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Title: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on December 28, 2019, 01:15:41 AM
Hi All.  I made the decision last night to finally quit after 25+ years and over can a day.  I don't love dipping.  I don't think i ever have. I just picked it up cause my friends did it and it just stuck.  I'm tired of having to sneak off at work to get a fix, I'm tired of wasting money on something that is going to kill me, im tired of having something control so many of my actions. 

I am happy to say that I am now over a day into my quit.  So far i don't know what to think.  My head is a little cloudy but not too much so, though I'm guessing that will get worse.  I'm doing what i can to keep my mind off of it but its all i can think of.  At this point i miss having something in my mouth more than the nicotine itself.  I stocked up on some Smokey Mountain to help with if I have a craving.  I had some challenges and somethings I'm proud of.  I didn't put one in when i woke up.  I didn't put one in when i drove to the store, nor when i watched a bowl game.  I couldn't say that prior to today and I look forward to be able to say it about tomorrow.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: ankape on December 28, 2019, 01:39:17 AM
Hi All.  I made the decision last night to finally quit after 25+ years and over can a day.  I don't love dipping.  I don't think i ever have. I just picked it up cause my friends did it and it just stuck.  I'm tired of having to sneak off at work to get a fix, I'm tired of wasting money on something that is going to kill me, im tired of having something control so many of my actions. 

I am happy to say that I am now over a day into my quit.  So far i don't know what to think.  My head is a little cloudy but not too much so, though I'm guessing that will get worse.  I'm doing what i can to keep my mind off of it but its all i can think of.  At this point i miss having something in my mouth more than the nicotine itself.  I stocked up on some Smokey Mountain to help with if I have a craving.  I had some challenges and somethings I'm proud of.  I didn't put one in when i woke up.  I didn't put one in when i drove to the store, nor when i watched a bowl game.  I couldn't say that prior to today and I look forward to be able to say it about tomorrow.
Hi Titus!! Nice work making it through the first day!
Go here and post your promise and day count (your day 1 is the day you decided to quit and threw it all out)
https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.0
We wake up, piss, and post our promise (WUPP) first thing every damn day (EDD) and I’ll tell you- it works. You can quit for a day. Worry about tomorrow..tomorrow.
Simple process..difficult journey.
Do lots of reading on the site, reach out and exchange digits (through PM only) and build your wall of accountability so hard that failure is not an option.
If you’re serious to quit- here is the right place and these people will support you like family if you let them.

Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: TwinCitiesMN on December 28, 2019, 06:28:33 AM
Great to see you here, @titus01 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16413) ! So this is day 2!  Go here
https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.0
and post your day count and promise every morning. You Made a great, life-saving decision. PM me your digits if you want an extra layer of accountability.
TwinCitiesMN (day 777)
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: chitownsnus on December 28, 2019, 11:48:58 AM
Hi All.  I made the decision last night to finally quit after 25+ years and over can a day.  I don't love dipping.  I don't think i ever have. I just picked it up cause my friends did it and it just stuck.  I'm tired of having to sneak off at work to get a fix, I'm tired of wasting money on something that is going to kill me, im tired of having something control so many of my actions. 

I am happy to say that I am now over a day into my quit.  So far i don't know what to think.  My head is a little cloudy but not too much so, though I'm guessing that will get worse.  I'm doing what i can to keep my mind off of it but its all i can think of.  At this point i miss having something in my mouth more than the nicotine itself.  I stocked up on some Smokey Mountain to help with if I have a craving.  I had some challenges and somethings I'm proud of.  I didn't put one in when i woke up.  I didn't put one in when i drove to the store, nor when i watched a bowl game.  I couldn't say that prior to today and I look forward to be able to say it about tomorrow.

Great decision! Reach out if you need anything.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on December 28, 2019, 11:56:21 AM
Hi All.  I made the decision last night to finally quit after 25+ years and over can a day.  I don't love dipping.  I don't think i ever have. I just picked it up cause my friends did it and it just stuck.  I'm tired of having to sneak off at work to get a fix, I'm tired of wasting money on something that is going to kill me, im tired of having something control so many of my actions. 

I am happy to say that I am now over a day into my quit.  So far i don't know what to think.  My head is a little cloudy but not too much so, though I'm guessing that will get worse.  I'm doing what i can to keep my mind off of it but its all i can think of.  At this point i miss having something in my mouth more than the nicotine itself.  I stocked up on some Smokey Mountain to help with if I have a craving.  I had some challenges and somethings I'm proud of.  I didn't put one in when i woke up.  I didn't put one in when i drove to the store, nor when i watched a bowl game.  I couldn't say that prior to today and I look forward to be able to say it about tomorrow.

Great decision! Reach out if you need anything.

@titus01 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16413) are you going to follow through?
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: EnuffSnuff on December 28, 2019, 01:35:14 PM
Hi All.  I made the decision last night to finally quit after 25+ years and over can a day.  I don't love dipping.  I don't think i ever have. I just picked it up cause my friends did it and it just stuck.  I'm tired of having to sneak off at work to get a fix, I'm tired of wasting money on something that is going to kill me, im tired of having something control so many of my actions. 

