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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: WonPump on April 24, 2020, 04:53:22 AM
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Hello everyone, my name is Brian and I’m 31. I’ve used dip for the better part of 13 years now. This is the first time I’ve ever typed those numbers out, and seeing I’ve dipped nearly half my life at this point is surreal. I’ve lurked on this website before, on nights like tonight where I can’t sleep, looking for the one magic post that will make it all click for me. Hoping something I read makes it easy. I’ve quit at times, for 2 days, for months even, but I’ve always gone back. Tonight is my time, it’s happening for good.
I have put myself through a whirlwind of health problems over this CRAP. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I believe I now have Crohn’s disease stemming from dip. My stomach basically always hurts, I’m rarely comfortable and how I feel on a scale from 1-10 (it’s honestly never over about 5 or 6) is truly day to day.
I’m just ready to feel better. There’s no magical quit story that has clicked for me, although everyone here is truly inspirational. I’ve been here before like I said, at 3 or 4am feeling like crap reading about quits and what to expect here on KTC. I wish I never put that first dip in at a party my first week of college. But I did and now after 13 years of bad decisions I owe it to myself to finally make one good one.
I will need support. And encouragement. I’m a grown man but this is a tough fight. Quarantine and unemployment won’t help (I live in NY). But I’ve seen you guys do it and I’m ready to walk alongside you all.
I’m off to bed, at nearly 5am. Another night of getting that last dip in and being wide awake all night. THE LAST NIGHT. I don’t look forward to the struggle but I do look forward to earning my place amongst you all.
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Hello everyone, my name is Brian and I’m 31. I’ve used dip for the better part of 13 years now. This is the first time I’ve ever typed those numbers out, and seeing I’ve dipped nearly half my life at this point is surreal. I’ve lurked on this website before, on nights like tonight where I can’t sleep, looking for the one magic post that will make it all click for me. Hoping something I read makes it easy. I’ve quit at times, for 2 days, for months even, but I’ve always gone back. Tonight is my time, it’s happening for good.
I have put myself through a whirlwind of health problems over this CRAP. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I believe I now have Crohn’s disease stemming from dip. My stomach basically always hurts, I’m rarely comfortable and how I feel on a scale from 1-10 (it’s honestly never over about 5 or 6) is truly day to day.
I’m just ready to feel better. There’s no magical quit story that has clicked for me, although everyone here is truly inspirational. I’ve been here before like I said, at 3 or 4am feeling like crap reading about quits and what to expect here on KTC. I wish I never put that first dip in at a party my first week of college. But I did and now after 13 years of bad decisions I owe it to myself to finally make one good one.
I will need support. And encouragement. I’m a grown man but this is a tough fight. Quarantine and unemployment won’t help (I live in NY). But I’ve seen you guys do it and I’m ready to walk alongside you all.
I’m off to bed, at nearly 5am. Another night of getting that last dip in and being wide awake all night. THE LAST NIGHT. I don’t look forward to the struggle but I do look forward to earning my place amongst you all.
Solid intro and yearning for freedom. I can relate to the stomach problems 100% and the day to day how I'm feeling scale. It's a tough road and very curvey but it's possible to navigate. Can't wait to see that day 1 roll call post from you.
Rexx - 25 days quit
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Wonpump,
Today is the day! Great intro that shows you are a lot like us and you are not alone. You can win this fight one day at a time. I quit with you today.
CJ
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@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606)
Welcome my friend. Sounds like you are snapped in and motivated. Next step for you is to post roll. When did you say you had your last dip?
Since you have been lurking around the site, I won't repeat what you have already gleaned. Know you are not alone. Know there is someone here, and probably many, who have been where you are and have had the feelings and thoughts you are struggling with. Know the folks here care about you and will go out of their way to support you in your endeavor. Please let me know if you have any questions or concerns.
PTBQWYT my friend. Hold that line.
~HAG
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Hello everyone, my name is Brian and I’m 31. I’ve used dip for the better part of 13 years now. This is the first time I’ve ever typed those numbers out, and seeing I’ve dipped nearly half my life at this point is surreal. I’ve lurked on this website before, on nights like tonight where I can’t sleep, looking for the one magic post that will make it all click for me. Hoping something I read makes it easy. I’ve quit at times, for 2 days, for months even, but I’ve always gone back. Tonight is my time, it’s happening for good.
I have put myself through a whirlwind of health problems over this CRAP. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I believe I now have Crohn’s disease stemming from dip. My stomach basically always hurts, I’m rarely comfortable and how I feel on a scale from 1-10 (it’s honestly never over about 5 or 6) is truly day to day.
I’m just ready to feel better. There’s no magical quit story that has clicked for me, although everyone here is truly inspirational. I’ve been here before like I said, at 3 or 4am feeling like crap reading about quits and what to expect here on KTC. I wish I never put that first dip in at a party my first week of college. But I did and now after 13 years of bad decisions I owe it to myself to finally make one good one.
I will need support. And encouragement. I’m a grown man but this is a tough fight. Quarantine and unemployment won’t help (I live in NY). But I’ve seen you guys do it and I’m ready to walk alongside you all.
I’m off to bed, at nearly 5am. Another night of getting that last dip in and being wide awake all night. THE LAST NIGHT. I don’t look forward to the struggle but I do look forward to earning my place amongst you all.
Solid intro and yearning for freedom. I can relate to the stomach problems 100% and the day to day how I'm feeling scale. It's a tough road and very curvey but it's possible to navigate. Can't wait to see that day 1 roll call post from you.
