it. Do it for you. Here if you need me!
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After reading wildirish’s post of the three questions, here are my answers. Tear them apart, tear me apart, I don’t really give a shit because I’m going to quit regardless. I’m putting it all out in these answers for a hope at being able to return to this system. I know I need it and I know I’m an addict.
1. I set myself up for failure by reasoning with myself and creating the one more dip mentality. I also didn’t take this commitment seriously (as I have a history of doing in the past). I set myself up for failure by not being a man of my word. Shitty as it sounds that’s the bottom line.
2. It happened because I didn’t go into it with a day by day mentality. I was already thinking days in advance, and wanted a quick release from the shittiness I was feeling from nicotine withdrawal. I knowingly went and bought a can of dip, and knowingly didn’t honor my word to be dip free for that day.
3. I’m going to keep it from happening again by actually honoring my word. Reading all the posts from today made me realize how much of a man I wasn’t. I lied to y’all and I lied to myself and I’m not doing that ever again.
While I have received crap from not reciprocating my phone number that is still something I will have to build on. The PMs, forums, roll, and my word are what I’m going to commit to. I will not dip again, but I am one paranoid individual and just throwing my personal cell out to a public forum in today’s society is not something I’m entirely ready to do yet. Even being on this forum alone and sharing my struggles is a huge step outside of my box. If that’s a deal-breaker then I’ll log out and never post on this site again. You guys won’t have to deal with me. But I’m still quitting regardless. Either through this site, or through other people in my life. I've learned a lot already from ktc, and I'm ready to own my quit.
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After reading wildirish’s post of the three questions, here are my answers. Tear them apart, tear me apart, I don’t really give a shit because I’m going to quit regardless. I’m putting it all out in these answers for a hope at being able to return to this system. I know I need it and I know I’m an addict.
1. I set myself up for failure by reasoning with myself and creating the one more dip mentality. I also didn’t take this commitment seriously (as I have a history of doing in the past). I set myself up for failure by not being a man of my word. Shitty as it sounds that’s the bottom line.
2. It happened because I didn’t go into it with a day by day mentality. I was already thinking days in advance, and wanted a quick release from the shittiness I was feeling from nicotine withdrawal. I knowingly went and bought a can of dip, and knowingly didn’t honor my word to be dip free for that day.
3. I’m going to keep it from happening again by actually honoring my word. Reading all the posts from today made me realize how much of a man I wasn’t. I lied to y’all and I lied to myself and I’m not doing that ever again.
While I have received crap from not reciprocating my phone number that is still something I will have to build on. The PMs, forums, roll, and my word are what I’m going to commit to. I will not dip again, but I am one paranoid individual and just throwing my personal cell out to a public forum in today’s society is not something I’m entirely ready to do yet. Even being on this forum alone and sharing my struggles is a huge step outside of my box. If that’s a deal-breaker then I’ll log out and never post on this site again. You guys won’t have to deal with me. But I’m still quitting regardless. Either through this site, or through other people in my life. I've learned a lot already from ktc, and I'm ready to own my quit.
To be clear, no one is stating to you that there are 'deal-breakers' for being here because you caved and because you won't provide your phone number. Are they laying into you? Sure...but it isn't a deal breaker. They are stating this because this system works if you buy into the system. They are speaking to Delahunt and not 'Addict Delahunt' who wants to run off away from this site and start using again. That is our addict persona. Our addict persona at the beginning of a quit will fight like crazy to lure you back into using poison. It is what is and has been in control for so long. You found something that will get that monkey off of your back and the addict you is going nuts...crazy in a way. It is a real fight. You can run away from here if you want...that is YOUR choice.
Remember, the enemy is nicotine. All of the people here who lay into you...they are laying into your addict persona. They are trying to reach the real Delahunt that is in prison. This site is all based on accountability. No one here can make you do anything. None...no one here is going to know who you are or where you live unless you tell them. But know that all of these people are real people with regular lives doing whatever it is they do. The one thing that brings us all together on an even playing field across the board is that we are all addicts and we found a solution and are now paying it forward to help out others. No one here gets paid. It is a free site that is run by many volunteers who are freely giving back to others to help them and support them to stay quit each day. The door was opened for you when you knocked and registered. No one made you register here.
