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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Ruthless on May 29, 2019, 09:14:33 AM
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Hey Everyone,
Today is the day that i start my quit. I'm 36 and been dipping on and off for 15+ years now. I've quit for short periods of time in the past, but always found an excuse to go back. It's easy to make an excuse when you're an addict.
My wife thinks i quit a long time ago and i find myself sneaking around and waiting for her to leave to put a dip in. The anxiety of waiting until the next dip is similar to the anxiety of getting caught. My kids are getting older and ask me what's in my mouth. I lie because I'm weak. On times my wife is around, i substitute alcohol and just wait until she goes to bed to get that last dip in for the night. I'm done with it; just the act of doing it behind her back adds stress and fuel to the dipping fire.
I was going to use Nicorette to wean me off and make it easier, but after reading a bunch of stuff on this site; i'm just going to go cold turkey and embrace the suck.
- Ruthless
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Welcome. Congratulations, you nailed posting roll. Come back early tomorrow, and every tomorrow after, and do it again. WUPP - Wake Up. Piss. Post.
You made the right choice to skip the Nicorette. Cold turkey is the way to go.
I was also a ninja dipper. I can totally relate to sneaking around, waiting for everyone to go to bed.
Quitting here is simple. Make your promise by posting roll. Keep your word. If you can do that, you can quit. Hard as hell to do, but simple.
You mentioned drinking alcohol in your intro. Drinking alcohol leads to poor decision making. We suggest cutting way back, and even eliminating alcohol early in your quit. Alcohol is probably the leading cause to caving.
Exchange digits (phone numbers) with some of the guys in your group. Also, with some vets. Mine are a PM away. Having digits adds another rlayer of accountability.
Proud to quit with you.
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Welcome Ruthless!
RDB covered everything really well. I also didn't like my kids asking what I had in my mouth, or trying to imitate me by spitting. You can read a ton on here to help get you through, as well as drink a ton of water. The success rate with NRT is very low. KTC has worked for everyone that was committed to it.
Just post your promise each day first thing and keep your word for that day. We quit one day at a time. It really is that simple. It won't always be easy but we are all here to help. Look for a message from me in your inbox. Glad you made a decision to save your life today!
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Welcome Ruthless.
I am only at 53 days in quit. I can totally relate to you. I lied a lot in past to avoid confrontation about bad habits, my advise is stay true to your spouse and friends. it helps a lot when you need help, just to give you my experience today morning. Day started very bad, some issue at job and at home. I did some lite exercise and talk to my wife for half an hour. It help a lot. Try to avoid triggers, change your daily routine as much as you can, drive to different route to you job try not to visit same places in your daily route. drink lots of water and juice in initial days that helps in craving. Read as much as on this site. it helped me a lot.
PTBQWY
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Hey Ruthless-
Damn dude...EXACT same story here. I lied to my wife for our whole marriage about my dipping. Even when she found something like a can or a spit cup, I lied my a$$ off. I also lied to my kids. Father/Husband of the year right here buddy. On my 40th b-day back in Feb., I finally made the decision to truly put it down. First for myself, secondly for my family. The one thing I might suggest, and you can decide what’s best for you and your family, is that you should bring your wife in on this. Mine is less than thrilled and just waiting for me to fail, but that’s been my MO in the past. BUT—she does support this and it makes it easier with her in the know. Either way-glad to have you here. Stay strong brother.
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13 days in, HOLY S**!
Sat down with my wife on day 3 and opened up to tell her everything. She was hurt about the lying, but has been supportive since. That weight off my shoulders really helped my quit.
Still having moments of being frustrated and looking for relief, but they aren’t constant anymore. As a matter of fact, mornings are great. It isn’t until the afternoon and evening that I tend to struggle.
Really can’t emphasize how appreciative I am for those that reached out in those first 72 hours; made all the difference in the world.
Ruthless
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13 days in, HOLY S**!
Sat down with my wife on day 3 and opened up to tell her everything. She was hurt about the lying, but has been supportive since. That weight off my shoulders really helped my quit.
Still having moments of being frustrated and looking for relief, but they aren’t constant anymore. As a matter of fact, mornings are great. It isn’t until the afternoon and evening that I tend to struggle.