Rexx - 25 days quit
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) here is the link to taking your freedom back https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16445.0 . We wake up, piss, and post our promise to stay nicotine free for the day. Keep your promise for the day and repeat the following day. Only worry about today. We will deal with tomorrow when it gets here. Exchanging numbers and building relationships on the site is normal and highly recommended. Only exchange digits through personal messages and not on the forum or here in the Intro section. Shoot me a message if I can help at all. You can do this and we are here to help.
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I don’t look forward to the struggle...
That ^^^ needs to change.
It sounds odd but, dude, look forward to the struggle! That struggle means you’re taking your addict mindset, flipping it off and screaming “Fuck. You!” and taking your freedom back!
Too many times I’ve seen fear cripple that first step into freedom. Hell... that fear kept me from quitting for 25 years. Once I made that decision and owned it, I never looked back. There wasn’t a magic story that I read... I didn’t need one. Be your own story bro. Be the story that the next guy needs. You CAN take control over poison soaked weed in a tin.
No more whining and hoping something clicks.
Make it click.
Take charge.
Find your quit group... join in... post your quit roll every day... get involved... stay involved.
Freedom waits, bro.
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Welcome Brian! Saw your post in August. This is a fine day to be quit! You are not alone in your Quit. We are Quit with you.
A few things that help Me:
1) WUPP- wake up, piss, post. Post your name, number of days and promise to stay quit in the forum first thing in the morning.
2) Contact other quitters and exchange phone numbers. I text a daily promise to about 12 other quitters. It’s not just a promise...it is also practice in using text or phone. Phone gets really heavy when you haven’t practiced using it. Build your network of quit bro’s.
3) sign in later in the day to check for messages in the forum
4) respond to all questions, tags or messages.
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Congrats @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) on posting in August. You will not regret it. You got some good advise below. Key is to make it through the moment...the minute...the hour...the day. They will begin to stack and get easier. When you get that F* it crave, post in your group or, better yet, contact a fellow quitter. Your fortitude along with the groups support and accountability and you will do this man. My number is in your box in case you need it.
Hold the Line
~HAG
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Congrats @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) on posting in August. You will not regret it. You got some good advise below. Key is to make it through the moment...the minute...the hour...the day. They will begin to stack and get easier. When you get that F* it crave, post in your group or, better yet, contact a fellow quitter. Your fortitude along with the groups support and accountability and you will do this man. My number is in your box in case when you need it.
Hold the Line
~HAG
I revised Hag's last sentence above because sharing digits is critically important on a site like this that is built around accountability. You will need support; that's why you are here. If you don't dive in and invest everything you have, KTC can't function as it designed. So step outside the comfort zone and start connecting with your fellow quitters TODAY.
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Welcome WonPump. Glad you made the decision. Now WUPP and take it one day at a time. PM with digits coming your way.
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Where is @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) - Day 2 - 5 pm. You need to post every day.
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Where is @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) - Day 2 - 5 pm. You need to post every day.
I’m here. Learning my way around the site on iPhone, don’t have a desktop or laptop. Staying busy today best I can, just posted roll. Last night was tough, couldn’t get to sleep. One thing and one thing only was on my mind. I ate some junk food instead. Thankfully nice weather day in NY so did some work outside. Will post roll tomorrow morning and won’t delay it, that’s my fault. Thanks for holding me accountable! Need it. I have gotten a lot of messages. Thankful for all of them. Sending my number to some of you guys who have reached out. Would welcome some quit buddies. I’ve been on day 2 about 10 times, this is going to be the last time. Thanks everyone
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Where is @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) - Day 2 - 5 pm. You need to post every day.
I’m here. Learning my way around the site on iPhone, don’t have a desktop or laptop. Staying busy today best I can, just posted roll. Last night was tough, couldn’t get to sleep. One thing and one thing only was on my mind. I ate some junk food instead. Thankfully nice weather day in NY so did some work outside. Will post roll tomorrow morning and won’t delay it, that’s my fault. Thanks for holding me accountable! Need it. I have gotten a lot of messages. Thankful for all of them. Sending my number to some of you guys who have reached out. Would welcome some quit buddies. I’ve been on day 2 about 10 times, this is going to be the last time. Thanks everyone
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) why are you posting roll at 545 pm? we wake up , piss and post. Get your ass posted first thing every morning to stay nic, free. You need help just send me a message.
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Where is @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) - Day 2 - 5 pm. You need to post every day.
I’m here. Learning my way around the site on iPhone, don’t have a desktop or laptop. Staying busy today best I can, just posted roll. Last night was tough, couldn’t get to sleep. One thing and one thing only was on my mind. I ate some junk food instead. Thankfully nice weather day in NY so did some work outside. Will post roll tomorrow morning and won’t delay it, that’s my fault. Thanks for holding me accountable! Need it. I have gotten a lot of messages. Thankful for all of them. Sending my number to some of you guys who have reached out. Would welcome some quit buddies. I’ve been on day 2 about 10 times, this is going to be the last time. Thanks everyone
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) why are you posting roll at 545 pm? we wake up , piss and post. Get your ass posted first thing every morning to stay nic, free. You need help just send me a message.
