Hello everyone, my name is Brian and I’m 31. I’ve used dip for the better part of 13 years now. This is the first time I’ve ever typed those numbers out, and seeing I’ve dipped nearly half my life at this point is surreal. I’ve lurked on this website before, on nights like tonight where I can’t sleep, looking for the one magic post that will make it all click for me. Hoping something I read makes it easy. I’ve quit at times, for 2 days, for months even, but I’ve always gone back. Tonight is my time, it’s happening for good.
I have put myself through a whirlwind of health problems over this CRAP. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I believe I now have Crohn’s disease stemming from dip. My stomach basically always hurts, I’m rarely comfortable and how I feel on a scale from 1-10 (it’s honestly never over about 5 or 6) is truly day to day.
I’m just ready to feel better. There’s no magical quit story that has clicked for me, although everyone here is truly inspirational. I’ve been here before like I said, at 3 or 4am feeling like crap reading about quits and what to expect here on KTC. I wish I never put that first dip in at a party my first week of college. But I did and now after 13 years of bad decisions I owe it to myself to finally make one good one.
I will need support. And encouragement. I’m a grown man but this is a tough fight. Quarantine and unemployment won’t help (I live in NY). But I’ve seen you guys do it and I’m ready to walk alongside you all.
I’m off to bed, at nearly 5am. Another night of getting that last dip in and being wide awake all night. THE LAST NIGHT. I don’t look forward to the struggle but I do look forward to earning my place amongst you all.