Really can’t emphasize how appreciative I am for those that reached out in those first 72 hours; made all the difference in the world.
Ruthless
Geez brother, thanks for chronicling the first two weeks for me - lest I forget. I love that you told your bride. A husband and wife united together is one of the most powerful forces in the universe. As addicts, we are skilled liars and coming clean is healing on many levels. I really think you're gonna make it. I do hope you've collected digits from some of the quitters in your group. Mine are yours for the asking but it's great to wallow in the mire and suck of withdrawal with someone sucking it right next to you.
The evenings can be tough; the proverbial post meal chew was a stressor for me as well. Replacement therapy is a real thing. A new routine as your rewire your brain; a walk, cup of tea (don't worry, you won't lose your man card), throwing fluffy bunny rabbits in a blender - whatever it takes. The point is, you're not a slave anymore. Stay that way!
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Ruthless-you are doing a great job. It’s ok to pat yourself on the back to for how far you’ve come. Just make sure to not let that guard down either. Everyday is a new day. A new day to quit and a new day to be free. With your wife on board, that will help you even more. Like Athan said...a husband and wife on the same page about ANYTHING is an unstoppable force. I’m proud of you man. I stand quit with you today too. Stay strong. Again, my digits are always available for the asking.
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Thanks guys! I do find myself getting complacent at times and thinking this is ‘easy’ or I have won. I quickly reel myself in and force myself to focus on just today. A bunch of ‘todays’ equals forever, but for now and always, ODAAT.
Post meal dip is tough for me as well. And considering I gave up alcohol too, it’s doubly difficult. Seeds are my post meal dip now. Or perhaps some kind of shitty tea.
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We picked the same day to start Ruthless. It makes me feel better to know that I am not in this alone. My friends don't really care if I quit or not, so the pressure only comes from my family. I work on a jobsite where I can chew all day long, so this is going to be interesting. I'll try to remember that you are doing the same thing as I am and maybe this will help both of us. Put it in your mind that others share your struggle, that it's not just you.
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We picked the same day to start Ruthless. It makes me feel better to know that I am not in this alone. My friends don't really care if I quit or not, so the pressure only comes from my family. I work on a jobsite where I can chew all day long, so this is going to be interesting. I'll try to remember that you are doing the same thing as I am and maybe this will help both of us. Put it in your mind that others share your struggle, that it's not just you.
Awesome dude. Post an intro and hop into the September quit group and post roll. The water is just fine and the more the merrier.
Ruthless
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Absolutely love how you're paying it forward Ruthless; nothing strengthens a quit like helping the man next to you. You edify me and everyone who witnesses it as well.
Keep on Quittn' on!
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Thanks Athan. I really just am trying to be there for the new guys like so many of you all were there for me that first week. It really sucks and the more support the better!
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Ruthless, I just wanted to drop in on your introduction and tell you what a great job you are doing on your quit (27!)- and how great it is that you are out there encouraging new quitters, herding cats in Sept 19 and generally being the kind of brother and leader this community relies on to work. Keep crushing it.
If you need digits, please reach out.
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Thanks man. It's like herding cats to be honest. Lot of different types of people in the group. Talkative people and post and ghosters. Everyone handles the quit differently i suppose and you get out of this site what you put in. Whatever works i guess! But this isn't anything new i'm sure; each group is probably similar.
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Ruthless-I have to echo what FLLiPout said. You are doing a great job. Keep up that work. You are right, you get out what you put in. You are putting a lot in. Keep it up. Be a leader. Reach out for anything at all.
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33 days in. I feel good for the most part. Weekends are still a huge challenge. Physically; I feel like I’m back to myself. Actually a little more energy these days.
The hardest part at this point is the internal dialog I have almost all day long. It goes like this. Quitting was hard, but I did it and I could do it again. One dip wouldn’t hurt; Hell, I can control it now that I quit.
Giving my word every morning is the main reason I don’t cave.
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33 days in. I feel good for the most part. Weekends are still a huge challenge. Physically; I feel like I’m back to myself. Actually a little more energy these days.
The hardest part at this point is the internal dialog I have almost all day long. It goes like this. Quitting was hard, but I did it and I could do it again. One dip wouldn’t hurt; Hell, I can control it now that I quit.