Already addressed this
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I’ve had one hell of a night tonight. Felt what I’d describe as hungry, probably mixed with cravings, and thought back on what I’d eaten all day. Not much. Snacked on a some peanuts and figured I’d pass out. Past hour plus been having lots of chest pains and been lightheaded. Full blown anxiety attack, with a side of feeling like I’m having a damn heart attack. I already know the culprit in all this, damn dip. Pains are scary, telling God I’m done with dip I’ll never go back just let me be okay. I’m giving it up and I swear I am. 630am and still awake. Typing this for a few minutes has had a bit of a calming effect for me, although I still haven’t fully shaken it. Chest feels okay, overall anxiety almost head to toe is still there. I’ve had a lot of moments like this, plenty of nights with some crazy anxiety. I don’t take any medication for it but perhaps I should. Could be unrelated to dipping but I think dip has taken its toll and chipped away at my life in lots of ways such as this. Hope everyone is enjoying a good nights sleep, going to try relaxing and get some sleep myself asap
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I’ve had one hell of a night tonight. Felt what I’d describe as hungry, probably mixed with cravings, and thought back on what I’d eaten all day. Not much. Snacked on a some peanuts and figured I’d pass out. Past hour plus been having lots of chest pains and been lightheaded. Full blown anxiety attack, with a side of feeling like I’m having a damn heart attack. I already know the culprit in all this, damn dip. Pains are scary, telling God I’m done with dip I’ll never go back just let me be okay. I’m giving it up and I swear I am. 630am and still awake. Typing this for a few minutes has had a bit of a calming effect for me, although I still haven’t fully shaken it. Chest feels okay, overall anxiety almost head to toe is still there. I’ve had a lot of moments like this, plenty of nights with some crazy anxiety. I don’t take any medication for it but perhaps I should. Could be unrelated to dipping but I think dip has taken its toll and chipped away at my life in lots of ways such as this. Hope everyone is enjoying a good nights sleep, going to try relaxing and get some sleep myself asap
The first is always the worst. Hold tight and keep posting progress like this (it's what I do and it helps with the mental game). Just know you won't regret quitting once all this passes and it will. But like you, I'm in the heat of the battle too.
Rexx - 27 days quit with you today.
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I’ve had one hell of a night tonight. Felt what I’d describe as hungry, probably mixed with cravings, and thought back on what I’d eaten all day. Not much. Snacked on a some peanuts and figured I’d pass out. Past hour plus been having lots of chest pains and been lightheaded. Full blown anxiety attack, with a side of feeling like I’m having a damn heart attack. I already know the culprit in all this, damn dip. Pains are scary, telling God I’m done with dip I’ll never go back just let me be okay. I’m giving it up and I swear I am. 630am and still awake. Typing this for a few minutes has had a bit of a calming effect for me, although I still haven’t fully shaken it. Chest feels okay, overall anxiety almost head to toe is still there. I’ve had a lot of moments like this, plenty of nights with some crazy anxiety. I don’t take any medication for it but perhaps I should. Could be unrelated to dipping but I think dip has taken its toll and chipped away at my life in lots of ways such as this. Hope everyone is enjoying a good nights sleep, going to try relaxing and get some sleep myself asap
The first is always the worst. Hold tight and keep posting progress like this (it's what I do and it helps with the mental game). Just know you won't regret quitting once all this passes and it will. But like you, I'm in the heat of the battle too.
Rexx - 27 days quit with you today.
Wonpump I ate all kinds of shit, stuffed whatever I could in my lip, had anxiety attacks, bouts of depression, rage, despondency (read my intro). Space and time softens any edge. Stack hours, then days...just make it through the moment. Keep blogging it out here. You are not alone. It gets more manageable.
Hold the line
~Hag
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I’ve had one hell of a night tonight. Felt what I’d describe as hungry, probably mixed with cravings, and thought back on what I’d eaten all day. Not much. Snacked on a some peanuts and figured I’d pass out. Past hour plus been having lots of chest pains and been lightheaded. Full blown anxiety attack, with a side of feeling like I’m having a damn heart attack. I already know the culprit in all this, damn dip. Pains are scary, telling God I’m done with dip I’ll never go back just let me be okay. I’m giving it up and I swear I am. 630am and still awake. Typing this for a few minutes has had a bit of a calming effect for me, although I still haven’t fully shaken it. Chest feels okay, overall anxiety almost head to toe is still there. I’ve had a lot of moments like this, plenty of nights with some crazy anxiety. I don’t take any medication for it but perhaps I should. Could be unrelated to dipping but I think dip has taken its toll and chipped away at my life in lots of ways such as this. Hope everyone is enjoying a good nights sleep, going to try relaxing and get some sleep myself asap
The first is always the worst. Hold tight and keep posting progress like this (it's what I do and it helps with the mental game). Just know you won't regret quitting once all this passes and it will. But like you, I'm in the heat of the battle too.
Rexx - 27 days quit with you today.
Wonpump I ate all kinds of shit, stuffed whatever I could in my lip, had anxiety attacks, bouts of depression, rage, despondency (read my intro). Space and time softens any edge. Stack hours, then days...just make it through the moment. Keep blogging it out here. You are not alone. It gets more manageable.
Hold the line
~Hag
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) ,
I can not emphasize enough the importance of drinking a shit ton of water right now. It will help to flush your system. Also, cranberry juice helps a lot with cravings. Try to stay away from unhealthy snack foods if you can but if its a choice between a Reeses and a dip, Reeses ALL DAY brother.