I am happy to say that I am now over a day into my quit.  So far i don't know what to think.  My head is a little cloudy but not too much so, though I'm guessing that will get worse.  I'm doing what i can to keep my mind off of it but its all i can think of.  At this point i miss having something in my mouth more than the nicotine itself.  I stocked up on some Smokey Mountain to help with if I have a craving.  I had some challenges and somethings I'm proud of.  I didn't put one in when i woke up.  I didn't put one in when i drove to the store, nor when i watched a bowl game.  I couldn't say that prior to today and I look forward to be able to say it about tomorrow.
Quitting is a decision. You decided to do the right thing. When things get rough, and they will, remember it all comes down to a decision. Take it one day, one hour or even one minute at a time. Decide in those moments to stay quit. Form a support network to help hold you accountable. Get something to help you through cravings. I used seeds...chewed through truck loads of the things in the first month it seems like. You got this!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on December 29, 2019, 01:11:45 AM
Thanks for all of the messages and words of support i have received from so many of y'all.

As I write this I'm approaching in on the 48hr mark.  Waking up this morning I felt great, way better than I ever expected i would. Throughout the day I've continued to feel pretty good overall, much less cloudy than when i went to sleep.  Not sure how ill feel tomorrow but today was definitely not bad.  Im going through more of the fake stuff than i would prefer but it seems to be working to keep my mouth busy.

I've also been trying to make sure I get some exercise each day and have really focused on staying hydrated.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: TabRow3 on December 29, 2019, 02:40:06 AM
Thanks for all of the messages and words of support i have received from so many of y'all.

As I write this I'm approaching in on the 48hr mark.  Waking up this morning I felt great, way better than I ever expected i would. Throughout the day I've continued to feel pretty good overall, much less cloudy than when i went to sleep.  Not sure how ill feel tomorrow but today was definitely not bad.  Im going through more of the fake stuff than i would prefer but it seems to be working to keep my mouth busy.

I've also been trying to make sure I get some exercise each day and have really focused on staying hydrated.
Great to have you with us, Titus! One of the best decisions you could make. I know it’s already been said, and you’ll hear it over and over, but remember that you are only promising to quit for one day. Tomorrow doesn’t even exist yet, so don’t worry about it. Just keep that junk out of your mouth for today. If you remember that, and can keep your word for one day, you’ll be golden!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Chaotique on December 29, 2019, 06:21:41 AM
Thanks for all of the messages and words of support i have received from so many of y'all.

As I write this I'm approaching in on the 48hr mark.  Waking up this morning I felt great, way better than I ever expected i would. Throughout the day I've continued to feel pretty good overall, much less cloudy than when i went to sleep.  Not sure how ill feel tomorrow but today was definitely not bad.  Im going through more of the fake stuff than i would prefer but it seems to be working to keep my mouth busy.

I've also been trying to make sure I get some exercise each day and have really focused on staying hydrated.

@titus01 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16413) great job posting intro, joining the April 2020 PreHOF and updating your intro as you approach 48 hours.  I'm on day 11.  First few days are the worst.  Congratulations on staying quit.  What works for many of us is to WUPP--Wake Up, Pee and Post.  That is... Post to your April 2020 PreHOF as early in the day as you possibly can.  Don't worry about tomorrow.  Make your promise today, and connect with others here on Kill the Can so that your support system will be stronger tomorrow that it is today.  Collect phone numbers.  Use them.

Chaotique (Mike)
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on December 29, 2019, 07:13:27 AM
Great job posting roll and reclaiming your life.  It's amazing to view this addiction from the outside, you'll see. First you gotta get through the suck.
EDUCATE YOURSELF! read up on the addiction.  Got some info in my signature to help you get started.
Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
You got this man - you are NOT alone!
IQWYT
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: nybowhunter21 on December 29, 2019, 09:38:29 AM
Thanks for all of the messages and words of support i have received from so many of y'all.

As I write this I'm approaching in on the 48hr mark.  Waking up this morning I felt great, way better than I ever expected i would. Throughout the day I've continued to feel pretty good overall, much less cloudy than when i went to sleep.  Not sure how ill feel tomorrow but today was definitely not bad.  Im going through more of the fake stuff than i would prefer but it seems to be working to keep my mouth busy.

I've also been trying to make sure I get some exercise each day and have really focused on staying hydrated.
You got this bro!  You will go through ups and downs.  Stay focused.  You can do anything for one damn day!!! Load up on jolly ranchers.  They seemed to help with my mouth addiction.  Biggest thing is.... promise us EVERYDAY in roll call that you will not dip.  We will hold you to it.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on December 30, 2019, 01:15:42 AM
You got this bro!  You will go through ups and downs.  Stay focused.  You can do anything for one damn day!!! Load up on jolly ranchers.  They seemed to help with my mouth addiction.  Biggest thing is.... promise us EVERYDAY in roll call that you will not dip.  We will hold you to it.

Funny enough Jolly Ranchers are something I would use prior to quitting during those times i knew i would have to go a while without a dip. 

Speaking of Ups and Downs, if yesterday was a good day then i would have to classify this one as a bad one, like im stuck in a hangover.  72 hours in and it has definitely been the hardest so far.  I don't know if anyone else experienced this but sitting here on the couch today its like Time has slowed down by half.  The cloudiness is back,  I can't concentrate on anything, and i'm thankful I was able to avoid being around others today.

Made it until past noon before grabbing the for the fake stuff but still going through more than i would like to of that.  The thing that keeps standing out to me is that I really just need something in my lip. 

Thankful i still have a few days at home before i have to go back to work.  Im guessing the next couple will be rough.  I've been keeping up with exercise and drinking a lot of water.  I hope it helps.  Think i may try and get out tomorrow even if it just means going to get some food.  Staying in has kept me safe but Im starting to go a bit stir crazy.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on December 30, 2019, 08:58:07 AM
You got this bro!  You will go through ups and downs.  Stay focused.  You can do anything for one damn day!!! Load up on jolly ranchers.  They seemed to help with my mouth addiction.  Biggest thing is.... promise us EVERYDAY in roll call that you will not dip.  We will hold you to it.