Giving my word every morning is the main reason I don’t cave.
Ruthless-
Something that helps me in those situations is to think through the dip. Complete the thought. Consciously add to the mix the fact that you are an addict and there is no such thing as 'just one'. One is too many and ten thousand isn't enough. The addiction progresses even while you stop. Whatever problems you had with dip before you decided to quit will come back, get worse, and multiply. Not only that, dipping is a negative drain on your spirit, integrity, and character. It's like living with no personal substance. You gain those things back and keep them when you keep quit. Think through the dip.
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33 days in. I feel good for the most part. Weekends are still a huge challenge. Physically; I feel like I’m back to myself. Actually a little more energy these days.
The hardest part at this point is the internal dialog I have almost all day long. It goes like this. Quitting was hard, but I did it and I could do it again. One dip wouldn’t hurt; Hell, I can control it now that I quit.
Giving my word every morning is the main reason I don’t cave.
Ruthless-
Something that helps me in those situations is to think through the dip. Complete the thought. Consciously add to the mix the fact that you are an addict and there is no such thing as 'just one'. One is too many and ten thousand isn't enough. The addiction progresses even while you stop. Whatever problems you had with dip before you decided to quit will come back, get worse, and multiply. Not only that, dipping is a negative drain on your spirit, integrity, and character. It's like living with no personal substance. You gain those things back and keep them when you keep quit. Think through the dip.
Thanks Zeus. It's funny how your mind forgets the awful things you experience as time goes by. I equate quitting dip similar to having a newborn baby. After awhile, you forget about the sleepless nights and nonstop crying and just remember happiness. Until the next baby comes and the memories come flooding back. Thinking, why in the hell would we do this again. Quitting dip is the same way. 33 days in and i forget about the misery of quitting, the sleepless nights; looking back it doesn't seem that bad. But i know it was bad. One of the best pieces of advice i got when i joined KTC was to keep a journal. Every day, i go back and read the first 7 days to remind myself how awful it was and keep it fresh in my mind. If it weren't for that, i'm not sure i would have made it this far.
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33 days in. I feel good for the most part. Weekends are still a huge challenge. Physically; I feel like I’m back to myself. Actually a little more energy these days.
The hardest part at this point is the internal dialog I have almost all day long. It goes like this. Quitting was hard, but I did it and I could do it again. One dip wouldn’t hurt; Hell, I can control it now that I quit.
Giving my word every morning is the main reason I don’t cave.
Ruthless-
Something that helps me in those situations is to think through the dip. Complete the thought. Consciously add to the mix the fact that you are an addict and there is no such thing as 'just one'. One is too many and ten thousand isn't enough. The addiction progresses even while you stop. Whatever problems you had with dip before you decided to quit will come back, get worse, and multiply. Not only that, dipping is a negative drain on your spirit, integrity, and character. It's like living with no personal substance. You gain those things back and keep them when you keep quit. Think through the dip.
Thanks Zeus. It's funny how your mind forgets the awful things you experience as time goes by. I equate quitting dip similar to having a newborn baby. After awhile, you forget about the sleepless nights and nonstop crying and just remember happiness. Until the next baby comes and the memories come flooding back. Thinking, why in the hell would we do this again. Quitting dip is the same way. 33 days in and i forget about the misery of quitting, the sleepless nights; looking back it doesn't seem that bad. But i know it was bad. One of the best pieces of advice i got when i joined KTC was to keep a journal. Every day, i go back and read the first 7 days to remind myself how awful it was and keep it fresh in my mind. If it weren't for that, i'm not sure i would have made it this far.
That's awesome bro. Wish I would have chronicled the first 7 days. I remember grinding my teeth to powder and vicious headaches because of it.
You will never regret quitting. You will ALWAYS regret a cave.
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This post is really for anyone that is surfing the site debating whether to quit or not. I am an addict and until I realized that, i was always destined to fail. This is how the mind of on an addict works (my mind).
Can't quit in January, got NFL playoffs.
Can't quit in February because i need a dip in to shovel snow.
Can't quit in March because MLB spring training and march madness.