You will get through this sucky part and you will be stronger at the end of it. My digits are in your inbox. Reach out we are here.
c2a
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Today has been an oddly good day and I’m not complaining. Slept like a baby last night, woke up early, went for a walk around the neighborhood and got some stuff done. I’m out of work but I do a lot of selling on eBay, so packaging and getting stuff out for a couple hours today kept me busy. Cravings have been almost minimal, less than I’d expect. Again, I’m feeling pretty good, better than I thought I would. We’ll see what tomorrow holds, cant wait to be 5 days quit.
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Today has been an oddly good day and I’m not complaining. Slept like a baby last night, woke up early, went for a walk around the neighborhood and got some stuff done. I’m out of work but I do a lot of selling on eBay, so packaging and getting stuff out for a couple hours today kept me busy. Cravings have been almost minimal, less than I’d expect. Again, I’m feeling pretty good, better than I thought I would. We’ll see what tomorrow holds, cant wait to be 5 days quit.
damn right. Love it. Post updates at least daily. It’s hard work quitting but sooo worth it. You are winning - this is inspiring.
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Today has been an oddly good day and I’m not complaining. Slept like a baby last night, woke up early, went for a walk around the neighborhood and got some stuff done. I’m out of work but I do a lot of selling on eBay, so packaging and getting stuff out for a couple hours today kept me busy. Cravings have been almost minimal, less than I’d expect. Again, I’m feeling pretty good, better than I thought I would. We’ll see what tomorrow holds, cant wait to be 5 days quit.
damn right. Love it. Post updates at least daily. It’s hard work quitting but sooo worth it. You are winning - this is inspiring.
Love this brother. Let it ride!!
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Today has been an oddly good day and I’m not complaining. Slept like a baby last night, woke up early, went for a walk around the neighborhood and got some stuff done. I’m out of work but I do a lot of selling on eBay, so packaging and getting stuff out for a couple hours today kept me busy. Cravings have been almost minimal, less than I’d expect. Again, I’m feeling pretty good, better than I thought I would. We’ll see what tomorrow holds, cant wait to be 5 days quit.
damn right. Love it. Post updates at least daily. It’s hard work quitting but sooo worth it. You are winning - this is inspiring.
Love this brother. Let it ride!!
I've always said to enjoy the easy days but be prepared for the challenging days. One day at a time (ODAAT) is truly the only mindset to have when it comes to quitting.
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Slept in today, somewhat late night was probably up until around 3:30. My sleep schedule has been all over the place which has been an issue for years, now adding quitting I expect it to continue to be a bit crazy! My most common times to post roll will likely be anytime between 10 and 11 am, give or take an hour for an early or late wake up day. I am staying quit don’t worry! Day 5 can’t wait for 6
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Cravings have been a real bitch today on day 5. Just like many said, yesterday might’ve been a good day, there will be bad too. Staying quit, just went and got some ranch sunflower seeds, see how that suffices. Any other similar alternatives anyone can suggest? No chance of caving, absolutely none, but would take any suggestions for some relief!
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Cravings have been a real bitch today on day 5. Just like many said, yesterday might’ve been a good day, there will be bad too. Staying quit, just went and got some ranch sunflower seeds, see how that suffices. Any other similar alternatives anyone can suggest? No chance of caving, absolutely none, but would take any suggestions for some relief!
Sugarless gum, fake dip, and seeds were my subs. Just realizing the cravings don’t really last that long helped. Stay busy, get a little extra rest, drink a ton of water, focus only on today, and know it will get better. You can do this. You will never regret quitting but you will always regret caving.
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Slept in today, somewhat late night was probably up until around 3:30. My sleep schedule has been all over the place which has been an issue for years, now adding quitting I expect it to continue to be a bit crazy! My most common times to post roll will likely be anytime between 10 and 11 am, give or take an hour for an early or late wake up day. I am staying quit don’t worry! Day 5 can’t wait for 6
Welcome and glad to have ya here. It truly sucks now but it does get so much better. I think for me, it took somewhere around 3-5 weeks and I startes getting the best sleep I have ever had in my life. I'm sure you will too. Keep up the great attitude and reach out any time, my digits are yours if you want them.
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Quick little update on how my quit is going.
I have had no cravings or any other issues, sleep, temperament, “fog” since maybe day 5. Life is good. I’ve had 5 or 6 straight days now of just normal life. I had a funny run in today at the gas station with a guy who works there, I told him a couple weeks ago I was planning to quit and not to sell me any dip if I ever ask. I went through his line grabbing a coffee and he yelled at me not to even ask for dip. That made me laugh, having KTC and a guy like that holding me accountable means a lot. I don’t wanna call it easy, but it is kind of easy to quit when you do it for the right reasons and have people who won’t let you fuck it up.
I am chillin, 11 days in. The cravings are gone which is really the only thing that stopped me in the past. Hope everyone else is doing well and anyone new who might read this, get past that first few days and you’re well on your way to beating it. It gets much easier
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Quick little update on how my quit is going.
I have had no cravings or any other issues, sleep, temperament, “fog” since maybe day 5. Life is good. I’ve had 5 or 6 straight days now of just normal life. I had a funny run in today at the gas station with a guy who works there, I told him a couple weeks ago I was planning to quit and not to sell me any dip if I ever ask. I went through his line grabbing a coffee and he yelled at me not to even ask for dip. That made me laugh, having KTC and a guy like that holding me accountable means a lot. I don’t wanna call it easy, but it is kind of easy to quit when you do it for the right reasons and have people who won’t let you fuck it up.