Funny enough Jolly Ranchers are something I would use prior to quitting during those times i knew i would have to go a while without a dip. 

Speaking of Ups and Downs, if yesterday was a good day then i would have to classify this one as a bad one, like im stuck in a hangover.  72 hours in and it has definitely been the hardest so far.  I don't know if anyone else experienced this but sitting here on the couch today its like Time has slowed down by half.  The cloudiness is back,  I can't concentrate on anything, and i'm thankful I was able to avoid being around others today.

Made it until past noon before grabbing the for the fake stuff but still going through more than i would like to of that.  The thing that keeps standing out to me is that I really just need something in my lip. 

Thankful i still have a few days at home before i have to go back to work.  Im guessing the next couple will be rough.  I've been keeping up with exercise and drinking a lot of water.  I hope it helps.  Think i may try and get out tomorrow even if it just means going to get some food.  Staying in has kept me safe but Im starting to go a bit stir crazy.

Go for a walk and get some  exercise. But your body will need more rest than usual for a bit. ODAAT you can do it.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on December 30, 2019, 09:18:35 AM
You got this bro!  You will go through ups and downs.  Stay focused.  You can do anything for one damn day!!! Load up on jolly ranchers.  They seemed to help with my mouth addiction.  Biggest thing is.... promise us EVERYDAY in roll call that you will not dip.  We will hold you to it.

Funny enough Jolly Ranchers are something I would use prior to quitting during those times i knew i would have to go a while without a dip. 

Speaking of Ups and Downs, if yesterday was a good day then i would have to classify this one as a bad one, like im stuck in a hangover.  72 hours in and it has definitely been the hardest so far.  I don't know if anyone else experienced this but sitting here on the couch today its like Time has slowed down by half.  The cloudiness is back,  I can't concentrate on anything, and i'm thankful I was able to avoid being around others today.

Made it until past noon before grabbing the for the fake stuff but still going through more than i would like to of that.  The thing that keeps standing out to me is that I really just need something in my lip. 

Thankful i still have a few days at home before i have to go back to work.  Im guessing the next couple will be rough.  I've been keeping up with exercise and drinking a lot of water.  I hope it helps.  Think i may try and get out tomorrow even if it just means going to get some food.  Staying in has kept me safe but Im starting to go a bit stir crazy.

Go for a walk and get some  exercise. But your body will need more rest than usual for a bit. ODAAT you can do it.
Returning to work is going to have some stressors, some triggers. You need to have a plan. You need to have some digits.
Who are you going to reach out to when life comes knocking?
Who are you going to call when you get tight and your addict brain says to throw in the towel?
Don't roll solo brother.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: MNxEngineer314 on December 30, 2019, 12:25:01 PM
You got this bro!  You will go through ups and downs.  Stay focused.  You can do anything for one damn day!!! Load up on jolly ranchers.  They seemed to help with my mouth addiction.  Biggest thing is.... promise us EVERYDAY in roll call that you will not dip.  We will hold you to it.

Funny enough Jolly Ranchers are something I would use prior to quitting during those times i knew i would have to go a while without a dip. 

Speaking of Ups and Downs, if yesterday was a good day then i would have to classify this one as a bad one, like im stuck in a hangover.  72 hours in and it has definitely been the hardest so far.  I don't know if anyone else experienced this but sitting here on the couch today its like Time has slowed down by half.  The cloudiness is back,  I can't concentrate on anything, and i'm thankful I was able to avoid being around others today.

Made it until past noon before grabbing the for the fake stuff but still going through more than i would like to of that.  The thing that keeps standing out to me is that I really just need something in my lip. 

Thankful i still have a few days at home before i have to go back to work.  Im guessing the next couple will be rough.  I've been keeping up with exercise and drinking a lot of water.  I hope it helps.  Think i may try and get out tomorrow even if it just means going to get some food.  Staying in has kept me safe but Im starting to go a bit stir crazy.

Go for a walk and get some  exercise. But your body will need more rest than usual for a bit. ODAAT you can do it.
Returning to work is going to have some stressors, some triggers. You need to have a plan. You need to have some digits.
Who are you going to reach out to when life comes knocking?
Who are you going to call when you get tight and your addict brain says to throw in the towel?
Don't roll solo brother.
You can't hide from your triggers forever. Facing them and overcoming them will add strength to your quit.

If you haven't already, start sharing your digits using the "My Messages" (PM tool) with your fellow quitters. Mine are available upon request. Building a solid accountability network is critical to lasting success here at KTC.

And another note, never worry about tomorrow or any point in the future when it comes to your quit. Don't let the struggles (or wins!) of today create any sort of preconceived notions about what tomorrow may bring. Make a promise right away in the morning each day and focus 100% on keeping that promise TODAY. You embrace that mindset and you will be amazed at how the days begin to stack up.

You are doing great but your quit is very young. Keep some seeds/candy/fake dip substitute close and stay active on the forums. Continue to share your struggles and victories and reach out to your fellow April quitters. Supporting others in their quits will strengthen your own.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on December 31, 2019, 01:27:39 AM
Thank y'all for all of the advice and wisdom.