Can't quit in April because of my birthday and MLB starting
Can't quit in May because grilling season starts and MLB
Can't quit in June because yard work and MLB
Can't quit in July because of the 4th and the beach
Can't quit in August because NFL minicamps start and pool time
Can't quit in September because NFL and NCAA Football
Can't quit in October because MLB playoffs
Can't quit in November because thanksgiving and may as well wait until the end of the year.
Can't quit in December because family holidays and i already said i would quit in January.
Can't quit at the beginning of a certain month because its not a Monday.
Sound familiar? The excuses go on and I did this for years. There is no better time to quit than right now. Accept that you are an addict and that dipping is a problem, not a solution.
Come on in, the water is fine. I'm 35 days quit today.
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This post is really for anyone that is surfing the site debating whether to quit or not. I am an addict and until I realized that, i was always destined to fail. This is how the mind of on an addict works (my mind).
Can't quit in January, got NFL playoffs.
Can't quit in February because i need a dip in to shovel snow.
Can't quit in March because MLB spring training and march madness.
Can't quit in April because of my birthday and MLB starting
Can't quit in May because grilling season starts and MLB
Can't quit in June because yard work and MLB
Can't quit in July because of the 4th and the beach
Can't quit in August because NFL minicamps start and pool time
Can't quit in September because NFL and NCAA Football
Can't quit in October because MLB playoffs
Can't quit in November because thanksgiving and may as well wait until the end of the year.
Can't quit in December because family holidays and i already said i would quit in January.
Can't quit at the beginning of a certain month because its not a Monday.
Sound familiar? The excuses go on and I did this for years. There is no better time to quit than right now. Accept that you are an addict and that dipping is a problem, not a solution.
Come on in, the water is fine. I'm 35 days quit today.
Things are stressful now, I can't quit now and add to my stress.
Things are going great, I can't quit now and mess that up.
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40 days!
I feel great. I haven’t had this sustained feeling of goodness in such a long time. It’s better than any dip buzz. I refuse to get complacent and remain focused ODAAT. Rinse and repeat.
I used to have thoughts while I was dipping that I just wanted to make it until I was 50. The kids would be out of high school and I wouldn’t leave that burden on my wife. I knew my alcohol and dip abuse would kill me eventually, but I didn’t care. I had made a deal with God to let me make it to 50.
Fast forward and it’s embarrassing to look back at that version of myself. I feel so alive and free from the embrace of addiction. I remain an addict; self aware and ever watchful.
Keep on quitting all!
Ruthless
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61 Days
Figured it was time to post an update. I never hit the fog around 40 days; but i was in a funk for a few days around 55. It's hard to tell if it's quit related or just life happening, but I'm feeling good now. When i hit a stressful moment or a craving, i'm able to recognize it, accept it and move on. It really is nice being able to do that; i can't emphasize it enough.
I wanted to provide a little insight to me before my quit. I ninja dipped cope; a can a day. I was also a heavy boozer, heavy coffee/energy drink drinker and fingernail biter. I used to rationalize that i needed to quit my vices one at a time; it's the only way. This created a false sense of security for me and created a situation that i would fail every time. See, for anybody lurking, addicts are able to mind fuck themselves something fierce. But back in late May, i said fuck it, let's give it all up and see what happens. I quit dipping, drinking alcohol, drinking caffeine and biting my fingernails. IT CHANGED MY FUCKING LIFE! I gave it all up for 30 days.
I will have a couple of beers here and there with friends and family now. I'll also have 1 cup of coffee in the morning; but no other caffeine. I'm happy in a general sense and that's what matters to me. I still go in waves; but i think that is a combination of missing my vices and just being human. A lot of people say it, but if i can quit; anyone can quit.
My digits are always a PM away. I really want everyone to be quit...the catshit is nasty....
Ruthless
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61 Days
Figured it was time to post an update. I never hit the fog around 40 days; but i was in a funk for a few days around 55. It's hard to tell if it's quit related or just life happening, but I'm feeling good now. When i hit a stressful moment or a craving, i'm able to recognize it, accept it and move on. It really is nice being able to do that; i can't emphasize it enough.