I am chillin, 11 days in. The cravings are gone which is really the only thing that stopped me in the past. Hope everyone else is doing well and anyone new who might read this, get past that first few days and you’re well on your way to beating it. It gets much easier
"The cravings are gone"
As talked about previously in this thread...be careful with this. For most people, the cravings don't go away. They still pop up, and usually at the most inopportune times. Always be on guard for cravings and be prepared to deal with them. That's why we post at the beginning of each day. Your promise to your group is one of the biggest tools to keep you from giving in to those cravings. Another big tool is having digits and using them. When you get a craving and feel overwhelmed, text or call another quitter until the craving goes away.
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I get a lot of vibes from members of this site that I am doing something wrong here. I am on day 13, I’ve posted roll everyday. What am I missing?
I’m quitting, I’m keeping my promise, I’m doing insanely well actually, about a full week of feeling incredible with no cravings or temptation at all.
I think sometimes it’s okay to just be doing well. Letting it be easy while it’s easy. Not dreading or fearing a relapse. Not craving and stress eating and being up all night. It really is okay to be okay and I get a lot of texts, DMs and replies that come across very strange to me. Like I’m doing something wrong because I’m doing well.
Weird stuff. Going forward I’m posting roll daily only. Those who have my number, if you have an emergency I am always here. I quit 13 days ago and I’m not going to live every day fearing the worst. I am going to enjoy being quit and be positive.
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I get a lot of vibes from members of this site that I am doing something wrong here. I am on day 13, I’ve posted roll everyday. What am I missing?
I’m quitting, I’m keeping my promise, I’m doing insanely well actually, about a full week of feeling incredible with no cravings or temptation at all.
I think sometimes it’s okay to just be doing well. Letting it be easy while it’s easy. Not dreading or fearing a relapse. Not craving and stress eating and being up all night. It really is okay to be okay and I get a lot of texts, DMs and replies that come across very strange to me. Like I’m doing something wrong because I’m doing well.
Weird stuff. Going forward I’m posting roll daily only. Those who have my number, if you have an emergency I am always here. I quit 13 days ago and I’m not going to live every day fearing the worst. I am going to enjoy being quit and be positive.
If you are posting roll early, every damn day and keeping your promise, you are doing things right. Sounds also like you have shared digits with people which is very important too.
You are not wrong to enjoy the easy times. I've always preached to enjoy the smooth sections of road but prepare for the worst. The messages you are receiving is because you WILL hit rough patches in your quit. Complacency is the biggest quit killer and people want to make sure someone like yourself with less than 2 weeks under your belt don't fall into early complacency. Those of us with some more time on KTC have seen it a play out hundreds of times where people go a few weeks, months, etc. feel good about their quit, leave the site and then come crawling back because they hit a rough patch and caved.
So continue to do what you are doing. But stay vigilant and don't let yourself get complacent.
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I get a lot of vibes from members of this site that I am doing something wrong here. I am on day 13, I’ve posted roll everyday. What am I missing?
I’m quitting, I’m keeping my promise, I’m doing insanely well actually, about a full week of feeling incredible with no cravings or temptation at all.
I think sometimes it’s okay to just be doing well. Letting it be easy while it’s easy. Not dreading or fearing a relapse. Not craving and stress eating and being up all night. It really is okay to be okay and I get a lot of texts, DMs and replies that come across very strange to me. Like I’m doing something wrong because I’m doing well.
Weird stuff. Going forward I’m posting roll daily only. Those who have my number, if you have an emergency I am always here. I quit 13 days ago and I’m not going to live every day fearing the worst. I am going to enjoy being quit and be positive.
If you are posting roll early, every damn day and keeping your promise, you are doing things right. Sounds also like you have shared digits with people which is very important too.
You are not wrong to enjoy the easy times. I've always preached to enjoy the smooth sections of road but prepare for the worst. The messages you are receiving is because you WILL hit rough patches in your quit. Complacency is the biggest quit killer and people want to make sure someone like yourself with less than 2 weeks under your belt don't fall into early complacency. Those of us with some more time on KTC have seen it a play out hundreds of times where people go a few weeks, months, etc. feel good about their quit, leave the site and then come crawling back because they hit a rough patch and caved.
So continue to do what you are doing. But stay vigilant and don't let yourself get complacent.
Hey @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606). I wouldn't sweat it. Post roll early every day. If you are anything like me, this will be enough most days to stay on the right path. Take what you want from the rest of the site. Many believe that the more you are involved here, the better the chance you'll stay quit...and I certainly think that is true. However, if you post roll and are solidly quit, no one will force you to be more involved. As you've heard, opinions are like assholes... You do you! You are not doing anything wrong. Take what is helpful from the comments and conversations you have with people here and ignore the naysayers and malcontents. You are killing it. Reach out any time.
PTBQWYT my friend
~HAG
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Thought I’d give a bit of an outro as I leave KTC
19 days quit. Feeling great physically and mentally. Ever since around day 5 I’ve been very good. That first 5 days is super rough but I’ve been good since.
There’s a couple reasons I’m leaving KTC and a few things that have been brought up that ARE NOT in any way involved.
I am not looking for an excuse to go backwards. I wouldn’t waste these 19 days for any reason.
I am however so far above being talked down to the way a few weirdos on here have done. The overwhelming majority of members here are incredible people, and I relate to you guys extremely well. I appreciate all of you, even the douchebags who live on a high horse for some reason. You’re weird, but you are appreciated. There’s douchebags everywhere in the world so it’s fitting they’re here as well.