Coming up on over 96 hours.  Rough night of sleep last night full of tossing and turning.  After waking up and walking towards to bathroom I caught myself subconsciously reaching towards the stand where i used to keep my dip.  It wasn't a craving that made me reach out but pure habit from a routine of grabbing a dip on the way to the bathroom in the morning.  As soon as i reached out i consciously caught myself doing it and had to wonder what i was doing.  I've made it a point to leave the fake stuff down stairs to at night change things up and was just reaching towards air. Just served as another reminder and was on my mind as i posted in the roll call.

Got out of the house for a bit this morning which was nice.  Overall i've felt better today compared to yesterday.  Still feel like i'm partially hungover and time seems to go by so slow.  Didn't reach for the fake stuff until 3 pm which was good.  Kept up with the hydration and exercise.  Looking forward to another day tomorrow.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on December 31, 2019, 04:09:26 AM
....Coming up on over 96 hours.  Rough night of sleep last night full of tossing and turning...
... After waking up and walking towards to bathroom I caught myself subconsciously reaching towards the stand ...
The sleep deprivation is a real deal and a killer. I used OTC sleep aids to get through that. Fewer things will sap a mans resolve, morale, and general give a shit like sleep deprivation. The subconscious reaching for the can is a clear reminder of the insidiousness of the addiction. You are wise to change the location of your fake; break the behavior and break the habit component of the addiction. You're nicotine free now my friend - it's all mind games now.  I encourage you to look at what to expect (https://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/) so that you're not taken off guard. Use those digits and reach out. Rolling solo is a recipe for a cave.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: EXBEARHAG on December 31, 2019, 09:03:17 AM
Welcome Titus.  You've gotten great advice below.  Reach out if you'd like some more digits.  You can do this man.  Hold the line.
PTBQWYT my friend.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 01, 2020, 01:28:16 AM
5 full days completed.  Tomorrow marks the seven day overall.

Wasn't sure that it was possible but i somehow managed to sleep worse last night than I did the night before.  I dont know if i was asleep for more than 30 minutes at a time and eventually just got out of bed around 6 to post roll call.  Decided i would try a new place out for breakfast and sure enough it was terrible.  One thing i noticed is that my appetite hasn't changed a bit and if anything my daily caffeine intake has actually dropped.  Made sure to keep up with exercise and hydration but i really need to start drinking water earlier in the day rather than a ton a night.

Ended up going back to bed after breakfast.  Maybe got another hour or two of rest before starting the day in earnest.  I have to say while i'm not really feeling depressed per say today was the first day i noticed being excited about something, which was nice.   Still feeling a little foggy but overall not too bad.  As i posted on the Quit Group thread decided to stay home this evening.  Had a drink of Blanton's but that was about the extent of any celebrations apart from eating some jerky.  Didnt reach for the fake stuff till almost 4 today but dammit if i dont have a hard time putting it down once i do.

Went to the pharmacy to get some sleeping aids so hopefully that helps when i go to bed in an hour or two.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on January 01, 2020, 12:21:43 PM
5 full days completed.  Tomorrow marks the seven day overall.

Wasn't sure that it was possible but i somehow managed to sleep worse last night than I did the night before.  I dont know if i was asleep for more than 30 minutes at a time and eventually just got out of bed around 6 to post roll call.  Decided i would try a new place out for breakfast and sure enough it was terrible.  One thing i noticed is that my appetite hasn't changed a bit and if anything my daily caffeine intake has actually dropped.  Made sure to keep up with exercise and hydration but i really need to start drinking water earlier in the day rather than a ton a night.

Ended up going back to bed after breakfast.  Maybe got another hour or two of rest before starting the day in earnest.  I have to say while i'm not really feeling depressed per say today was the first day i noticed being excited about something, which was nice.   Still feeling a little foggy but overall not too bad.  As i posted on the Quit Group thread decided to stay home this evening.  Had a drink of Blanton's but that was about the extent of any celebrations apart from eating some jerky.  Didnt reach for the fake stuff till almost 4 today but dammit if i dont have a hard time putting it down once i do.

Went to the pharmacy to get some sleeping aids so hopefully that helps when i go to bed in an hour or two.

Be patient. Your body and mind are going through a lot and discovering a new way of doing things without nic. Good sleep will return, life will get much better, and the sense of pride you get from beating nic ODDAT is huge. You can do it and we are here to help. Make connections and reach out. Who have you texted lately or called. Shoot me a pm with digits and we can partner to quit with each other daily. There is power in numbers.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 02, 2020, 01:05:41 AM
6 Days done.  Looking towards a full week tomorrow.

Slept pretty well last night, maybe a bit too long but i'm not complaining.  I guess the sleep aids helped.  I've felt pretty decent today.  Still a bit foggy in the evenings but not too bad.  Stuck with the exercise and hydration.

Overall pretty uneventful day which is perfectly fine with me.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 02, 2020, 01:18:30 AM
6 Days done.  Looking towards a full week tomorrow.

Slept pretty well last night, maybe a bit too long but i'm not complaining.  I guess the sleep aids helped.  I've felt pretty decent today.  Still a bit foggy in the evenings but not too bad.  Stuck with the exercise and hydration.

Overall pretty uneventful day which is perfectly fine with me.
It's a WIN! So many folks pass through here, make an intro and you never see 'em again.  You're a week clean man! Every day is a victory - celebrate it!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 03, 2020, 12:57:29 AM
7 days finished.