I wanted to provide a little insight to me before my quit. I ninja dipped cope; a can a day. I was also a heavy boozer, heavy coffee/energy drink drinker and fingernail biter. I used to rationalize that i needed to quit my vices one at a time; it's the only way. This created a false sense of security for me and created a situation that i would fail every time. See, for anybody lurking, addicts are able to mind fuck themselves something fierce. But back in late May, i said fuck it, let's give it all up and see what happens. I quit dipping, drinking alcohol, drinking caffeine and biting my fingernails. IT CHANGED MY FUCKING LIFE! I gave it all up for 30 days.
I will have a couple of beers here and there with friends and family now. I'll also have 1 cup of coffee in the morning; but no other caffeine. I'm happy in a general sense and that's what matters to me. I still go in waves; but i think that is a combination of missing my vices and just being human. A lot of people say it, but if i can quit; anyone can quit.
My digits are always a PM away. I really want everyone to be quit...the catshit is nasty....
Ruthless
Funny how one life change can inspire others.
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88 Days.
I really do feel great. I made an analogy recently that i will try to express in this post. I used to get colds all the time; just like anyone; and the symptoms would be no energy, chills, sore throat, etc.. As a dipper and an addict; i would instantly think the worse. My sore throat most certainly must be cancer. I would get depressed and have brutal anxiety. After a few days i would start to feel better and all of the illness and symptoms would lessen. Then i would wake up and i would feel like a million bucks. I wouldn't be worried about dipping or anything else. It would last a day or two. I would be excited because i knew i was lucky and the cancer didnt get me this time.
That amazing feeling after getting over a cold...after fearing you were dying or it was the worst scenario possible...I have that feeling every morning now that i am quit. Every f'n morning i get chills because i feel so good and am so excited about what the day will bring without dip.
One Day At A Time is an AMAZING thing.
Ruthless
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103 Days
I guess it's time to start contemplating a HOF speech. I think i'll let it simmer for a bit. I don't want it to be unremarkable.
I feel real good at this point. I don't have craves anymore; and i think that can be primarily attributed to forcing myself to hate it. I've learned a lot and have received a ton of great advice over the past 100ish days. My hope is to bundle it up in some form or fashion into a speech.
I do get anxiety from time to time; but i think that is more of a product of my body adjusting to life without dip. Dip is a mother fucker and hides shit you don't even realize is there. Quitting makes you more aware of your body and things going on; you don't look to mask the issues and prolong getting help. I got a doctor appointment this week to check out a few things. Nothing major; just nagging shit that i'm sick of dealing with.
Just quit for the day; we can all do that.
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103 Days
I guess it's time to start contemplating a HOF speech. I think i'll let it simmer for a bit. I don't want it to be unremarkable.
I feel real good at this point. I don't have craves anymore; and i think that can be primarily attributed to forcing myself to hate it. I've learned a lot and have received a ton of great advice over the past 100ish days. My hope is to bundle it up in some form or fashion into a speech.
I do get anxiety from time to time; but i think that is more of a product of my body adjusting to life without dip. Dip is a mother fucker and hides shit you don't even realize is there. Quitting makes you more aware of your body and things going on; you don't look to mask the issues and prolong getting help. I got a doctor appointment this week to check out a few things. Nothing major; just nagging shit that i'm sick of dealing with.
Just quit for the day; we can all do that.
Looks like the start of a totally bad ass HOF Speech right here.
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Awesome that you’ve made it this far!
Your advice and chatter in my early days is probably a big reason while I’m still here!
Looking forward to your HOF speech.
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Awesome that you’ve made it this far!
Your advice and chatter in my early days is probably a big reason while I’m still here!
Looking forward to your HOF speech.
That makes me happy @BaylorGrad19 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14762). Just keep going brother, ODAAT.
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Day 120
I haven't really had any issues since the late 70's, but this week was rough. Unexpectedly, I got hammered last weekend and it wrecked me for a few days. Anxiety was through the roof and frankly, i was just a mess. I had no motivation to do ANYTHING and was self loathing. Today, 3 days later, i'm coming out of it. It was a rough stretch of fog and anxiety/depression; but i made it through.
It seems of late I am more sensitive to caffeine and alcohol. I'm taking a break from both for a bit to try and help regulate the body. Still just focused on ODAAT and i know i will keep my word and post my promise in the morning!