If you want to be free from this horrible addiction, coming hear each day will provide that daily promise and support from others to keep quit each day. There is no cure to this. 100 days is a milestone. The addiction is for life. You can't go to the gym for 100 days and then never have to work out again because you will be fit the rest of your life. It is a life long process that we just take one day at a time.
Get in here...own your addiction and own your actions. Get quit!
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Appreciate everything Palpatine. This quit is for myself with this site as my number one tool in the belt. I have a gameplan for the weekend, and will get through it. Will not be caving again... 10000%. Ready to have my life back.
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
I want freedom. I want it so so bad. My personality throughout my whole life has been to be so dedicated to something and then in a split second completely change my passions and tendencies and thats what happened today. I'm ashamed of my failure. I want to succeed.
Get over the failure and get on your quit. Get over the fear of accountability and share some digits with folks going through the same shit you are. I’ve
Sent you a PM with my digits. Anyone that asks me for help will get mine in return, and I WILL quit with you and keep you straight, but the next step isn’t mine to take...so what’s it gonna be?
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Already caved. Too weak minded and controlled by addiction. Can't believe it. Obviously not committed enough. Can't even say I tried when I didn't even make it 48 hours. Sad shit. Can't even feel sorry for myself, felt like I was on autopilot driving to the gas station. Sorry boys. To those who have quit fucking props to y'all, it is inspiring and I refuse to accept defeat. I will get there one day. One fail doesn't define me. Have to reevaluate what went wrong and come at it with a better gameplan. Didn't put the effort required in, and downplayed my addiction. Felt so sick and unhealthy today and school is kicking my ass and I keep coming back to this dumbass shit as a release mechanism. Deeply disappointed in myself. Hate that I let y'all down, but that is primarily the issue. Quitting has to be for me. Not for fear of letting people down. Don't know where to go from here.
I just have to point out something here. You say you are controlled by addiction. Remember, that is a choice. You can choose to let it control you or choose to not let it control you.
Only YOU can put poison into your lip. That goes both ways... only YOU can prevent it from going into your lip.
Now, you caved. There are consequences for that on this site. But there is redemption. Do you want to be owned and controlled by a dead plant in a can that you waste money on to kill yourself or do you want freedom?
This isn't a rhetorical question. Answer and then we know where you stand.
I want freedom. I want it so so bad. My personality throughout my whole life has been to be so dedicated to something and then in a split second completely change my passions and tendencies and thats what happened today. I'm ashamed of my failure. I want to succeed.
Get over the failure and get on your quit. Get over the fear of accountability and share some digits with folks going through the same shit you are. I’ve
Sent you a PM with my digits. Anyone that asks me for help will get mine in return, and I WILL quit with you and keep you straight, but the next step isn’t mine to take...so what’s it gonna be?
As I'm sitting here reading this, and contemplating sharing my story of hesitation to give out my number, low and behold I get a text from ^^^this guy^^^, just saying hey and throwing out support for the weekend. Delahunt I get it man, but I exchanged digits with Enuff in the very beginning of our group, and he has yet to creep on me. We've chatted occasionally, thrown out support, and I know where to reach him if I get in a bind. He's legit, and only interested in quitting and supporting your quit. I guess what I 'm trying to say is you can trust EnuffSnuff to share digits, it'd be a good start to overcoming your trepidation.
Don't just take my word, spend a few hours digging through and see that your fears of sharing are not special. Most of us have been there, but the ones who get past that and share are setting up for an actual quit. I said the same stupid addict shit, my phone is now loaded with numbers of people from KTC that I trust and that can trust me. My quit is strong, but I had to make it that way by first realizing I'm no different than any of these other quitters, and secondly heed their advice based on the "I'm not special" realization.