Last night was the first time anxiety has hit me since i quit.  Lying in bed i got to thinking about today being the first day back at work and what that would bring.  Not sure why it bothered me so much but it did.  It came back this morning as i was getting ready to head out.  Got to work and immediately wanted to go back home.  After an hour or so I finally calmed down.  Ended up feeling pretty damn good by the end of the day. 

Went through a ton of the fake stuff today.  I had been going without it until the afternoon but reached for it pretty early this morning.  The stuff really does the job when it comes to cravings for me.  Did get a solid workout in when i got home and have done decent on staying hydrated. 

Overall a rough day that ended pretty well. 
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 03, 2020, 02:55:54 AM
7 days finished.

Last night was the first time anxiety has hit me since i quit.  Lying in bed i got to thinking about today being the first day back at work and what that would bring.  Not sure why it bothered me so much but it did.  It came back this morning as i was getting ready to head out.  Got to work and immediately wanted to go back home.  After an hour or so I finally calmed down.  Ended up feeling pretty damn good by the end of the day. 

Went through a ton of the fake stuff today.  I had been going without it until the afternoon but reached for it pretty early this morning.  The stuff really does the job when it comes to cravings for me.  Did get a solid workout in when i got home and have done decent on staying hydrated. 

Overall a rough day that ended pretty well.
OUTSTANDING! There is no substitute for VICTORY! You will never regret quitting, you will always regret a cave. Great job man and kudos for blogging it out and sharing the win.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 04, 2020, 01:16:45 AM
8 down, 9 tomorrow.

Today was a pretty good day.  Got a good night's rest and woke up feeling pretty good.  No anxiety today.  Got a good workout in when i got home and have done decent with hydrating.  Still using more of the fake stuff than i would like.

Overall No complaints.





Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Bug Guy on January 04, 2020, 02:06:16 AM
Welcome to the best damn quit month here at KTC! You need anything, give me a shout. My digits are a pm away. As far as fake goes, do whatever it takes to keep the real shit out of your mouth. Hell I'm on day 366 and have Grinds pouches in right now! NAFAR
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 05, 2020, 01:11:16 AM
9 down, 10 on deck.

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) I get what your saying. Im not sure how to best state it but the ease at which the fake stuff has replaced the real stuff gives me pause.  I dont recall craving a dip of snuff just for the nicotine.  I do recall many times where i just needed something between my cheek and gums.  I guess im just trying to reconcile the addition to nicotine with the habit of dipping in my mind.  I know the first part was going to be a bitch, i didn't realize that the latter would be stronger.

Today was another good day.  Woke up pretty early (sleep was neither bad nor good) and posted on roll call.  decided to crawl back into bed for a bit for another hour or so after.  Went and grabbed some breakfast and parked up to watch some tv.  Got a short workout in just to keep up the habit and decided to enjoy a glass of Rye tonight. 

Overall another pretty good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Bug Guy on January 05, 2020, 03:08:16 AM
9 down, 10 on deck.

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) I get what your saying. Im not sure how to best state it but the ease at which the fake stuff has replaced the real stuff gives me pause.  I dont recall craving a dip of snuff just for the nicotine.  I do recall many times where i just needed something between my cheek and gums.  I guess im just trying to reconcile the addition to nicotine with the habit of dipping in my mind.  I know the first part was going to be a bitch, i didn't realize that the latter would be stronger.

Today was another good day.  Woke up pretty early (sleep was neither bad nor good) and posted on roll call.  decided to crawl back into bed for a bit for another hour or so after.  Went and grabbed some breakfast and parked up to watch some tv.  Got a short workout in just to keep up the habit and decided to enjoy a glass of Rye tonight. 

Overall another pretty good day.
I absolutely get that. The pinch between gum and cheek is my biggest problem still. But i look at it, at least it's just coffee grinds. I know eventually i will get tired of it and it will be an afterthought. But for now, posting roll, helping others,  and using grinds is my recipe. There's times where i go a whole week without using it. But it's there just in case. Obviously you must do what works best for you. Exercise and hydration is very important too. Keeping your body and your mind right suppresses alot of those withdrawals early on. Yeah, I know, nic is out of your system in 3 days blah blah blah, but your mind will tell you well beyond that, that you still need it. As long as good goes in, good comes out. Keep pushing through and remember to celebrate those wins each day. You're doing great!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 06, 2020, 01:09:19 AM
10 down, 11 up

Slept in a bit this morning.  Decided to go look at some cars as im debating on buying something new when i move across country in a few weeks.  First time spending a good amount of time driving around since quitting.  Felt the urge to reach for the fake stuff a couple of times but was happy to avoid it.  Noticed that was feeling a little down this evening.  Should have worked out earlier but wanted a rest day.  Stayed on top of hydrating. 

Overall a decent day. 
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 07, 2020, 12:29:11 AM
11 days finished, 12 tomorrow.

Good day today.  Not really much to say.  Still using too damn much fake stuff for my liking but I slept fine last night and had a pretty smooth day today.  Was able to get a decent workout in and did well with the hydration.

Overall a good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 07, 2020, 01:10:57 AM
11 days finished, 12 tomorrow.

Good day today.  Not really much to say.  Still using too damn much fake stuff for my liking but I slept fine last night and had a pretty smooth day today.  Was able to get a decent workout in and did well with the hydration.

Overall a good day.
Keep on keepin' on man, you're doing great. Don't worry about the fake. I used cinnamon sticks and I still grab one every now and then. Whatever it takes to stay clean and free.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on January 07, 2020, 01:16:12 AM
11 days finished, 12 tomorrow.