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Day 120
I haven't really had any issues since the late 70's, but this week was rough. Unexpectedly, I got hammered last weekend and it wrecked me for a few days. Anxiety was through the roof and frankly, i was just a mess. I had no motivation to do ANYTHING and was self loathing. Today, 3 days later, i'm coming out of it. It was a rough stretch of fog and anxiety/depression; but i made it through.
It seems of late I am more sensitive to caffeine and alcohol. I'm taking a break from both for a bit to try and help regulate the body. Still just focused on ODAAT and i know i will keep my word and post my promise in the morning!
I can relate to this. I want to go out and have fun drinking, but I dread the unwanted craves it may bring.
Early on in my quit the craves caused by drinking alcohol were terrible.
I also felt that the times I drank early on in my quit the effects of alcohol hit me harder than ever.
I can say that both problems from drinking have improved, although I’m still very skeptical every time I go out to drink.
I feel that drinking will take the longest to feel normal again. You probably know this, but that three day drag you had after your binge- a lot of people (even ones that don’t use mic/tobacco ever)experience something similar. I do too. For me the root of it is feeling like I may have said something stupid, ashamed of how much I drank or embarrassed myself somehow, thus leading to that lethargic feeling or anxiety.
I’m not ever one to change personalities when I’m drunk or say out of bound things typically, I just tend to be super judgmental of myself and I’m over-conscious the next morning which again leads to those feelings.
Being quit probably causes some of this but I’ve always had that next day regret after drinking. Maybe it’s the same for you as well. I think for you and I to not experience those feelings will take an attitude adjustment, but I also believe the next days after will improve in time. Or we shouldn’t drink as much when we do drink lol. But shit happens
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Day 120
I haven't really had any issues since the late 70's, but this week was rough. Unexpectedly, I got hammered last weekend and it wrecked me for a few days. Anxiety was through the roof and frankly, i was just a mess. I had no motivation to do ANYTHING and was self loathing. Today, 3 days later, i'm coming out of it. It was a rough stretch of fog and anxiety/depression; but i made it through.
It seems of late I am more sensitive to caffeine and alcohol. I'm taking a break from both for a bit to try and help regulate the body. Still just focused on ODAAT and i know i will keep my word and post my promise in the morning!
I can relate to this. I want to go out and have fun drinking, but I dread the unwanted craves it may bring.
Early on in my quit the craves caused by drinking alcohol were terrible.
I also felt that the times I drank early on in my quit the effects of alcohol hit me harder than ever.
I can say that both problems from drinking have improved, although I’m still very skeptical every time I go out to drink.
I feel that drinking will take the longest to feel normal again. You probably know this, but that three day drag you had after your binge- a lot of people (even ones that don’t use mic/tobacco ever)experience something similar. I do too. For me the root of it is feeling like I may have said something stupid, ashamed of how much I drank or embarrassed myself somehow, thus leading to that lethargic feeling or anxiety.
I’m not ever one to change personalities when I’m drunk or say out of bound things typically, I just tend to be super judgmental of myself and I’m over-conscious the next morning which again leads to those feelings.
Being quit probably causes some of this but I’ve always had that next day regret after drinking. Maybe it’s the same for you as well. I think for you and I to not experience those feelings will take an attitude adjustment, but I also believe the next days after will improve in time. Or we shouldn’t drink as much when we do drink lol. But shit happens
@BaylorGrad19 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14762) man this is so spot on. I cut out alcohol altogether the first month. I don't really get the cravings when i drink now because i do so in moderation. This past weekend i went overboard and i spiraled the next few days. I won't be going back to that anytime soon! Thanks for the advice!
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Day 120
I haven't really had any issues since the late 70's, but this week was rough. Unexpectedly, I got hammered last weekend and it wrecked me for a few days. Anxiety was through the roof and frankly, i was just a mess. I had no motivation to do ANYTHING and was self loathing. Today, 3 days later, i'm coming out of it. It was a rough stretch of fog and anxiety/depression; but i made it through.