Quick shoutout to some of the awesome guys I’ve spoken with, redwood, chaotique, chris2alaska, gottadoit, stillbrewing, exbearhag, coachmts. I’ve left off a name or two for sure and not on purpose. I appreciate your guys support, getting on me in a normal way, and being good ass people who are on this journey with me everyday.
I’m not making this post to be dramatic or for any attention, more so to let everyone know I am in fact leaving and not to send out a search party. I will be exchanging daily texts with most of the above people and that will keep me going.
I apologize to those who’s standards I couldn’t live up to here. I woke up and posted every single day like I was told to do and promised I would. Some days I did in fact post and not return until the next day, many days I didn’t. Whatever you expected of me that I didn’t do, I apologize that you felt the way you did and felt you could talk down to me. That’ll never happen in my lifetime though, I am a grown ass man fellas.
But that’s all for me. I did my absolute best here to contribute and be a part of the larger group. I could stick around but due to a few of the members here I simply am choosing not to.
I will stay quit, and you better do the same.
-Brian
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Thought I’d give a bit of an outro as I leave KTC
19 days quit. Feeling great physically and mentally. Ever since around day 5 I’ve been very good. That first 5 days is super rough but I’ve been good since.
There’s a couple reasons I’m leaving KTC and a few things that have been brought up that ARE NOT in any way involved.
I am not looking for an excuse to go backwards. I wouldn’t waste these 19 days for any reason.
I am however so far above being talked down to the way a few weirdos on here have done. The overwhelming majority of members here are incredible people, and I relate to you guys extremely well. I appreciate all of you, even the douchebags who live on a high horse for some reason. You’re weird, but you are appreciated. There’s douchebags everywhere in the world so it’s fitting they’re here as well.
Quick shoutout to some of the awesome guys I’ve spoken with, redwood, chaotique, chris2alaska, gottadoit, stillbrewing, exbearhag, coachmts. I’ve left off a name or two for sure and not on purpose. I appreciate your guys support, getting on me in a normal way, and being good ass people who are on this journey with me everyday.
I’m not making this post to be dramatic or for any attention, more so to let everyone know I am in fact leaving and not to send out a search party. I will be exchanging daily texts with most of the above people and that will keep me going.
I apologize to those who’s standards I couldn’t live up to here. I woke up and posted every single day like I was told to do and promised I would. Some days I did in fact post and not return until the next day, many days I didn’t. Whatever you expected of me that I didn’t do, I apologize that you felt the way you did and felt you could talk down to me. That’ll never happen in my lifetime though, I am a grown ass man fellas.
But that’s all for me. I did my absolute best here to contribute and be a part of the larger group. I could stick around but due to a few of the members here I simply am choosing not to.
I will stay quit, and you better do the same.
-Brian
Hate to see you go @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606). There is a saving on KTC - take what you need and leave the rest meaning there is some noise but don’t let it distract from the task at hand - staying nic free. Hope you will reconsider.
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Thought I’d give a bit of an outro as I leave KTC
19 days quit. Feeling great physically and mentally. Ever since around day 5 I’ve been very good. That first 5 days is super rough but I’ve been good since.
There’s a couple reasons I’m leaving KTC and a few things that have been brought up that ARE NOT in any way involved.
I am not looking for an excuse to go backwards. I wouldn’t waste these 19 days for any reason.
I am however so far above being talked down to the way a few weirdos on here have done. The overwhelming majority of members here are incredible people, and I relate to you guys extremely well. I appreciate all of you, even the douchebags who live on a high horse for some reason. You’re weird, but you are appreciated. There’s douchebags everywhere in the world so it’s fitting they’re here as well.
Quick shoutout to some of the awesome guys I’ve spoken with, redwood, chaotique, chris2alaska, gottadoit, stillbrewing, exbearhag, coachmts. I’ve left off a name or two for sure and not on purpose. I appreciate your guys support, getting on me in a normal way, and being good ass people who are on this journey with me everyday.
I’m not making this post to be dramatic or for any attention, more so to let everyone know I am in fact leaving and not to send out a search party. I will be exchanging daily texts with most of the above people and that will keep me going.
I apologize to those who’s standards I couldn’t live up to here. I woke up and posted every single day like I was told to do and promised I would. Some days I did in fact post and not return until the next day, many days I didn’t. Whatever you expected of me that I didn’t do, I apologize that you felt the way you did and felt you could talk down to me. That’ll never happen in my lifetime though, I am a grown ass man fellas.
But that’s all for me. I did my absolute best here to contribute and be a part of the larger group. I could stick around but due to a few of the members here I simply am choosing not to.
I will stay quit, and you better do the same.
-Brian
Hate to see you go @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606). There is a saving on KTC - take what you need and leave the rest meaning there is some noise but don’t let it distract from the task at hand - staying nic free. Hope you will reconsider.
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) The thing we always say here is take what you need and leave the rest. You chances of success without KTC are slim to none. 19 days is great but your quit is still a newborn who just had their umbilical cord cut. Hell, I used to make it 19 days on my own without KTC; but today I have the honor to post day 1,480.
You are throwing the baby out with the bath water because your newly nicotine deprived brain has a shorter fuse than normal and you aren't thinking clearly. We understand; we have all been there. If everyone bolted because they butted heads with others here, this place wouldn't exist.
Post roll; honor your word. The rest is noise.
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Thought I’d give a bit of an outro as I leave KTC
19 days quit. Feeling great physically and mentally. Ever since around day 5 I’ve been very good. That first 5 days is super rough but I’ve been good since.