Good day today.  Not really much to say.  Still using too damn much fake stuff for my liking but I slept fine last night and had a pretty smooth day today.  Was able to get a decent workout in and did well with the hydration.

Overall a good day.
Keep on keepin' on man, you're doing great. Don't worry about the fake. I used cinnamon sticks and I still grab one every now and then. Whatever it takes to stay clean and free.
You will grow tired of the fake as well. It also will not kill you. Just quit ODAAT and let the days add up.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 08, 2020, 01:07:34 AM
12 days completed, 13 coming up.

Today was pretty much the same as yesterday.  Was busy with meetings at work throughout the morning but things slowed up in the afternoon.  Got a decent workout in and kept up with the hydration.

Overall it was a good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: pab1964 on January 08, 2020, 10:52:48 PM
Keep on quitting. It’s not easy if it was everyone would quit. Got after a buddy of mine who has been dipping for 30+ years. Sounded just like I use to, I don’t want to quit, it’s not bothering me anyway. Boy was I wrong. Stay with KTC, get plenty of numbers and stay close to the site it helps. Haven’t been in here in awhile but this is where I got my help and then after awhile it really helped me to help others because I remember how foggy and scared I was. Every little sore throat cough toothache, oh no it could be....nothing but of course not what your mind tells. Friends here are hard to beat! ODAAT
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 09, 2020, 12:50:24 AM
13 days completed, 14 tomorrow.

Today was very similar to the rest of the days this week.  Got a good nights sleep last night.  Felt pretty good all day today.  Ate well, got a good workout and drank plenty of water. Still burning through the fake stuff but im accepting the fact that ill get tired of it as well.

Overall good day today.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 10, 2020, 12:47:31 AM
14 Days completed, 15 coming up.

Had some tests today, not with my quit but with controlling my temper.  In the middle of planning a move and dealing with the cable/electric companies was a bit trying today.  Never got tempted for a dip but i did notice myself getting a bit short with the people on the other end of the phone.  Other than that got a good nights sleep a good workout, and drank plenty of water.  Looking forward to a more relaxing day tomorrow, maybe even splurging on lunch.

Overall a decent day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 10, 2020, 05:09:34 AM
14 Days completed, 15 coming up.

Had some tests today, not with my quit but with controlling my temper.  In the middle of planning a move and dealing with the cable/electric companies was a bit trying today.  Never got tempted for a dip but i did notice myself getting a bit short with the people on the other end of the phone.  Other than that got a good nights sleep a good workout, and drank plenty of water.  Looking forward to a more relaxing day tomorrow, maybe even splurging on lunch.

Overall a decent day.
TWO WEEKS is YUGE!! You're crushing it Titus!  It's not that the world got more stupid or incompetent since you quit, it's that you can see much clearer now and the world IS stupid and incompetent!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 11, 2020, 12:28:11 AM
You are certainly right about that @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258).

15 down, 16 up.

Today was very much like the rest of this week.  Slept well last night and felt pretty good all day.  Got a short workout in and drank a fair bit of water. 

Overall Good day and honestly a very good week.  Looking forward to sitting on my ass tomorrow and relaxing. 
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 12, 2020, 12:42:43 AM
16 days done.  17 tomorrow

Nice relaxing day.  Woke up early, grabbed a nice breakfast and spend the day relaxing in prep for a busy week.  Nothing much else to say.

Overall Good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 13, 2020, 12:25:53 AM
17 down, 18 up.

Got a good nights sleep last night.  Haven't used any of the sleep aids for a bit which is nice.  Didn't workout, which i should have but did drink a ton of water.   

Overall it was another good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 14, 2020, 01:33:26 AM
18 completed, 19 tomorrow.

Not a lot to say today.  The past week has been really similar overall.  Not missing the nicotine at all just getting by with the fake stuff.  Days will start picking up this week as i get ready to move across country. 

Overall today was very much like the prior week.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 15, 2020, 12:24:29 AM
19 down 20 up

Another day like the previous.  Not much to say.  I have noticed that my time perception has returned to normal. 

Overall another good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 15, 2020, 02:01:03 AM
19 down 20 up

Another day like the previous.  Not much to say.  I have noticed that my time perception has returned to normal. 

Overall another good day.
Good news. Every day without nicotine is a win. Would love to hear about tasks completed with the new found freedom.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 16, 2020, 12:21:09 AM
20 down three full weeks tomorrow.

Tasks completed.  Trying to think.  Id say planning a cross country move counts as a pretty big task.

I've read a lot of people's stories/threads and many of them mentioned that dipping had a social component to it, either with hunting/fishing, golfing or whatever.  I haven't really been around anyone else who dipped for 20 years.  That is helpful to me in the fact that social gatherings aren't a trigger for me like they are for others but at the same time i tended to avoid a lot of them due to the habit and fear of not being able to have a dip.  Since quitting i have been more sociable in leaving the office to chat with people throughout the day or heading to lunch with co-workers and being able to drive without craving a dip.

I guess thats the other big thing I have broken myself of and that is having a dip in the car.  I've caught myself subconsciously spitting the fake stuff out on my way to the car rather than reaching to put one in.  Just got to work on the other situations where i use too much or the fake stuff.

Outside of that today was much like the previous. 

Overall good day today. 
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Bug Guy on January 16, 2020, 02:10:46 AM
20 down three full weeks tomorrow.

Tasks completed.  Trying to think.  Id say planning a cross country move counts as a pretty big task.