It seems of late I am more sensitive to caffeine and alcohol. I'm taking a break from both for a bit to try and help regulate the body. Still just focused on ODAAT and i know i will keep my word and post my promise in the morning!
I can relate to this. I want to go out and have fun drinking, but I dread the unwanted craves it may bring.
Early on in my quit the craves caused by drinking alcohol were terrible.
I also felt that the times I drank early on in my quit the effects of alcohol hit me harder than ever.
I can say that both problems from drinking have improved, although I’m still very skeptical every time I go out to drink.
I feel that drinking will take the longest to feel normal again. You probably know this, but that three day drag you had after your binge- a lot of people (even ones that don’t use mic/tobacco ever)experience something similar. I do too. For me the root of it is feeling like I may have said something stupid, ashamed of how much I drank or embarrassed myself somehow, thus leading to that lethargic feeling or anxiety.
I’m not ever one to change personalities when I’m drunk or say out of bound things typically, I just tend to be super judgmental of myself and I’m over-conscious the next morning which again leads to those feelings.
Being quit probably causes some of this but I’ve always had that next day regret after drinking. Maybe it’s the same for you as well. I think for you and I to not experience those feelings will take an attitude adjustment, but I also believe the next days after will improve in time. Or we shouldn’t drink as much when we do drink lol. But shit happens
@BaylorGrad19 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14762) man this is so spot on. I cut out alcohol altogether the first month. I don't really get the cravings when i drink now because i do so in moderation. This past weekend i went overboard and i spiraled the next few days. I won't be going back to that anytime soon! Thanks for the advice!
Mike, it's great that you are learning potential triggers that might put you in a funk. From my experience funks have come in waves, but the good news is it seems like they get shorter in duration as time goes by. It does get better! Proud to quit with you
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Day 204
Has it really been 84 days since my last post? Hard to believe, but I will definitely try to post here more often. Since day 120 a lot has happened. The funk i talked of at day 120 stuck around and was thick. Day 144 I woke up and it was gone. I was thinking it was a dream because i just woke up and it had disappeared. I didn't think it would stick, but it has. I go into each day cautious that i can fall back into the funk at a moment's notice. Once i got past day 144 I really felt great, although i did have some lingering anxiety in the form headaches and pressure in my head.
Then came conducting for November, which was a great experience, however exhausting! It took my mind away from any anxiety or depression that may have been lingering. But once the month was done; i needed a break from the site. Yea, I still posted my promise first thing in the morning, but that was about it for the next couple weeks. Also, with the holidays coming I noticed an uptick in my anxiety and general well being. After going to my doctor a handful of times, a dentist, an oral surgeon and my eye doctor, i finally started feeling relief on day 202. Apparently i clench my jaw and grind my teeth causing constant tension headaches and my BP was slightly elevated. So they got me a night guard and a higher dose BP medicine and i feel great!
Enough for now! Anyone reading this having issues with anxiety and you're early in your quit; reach out to me!
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Day 204
Has it really been 84 days since my last post? Hard to believe, but I will definitely try to post here more often. Since day 120 a lot has happened. The funk i talked of at day 120 stuck around and was thick. Day 144 I woke up and it was gone. I was thinking it was a dream because i just woke up and it had disappeared. I didn't think it would stick, but it has. I go into each day cautious that i can fall back into the funk at a moment's notice. Once i got past day 144 I really felt great, although i did have some lingering anxiety in the form headaches and pressure in my head.
Then came conducting for November, which was a great experience, however exhausting! It took my mind away from any anxiety or depression that may have been lingering. But once the month was done; i needed a break from the site. Yea, I still posted my promise first thing in the morning, but that was about it for the next couple weeks. Also, with the holidays coming I noticed an uptick in my anxiety and general well being. After going to my doctor a handful of times, a dentist, an oral surgeon and my eye doctor, i finally started feeling relief on day 202. Apparently i clench my jaw and grind my teeth causing constant tension headaches and my BP was slightly elevated. So they got me a night guard and a higher dose BP medicine and i feel great!
Enough for now! Anyone reading this having issues with anxiety and you're early in your quit; reach out to me!
Everything in here sounds so familiar to my experiences. Know that these are all common occurrences between 100&200 days. Keep doing what youre doing and remember Never Again For Any Reason!