There’s a couple reasons I’m leaving KTC and a few things that have been brought up that ARE NOT in any way involved.
I am not looking for an excuse to go backwards. I wouldn’t waste these 19 days for any reason.
I am however so far above being talked down to the way a few weirdos on here have done. The overwhelming majority of members here are incredible people, and I relate to you guys extremely well. I appreciate all of you, even the douchebags who live on a high horse for some reason. You’re weird, but you are appreciated. There’s douchebags everywhere in the world so it’s fitting they’re here as well.
Quick shoutout to some of the awesome guys I’ve spoken with, redwood, chaotique, chris2alaska, gottadoit, stillbrewing, exbearhag, coachmts. I’ve left off a name or two for sure and not on purpose. I appreciate your guys support, getting on me in a normal way, and being good ass people who are on this journey with me everyday.
I’m not making this post to be dramatic or for any attention, more so to let everyone know I am in fact leaving and not to send out a search party. I will be exchanging daily texts with most of the above people and that will keep me going.
I apologize to those who’s standards I couldn’t live up to here. I woke up and posted every single day like I was told to do and promised I would. Some days I did in fact post and not return until the next day, many days I didn’t. Whatever you expected of me that I didn’t do, I apologize that you felt the way you did and felt you could talk down to me. That’ll never happen in my lifetime though, I am a grown ass man fellas.
But that’s all for me. I did my absolute best here to contribute and be a part of the larger group. I could stick around but due to a few of the members here I simply am choosing not to.
I will stay quit, and you better do the same.
-Brian
Hate to see you go @WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606). There is a saving on KTC - take what you need and leave the rest meaning there is some noise but don’t let it distract from the task at hand - staying nic free. Hope you will reconsider.
@WonPump (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15606) The thing we always say here is take what you need and leave the rest. You chances of success without KTC are slim to none. 19 days is great but your quit is still a newborn who just had their umbilical cord cut. Hell, I used to make it 19 days on my own without KTC; but today I have the honor to post day 1,480.
You are throwing the baby out with the bath water because your newly nicotine deprived brain has a shorter fuse than normal and you aren't thinking clearly. We understand; we have all been there. If everyone bolted because they butted heads with others here, this place wouldn't exist.
Post roll; honor your word. The rest is noise.
Copied from August '20:
I remember feeling similar in the first several weeks of my quit. I was raging (didn't really even know it) and just trying to keep my shit together. I was getting some pressure from vets to be more active and it pissed me off. I couldn't do much more than just hold on at the time. A fellow quitter reached out to me and told me to just hold the line. Some vets get on the new boards and push pretty hard. I think their intentions are good but it sometimes comes across the wrong way. Eventually, there will be other new groups and your group will be left alone. Don't get me wrong, I agree that the more you participate and get involved, the stronger your quit is and the more successful you are going to be. But...the ONLY price of admission here is to post roll. Personally I do think you are making a mistake by walking away. I will text with you for as long as you like but nothing can replace being part of a group and accomplishing milestones with a team of people on the same position. My advise would be to post roll, make connections, ignore all the fuzz that isn't helpful to you. LMK where/when i can help but I would keep posting roll. Hold that line brother.
~HAG
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
So are you going to post roll? This isn’t Facebook, where you post a status update. It’s an accountability forum where you post a promise. Then keep that promise.
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
So are you going to post roll? This isn’t Facebook, where you post a status update. It’s an accountability forum where you post a promise. Then keep that promise.
And every day, at the beginning of your day. Are you commiting to that? That's all anyone has wanted so far from what I've seen.
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
So are you going to post roll? This isn’t Facebook, where you post a status update. It’s an accountability forum where you post a promise. Then keep that promise.
And every day, at the beginning of your day. Are you commiting to that? That's all anyone has wanted so far from what I've seen.
I did that from the start. It’s sad how many people have been misinformed and made to think I didn’t.
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
So are you going to post roll? This isn’t Facebook, where you post a status update. It’s an accountability forum where you post a promise. Then keep that promise.
Yes. I did everyday, was never a problem. You are misinformed unfortunately
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Very brief update on my quit. These last few days for reasons many who may read this know, have been very detrimental to my quit. I can’t allow things that are “bad” for me and my quit to happen. I came to this website seeking help and seeking to be part of a group, be accountable to somebody. I don’t have many people that myself quitting would mean much of anything to. I have a few buddies. I have my mom. I don’t have anyone who’s getting on me about it or that’s super proud of me for quitting etc. I don’t need super proud. I need a group of people to let down. I need going back to mean I’m hurting others. I will not do that, the thought of that gives me strength. I’m here to quit. I’m here for the other new members and the veterans that I’ve spoken to. I’m not here for the douche bags and I promise I will never change my view of some of you guys. But that is not important. You guys are not important to me.
Take what you need and leave the rest is what I’ve been told. I need the people who I’ve gotten to know and the ones I’ll meet going forward. I’ll leave the garbage that some of you are. You can rot.
Stay quit!
So are you going to post roll? This isn’t Facebook, where you post a status update. It’s an accountability forum where you post a promise. Then keep that promise.
And every day, at the beginning of your day. Are you commiting to that? That's all anyone has wanted so far from what I've seen.
I did that from the start. It’s sad how many people have been misinformed and made to think I didn’t.