I've read a lot of people's stories/threads and many of them mentioned that dipping had a social component to it, either with hunting/fishing, golfing or whatever.  I haven't really been around anyone else who dipped for 20 years.  That is helpful to me in the fact that social gatherings aren't a trigger for me like they are for others but at the same time i tended to avoid a lot of them due to the habit and fear of not being able to have a dip.  Since quitting i have been more sociable in leaving the office to chat with people throughout the day or heading to lunch with co-workers and being able to drive without craving a dip.

I guess thats the other big thing I have broken myself of and that is having a dip in the car.  I've caught myself subconsciously spitting the fake stuff out on my way to the car rather than reaching to put one in.  Just got to work on the other situations where i use too much or the fake stuff.

Outside of that today was much like the previous. 

Overall good day today.
You're doing great titus, and congrats on 3 weeks quit! That is stellar! Don't worry too much now on using fake, in time, it too will fade away. Driving was always my weakness, so i feel ya there. But the freedom is great isn't it!? Social gatherings and bonding with coworkers, all without the chains of nic holding you down. Keep at it, it gets so much better!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 16, 2020, 05:54:18 AM
20 down three full weeks tomorrow.

....Id say planning a cross country move counts as a pretty big task.

....Since quitting i have been more sociable in leaving the office to chat with people throughout the day or heading to lunch with co-workers and being able to drive without craving a dip.

.....I guess thats the other big thing I have broken myself of and that is having a dip in the car.
These are HUGE. Thanks for taking the time to blog that out. I remember the work stuff distinctly now that you mention it. Don't know what it is about driving that is so connected to nicotine but if there's one common thread for nic addicts that's got to be in the top ten. Good job my man, looks like your path to freedom is solid.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 16, 2020, 10:26:55 PM
21 days down,  22 on deck.

Typing this a bit early today.  So today was my last full day at work before moving.  Spent some time walking around and saying bye to folks throughout the day.  Had a small goodbye party at the bar this evening.  As i said yesterday there was never a social pull for me to dip but thinking about it now not once while we were hanging out did i even think about a dip.  That is a huge victory in and of itself. 

For the last two weeks ive been planning a move.  This morning it became real as my cable/internet were shut off and i had to load my car today to be hauled off.  Im doing my best to take thing ODAAT along with my quit and both are going pretty damn good so far.  Might be a little later in the morning to post roll for the next few days but ill be there. 

Overall today was a great day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 17, 2020, 10:59:04 PM
22 days done, 23 coming up.

Post roll late this morning.  No internet at home and got sidetracked as soon as i got to work.  Will try and do my best to post from my phone in the morning.  Speaking of today was my last day at work.  Have a lot of mixed feelings.  I don't like where i lived but really like the people i worked with.  Going to miss that group.  Movers coming early tomorrow to pick my stuff up.  Going to be a long couple of days tomorrow and Sunday.

Starting to get the sores in my mouth.  Feel like im 14 again in that respect.  Felt pretty good today outside of that.  Didn't workout but probably walked 3 miles and carried a ton of stuff.

Overall a good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 19, 2020, 12:35:39 AM
23 done, 24 upcoming.

not much to say for today.  Movers came this morning and got me packed up.  Fly out in the morning.  Felt pretty good all day.

Overall good day
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 20, 2020, 10:27:21 PM
25 days done, 26 tomorrow.

Was traveling cross country last night and din't get a chance to post.  Not much to say.  Im feeling good though eating a bit too much lately and not getting any exercise due to transit.  Look forward to getting moved in once my stuff arrives here in a week or so.

Mouth feels like it is one big sore.  Guessing its the healing the timeline mentions.  Also notice that my tongue feel dead, for lack or a better term, in one spot.  Not sure if anyone else has experienced that or not.  Feeling jet lagged today and can barely keep my eyes open but looking forward to getting some rest tonight. 

Overall feeling pretty good except for my mouth.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Athan on January 21, 2020, 01:24:02 AM
25 days done, 26 tomorrow.

Was traveling cross country last night and din't get a chance to post.  Not much to say.  Im feeling good though eating a bit too much lately and not getting any exercise due to transit.  Look forward to getting moved in once my stuff arrives here in a week or so.

Mouth feels like it is one big sore.  Guessing its the healing the timeline mentions.  Also notice that my tongue feel dead, for lack or a better term, in one spot.  Not sure if anyone else has experienced that or not.  Feeling jet lagged today and can barely keep my eyes open but looking forward to getting some rest tonight. 

Overall feeling pretty good except for my mouth.
New quit, new digs, new life! Good for you man - this is gonna be your year!  ODAAT of course.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: TerryConklin on January 21, 2020, 06:21:41 AM
25 days done, 26 tomorrow.

Was traveling cross country last night and din't get a chance to post.  Not much to say.  Im feeling good though eating a bit too much lately and not getting any exercise due to transit.  Look forward to getting moved in once my stuff arrives here in a week or so.

Mouth feels like it is one big sore.  Guessing its the healing the timeline mentions.  Also notice that my tongue feel dead, for lack or a better term, in one spot.  Not sure if anyone else has experienced that or not.  Feeling jet lagged today and can barely keep my eyes open but looking forward to getting some rest tonight. 

Overall feeling pretty good except for my mouth.

I'm on day 25 as well. I have pain in my gums/jaw... especially in the area on my left side where my chew always sat. I too have tongue weirdness... Hard to explain, but a dull pain on the side of the tongue and the underside of it near the back of my mouth.