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Today was euphoric. Got a bunch of stuff done. Worked out hard. Ate clean. Was a bit foggy in the morning, and my throat hurt but it was a good day. Cravings hit like clock work once I settled down for the night. Usually when I would dip. Fighting through each minute, keeping my word. I will not be a slave to that shit anymore. Minute by minute will go by until I go to sleep then I'll wake up and kick ass again.
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Today was euphoric. Got a bunch of stuff done. Worked out hard. Ate clean. Was a bit foggy in the morning, and my throat hurt but it was a good day. Cravings hit like clock work once I settled down for the night. Usually when I would dip. Fighting through each minute, keeping my word. I will not be a slave to that shit anymore. Minute by minute will go by until I go to sleep then I'll wake up and kick ass again.
Dela, you got this man! Proud of you and your tenacity. One day, hour, minute at a time. Whatever it takes and however you need to get through it. It gets better....much better. Not saying I don’t have cravings or moments where I think about it, but finally feeling life free of nicotine is a euphoria of its own. You are grabbing your quit by balls and getting it done. I’m proud to quit with you today! If you ever need anything at all, PM me or reach out. Always glad to walk the quit with a fellow brother.
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How is the quit going Delahunt? Keep
Kicking the nic bitch!
Pm if you need any more digits
Clary245
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How is the quit going Delahunt? Keep
Kicking the nic bitch!
Pm if you need any more digits
Clary245
Its going bro. Headaches are pretty frequent, and sleep is an issue, but working out and just being on this site/pming people has helped a ton. Got some sunflower seeds today. I hesitated getting them at first because I feared it would just maintain my oral fixation but shit if I'm addicted to sunflower seeds the rest of my life that sure as hell beats dip. Thanks for reaching out man.
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How is the quit going Delahunt? Keep
Kicking the nic bitch!
Pm if you need any more digits
Clary245
Its going bro. Headaches are pretty frequent, and sleep is an issue, but working out and just being on this site/pming people has helped a ton. Got some sunflower seeds today. I hesitated getting them at first because I feared it would just maintain my oral fixation but shit if I'm addicted to sunflower seeds the rest of my life that sure as hell beats dip. Thanks for reaching out man.
Keep it up Delahunt, glad to see you powering through this. One of the best pieces of advice that I was given early in my quit was to drink mass quantities of water. Seemed to help me a bit with the headaches and the fog/funk. Good luck man
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How is the quit going Delahunt? Keep
Kicking the nic bitch!
Pm if you need any more digits
Clary245
Its going bro. Headaches are pretty frequent, and sleep is an issue, but working out and just being on this site/pming people has helped a ton. Got some sunflower seeds today. I hesitated getting them at first because I feared it would just maintain my oral fixation but shit if I'm addicted to sunflower seeds the rest of my life that sure as hell beats dip. Thanks for reaching out man.
Keep it up Delahunt, glad to see you powering through this. One of the best pieces of advice that I was given early in my quit was to drink mass quantities of water. Seemed to help me a bit with the headaches and the fog/funk. Good luck man
Delahunt, I just wanted to point out that nicotine is the enemy. You aren't going to get addicted to seeds, fake dip, or anything. Do whatever it takes to keep the cancer turd out of your mouth. I went without fake or substitutes for about 60 days, then I felt a big funk coming on. So I got some Smokey Mountain which helped a lot. Everyone is different, do what you need to do and reach out for support if you need it.