Then what are people giving you a hard time about? I see nothing in this intro that says people are expecting too much from you. I just see you bitching and moaning about all the crap people give you. You did nothing to deserve that attention? I can't imagine that. There are plenty of miscreants and "garbage" on here, but they only come and start shit when they see or hear addict speak. If you're innocent of that, keep doing what you're doing. In the end, quitting is for you and you know what works for you; but we have all seen enough quitters say that they are done for good, and won't go back and talk about leaving after 10 days, 19 days, 101 days, etc that do not remain quit, that folks jump all over that every single time they see someone spewing the addict speak of "you just don't understand.... It's different for me... My special circumstances.... So and so was mean to me"
Don't try to quit, just quit. Don't bitch and moan about your special situation, just quit.
The best thing you have been told and do seem to be in tune with is "take what you need and leave the rest'
Post roll
Keep your word
Wake up and do it again
Simple plan, takes courage and commitment to do. Don't let the garbage run you off if this is what you need.
Pm coming your way if you need one more set of digits
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I’m just going to post this once here and stop updating.
I never missed roll. I never posted roll late. (I stated my hours early on in this intro thread, and people hadn’t read my intro, and jumped on me for being late)
I was not late, posting roll was never an issue. ONE PERSON did not know my hours, called me out and the gang mentality kicked in and suddenly a dozen people were on me and it was a complete and udder debacle from there on. My PMs are loaded with people saying I’ll be back on day 1 soon and get laughed at, loaded with people saying “your updates are too casual, you’re trolling, you haven’t even quit. You aren’t going through anything I experienced” yes there are multiple people saying I didn’t even quit. Slap in the face, imagine that being said to you? Would you not literally lose your shit being told that with everything you’re already dealing with 19 days into quitting? Maybe you’re a better or stronger minded person than me. But you 3 people, I assume coordinated, and PMed me that all in the same day. I hope you’re proud of yourselves and all the “help” you bring to people here. Fucking cowards. And I will offer you each $100 PayPal/cashapp/Venmo whichever you prefer to publically apologize to me for saying that. All the other shit talk, fuck you I don’t care, but I deserve an apology for being told I haven’t even quit. You’re cowards though, I know you won’t do so.
How did it all begin? I posted roll when I woke up like I did every other day, and it was too late for one persons liking (I sleep when I sleep, and made everyone aware of that here in this thread) and again, too many hands in the pot and suddenly there were 20 new issues being made up and thrown around.
Ask anyone here with a brain and not the garbage. I didn’t provoke anything that came my way. Am I completely innocent? I am not. I am never in my life going to be talked down to. And I reacted like a MAN should. I’m not gonna bend over for you fucking weirdos. I didn’t then, I won’t tomorrow and I never once will. Know that. Now please for the love of god can this be the last time I address this so I can move forward?
Know how much this situation triggered me? 19 days quit and I had people with moderator and HOF this and that and all these legit people I figured I should be looking up to, PMing me the most random bullshit I’ve ever experienced. Mentions all day long in OUR GROUP thread meant for US NEW QUITTERS. Get a damn life man. I’ve addressed it, I want to move on now. This situation was super detrimental to my quit. Nothing in the past 21 days made me want to grab a tin more than the pussies who think they’re cool ganging up on someone on the internet. Want to help me? Learn when enough is enough and if I’m not on roll GET ON MY ASS. Shut your mouth until then. None of this should’ve happened and everyone knows it, most of them are too delusional and weird to admit it though. They will just forever think it’s cool to throw in their opinion and made up accusations where they’re not at all needed so they feel important. You aren’t important. You’re just an addict, same as me. That is to everyone.
Stay Quit cuz god damnit I AM
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The below post is simply to address the ongoing confusion and continued perception that there was something going on with me missing roll, not following through on my promise here.
I encourage anyone who challenges the below post to take the time to dig through each day of August roll leading up to day 19. If you find anything I said to be false post it and let me know. Let everyone know. (You won’t find anything.)
I’m not making any more enemies here okay. I’m here for my august guys. I’m here for buddies that I text every day now. I don’t care at all about the people who wanna shit talk me. My life will go on. Our group is done with drama. If you aren’t in our group keep your drama away from us. We will grow together and we do not need your bullshit.
This situation has surely led to many people thinking I’m crazy and dramatic. Man I am such a chill person I can’t wait to just show that and have this be done with. But I need you guys to be done with it. This situation began between Bug Guy (Steve) and myself. As far as I’m concerned this situation ended tonight when he and I linked up on the phone. I called him, ready to kill him, swearing my ass off. The call ended with us laughing and making a gentlemen’s bet on something related to the topic that I won’t share. And with me letting him know I really did feel humbled by our call and I needed it. I was really on edge dealing with for a couple days.
If I see anything like this happen on this site again with someone new I will step in and it will be stopped before it gets as far as this did. It’s unacceptable. I almost let these people make me leave. I wouldn’t have stayed quit. I’m not letting any person on this site do that to someone else. Be careful what you create in a person because your gang bullying days are over.
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Very glad we got things worked out and that you agreed to post roll and stick around. Happy as hell to have you here. These things only make us stronger. When life is easy we're not really learning anything. When things get tough and challenge us, that's when we learn a lot about ourselves and our resolve. You were ready to call it quits, but YOU decided that you weren't giving up and jumped back into the fire. Not saying it's all going to be rainbows and sunshine from here on out, but I know your being here is going to make it that much better. #strongertogether lol ok so that's a bit corny, but I had to.
Proud to be quit with you Brian! Keep kicking nic's ass!