It's scary, but I take solace in having spoken to some friends who have quit and experienced similar things. I talked to my buddy who quit about 5 years ago and he said it took him a long time before his mouth felt 'normal.'
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on January 21, 2020, 09:32:55 AM
25 days done, 26 tomorrow.

Was traveling cross country last night and din't get a chance to post.  Not much to say.  Im feeling good though eating a bit too much lately and not getting any exercise due to transit.  Look forward to getting moved in once my stuff arrives here in a week or so.

Mouth feels like it is one big sore.  Guessing its the healing the timeline mentions.  Also notice that my tongue feel dead, for lack or a better term, in one spot.  Not sure if anyone else has experienced that or not.  Feeling jet lagged today and can barely keep my eyes open but looking forward to getting some rest tonight. 

Overall feeling pretty good except for my mouth.

I'm on day 25 as well. I have pain in my gums/jaw... especially in the area on my left side where my chew always sat. I too have tongue weirdness... Hard to explain, but a dull pain on the side of the tongue and the underside of it near the back of my mouth.

It's scary, but I take solace in having spoken to some friends who have quit and experienced similar things. I talked to my buddy who quit about 5 years ago and he said it took him a long time before his mouth felt 'normal.'
The symptoms are normal. Give it time.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: arrakisdq on January 22, 2020, 02:02:44 PM
25 days done, 26 tomorrow.

Was traveling cross country last night and din't get a chance to post.  Not much to say.  Im feeling good though eating a bit too much lately and not getting any exercise due to transit.  Look forward to getting moved in once my stuff arrives here in a week or so.

Mouth feels like it is one big sore.  Guessing its the healing the timeline mentions.  Also notice that my tongue feel dead, for lack or a better term, in one spot.  Not sure if anyone else has experienced that or not.  Feeling jet lagged today and can barely keep my eyes open but looking forward to getting some rest tonight. 

Overall feeling pretty good except for my mouth.

I'm on day 25 as well. I have pain in my gums/jaw... especially in the area on my left side where my chew always sat. I too have tongue weirdness... Hard to explain, but a dull pain on the side of the tongue and the underside of it near the back of my mouth.

It's scary, but I take solace in having spoken to some friends who have quit and experienced similar things. I talked to my buddy who quit about 5 years ago and he said it took him a long time before his mouth felt 'normal.'
The symptoms are normal. Give it time.
As @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) pointed out it takes time.  I had terrible issues with my tongue and admittedly one of the contributing factors/reasons that led to my quit.  At any rate you should chat with your doctor and dentist.  It was my doctor actually that suggested taking B12 and zinc supplements.  My condition was an irritable and sore tongue.  It took a few months but I can tell you today all is find and I still take those supplements.  Side benefit with the zinc is it reduces getting colds :)

Keep up the good work @TerryConklin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16556)  and @titus01 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16413)

Arrak
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 22, 2020, 08:44:53 PM
27 down, 28 Up.

Started the new job today.  Pretty much just walked around meeting all of the new people ill be working with.  Couple of easy days the next few days to settle in and then will hopefully hit the ground running next week.  Looking forward to getting my stuff here and moved in to my new place and getting some routines in place. 

Overall feeling pretty well outside of the soreness in my mouth.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Bug Guy on January 23, 2020, 11:59:01 AM
Do you and would you have the ability to help out with the SSOA/ tracking down the missing/ and/or roll flipping duties in your April 2020 quit group? Any help at all is much appreciated and goes along way when it comes to Brotherhood + Accountability. Thanks in advance!
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 23, 2020, 10:52:06 PM
@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) my time is really limited due to the move and new job but i can help some if needed.

28 Down, 29 tomorrow.

Another day down.  Not much to say.  mouth is still pretty sore but outside of that feeling pretty good.  Getting fat trying out new restaurants without getting any workouts in but oh well.  Getting the keys to my new place tomorrow and should have some stuff delivered ahead of the rest of my stuff arriving. 

Overall slow day today.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 28, 2020, 06:19:37 PM
33 Days finished (almost), 34 tomorrow.

Been a busy few days as i have been trying to get settled in.  Man getting things setup and moved in has taken a lot longer than i thought it would, but its nice to not be living out of a hotel.  Today was my first full day at the new job.  It was really nice to not have to sneak out to steal a dip.

Mouth is still a little sore but overall I've felt fine.  Need to get back into the routine and working out. 
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on January 29, 2020, 08:59:55 PM
34 done, 35 on deck.

Finally starting to settle in and there are less things to unbox everyday.   Still feeling pretty well and finally got a decent workout in today.  Mouth still a bit sore but finally seems to be healing.  Outside of that not much else to say.

Overall good day.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: titus01 on February 07, 2020, 07:03:33 PM
43 done, 44 tomorrow.

Not much to really update.  Settling in at my new job and starting to build a routine.  Feeling pretty good overall.  Haven't had any cravings for the nicotine at all but keeping the fake stuff in my lip a bit more than i would like.  Mouth has started to heal and i've been sleeping pretty well.

Overall doing pretty well.
Title: Re: Day 1 Complete
Post by: Keith0617 on February 07, 2020, 11:38:39 PM
43 done, 44 tomorrow.

Not much to really update.  Settling in at my new job and starting to build a routine.  Feeling pretty good overall.  Haven't had any cravings for the nicotine at all but keeping the fake stuff in my lip a bit more than i would like.  Mouth has started to heal and i've been sleeping pretty well.

Overall doing pretty well.
Great to hear brother. Keep doing what you are doing and taking it one day at a a time.