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Waking up this morning and talk about mood improvements.........such a nice feeling. Drank a little wine last night and was around people who dip from time to time (isn't that a crazy concept) and before I took a sip of alcohol I had the thought imprinted in my brain that no matter what I would say no.. Kept thinking that as the buzz got stronger. Luckily for me---no dip was brought out, only cigars (which I'm not too much of a fan of so that was an easy no, pretty sure they have nicotine in them right) just tried to be on the safe side. Anyways, about to go workout hard on this saturday in order to keep cleansing my body from all the shit I've put in it with my former dip habit. Hope you guys have an awesome saturday
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Waking up this morning and talk about mood improvements.........such a nice feeling. Drank a little wine last night and was around people who dip from time to time (isn't that a crazy concept) and before I took a sip of alcohol I had the thought imprinted in my brain that no matter what I would say no.. Kept thinking that as the buzz got stronger. Luckily for me---no dip was brought out, only cigars (which I'm not too much of a fan of so that was an easy no, pretty sure they have nicotine in them right) just tried to be on the safe side. Anyways, about to go workout hard on this saturday in order to keep cleansing my body from all the shit I've put in it with my former dip habit. Hope you guys have an awesome saturday
Be careful with the alcohol man, that has been the killer of many a quit. And, not trying to pick you apart, but rather mold you a little. It's not your former dip habit, it's your nicotine addiction. Believe me, it's tough to think of yourself as an addict, but that's what you are. That's what I am. Keeping that in mind as you go through your quit makes it all make sense why you still have craves now, and always will to some extent. Now at 614 days, mine are very few and far between and I have tools to deal with them...but they'll always be there and you'll always be an addict. I support you, we traded digits, and now stay quit. Reach out anytime, and keep slaying buddy.
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Waking up this morning and talk about mood improvements.........such a nice feeling. Drank a little wine last night and was around people who dip from time to time (isn't that a crazy concept) and before I took a sip of alcohol I had the thought imprinted in my brain that no matter what I would say no.. Kept thinking that as the buzz got stronger. Luckily for me---no dip was brought out, only cigars (which I'm not too much of a fan of so that was an easy no, pretty sure they have nicotine in them right) just tried to be on the safe side. Anyways, about to go workout hard on this saturday in order to keep cleansing my body from all the shit I've put in it with my former dip habit. Hope you guys have an awesome saturday
Be careful with the alcohol man, that has been the killer of many a quit. And, not trying to pick you apart, but rather mold you a little. It's not your former dip habit, it's your nicotine addiction. Believe me, it's tough to think of yourself as an addict, but that's what you are. That's what I am. Keeping that in mind as you go through your quit makes it all make sense why you still have craves now, and always will to some extent. Now at 614 days, mine are very few and far between and I have tools to deal with them...but they'll always be there and you'll always be an addict. I support you, we traded digits, and now stay quit. Reach out anytime, and keep slaying buddy.
Listen to ^^^ this guy. You are on a good path now Delahunt! There is a moment in your quit when something snaps and you realize, really know, that nicotine is no longer an option. It is off the table. Keep it up, this gets better and better!
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man today was pretty rough. The fog was super heavy and my throat was killer. Just said fuck it and took it easy on myself today and took every goal for the day that I had and flushed it down the toilet and focused on the only one that was vital: my daily quit. Today was for sure one of the hardest days of my quit thus far. But I made it through, and I will be waking up more inspired than ever to continue my quit. Been getting over the initial fear of sharing my number and have been texting a few people who recently shared their number. Got Broc's daily texts which are a nice start to the day. Days like today really beat the shit out of me mentally, but it's the good days and the feelings of being proud to be quit that get me to the next day. Will not cave. Not in my DNA anymore. Love this fucking website. Banking on a better day tomorrow, but if not I will continue to lean on my brothers and scratch and claw my way to the better days that ARE ahead.
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man today was pretty rough. The fog was super heavy and my throat was killer. Just said fuck it and took it easy on myself today and took every goal for the day that I had and flushed it down the toilet and focused on the only one that was vital: my daily quit. Today was for sure one of the hardest days of my quit thus far. But I made it through, and I will be waking up more inspired than ever to continue my quit. Been getting over the initial fear of sharing my number and have been texting a few people who recently shared their number. Got Broc's daily texts which are a nice start to the day. Days like today really beat the shit out of me mentally, but it's the good days and the feelings of being proud to be quit that get me to the next day. Will not cave. Not in my DNA anymore. Love this fucking website. Banking on a better day tomorrow, but if not I will continue to lean on my brothers and scratch and claw my way to the better days that ARE ahead.
Way to keep the nic bitch at bay bro. If you would like to be in a way BETTER daily text than Broc's (hahaha), hit me up. You have my digits if you keep your PM's. If not, PM me and I will send them again.