Charles, congrats on choosing to quit. Nobody but another nicotine addict understands what you are going through. It will get a lot better over time.
Good call bringing your rage here-- we can take it. Nobody at home needs it. You chose to put tobacco in your lip, they did not.
If you are on day 4, the worst is about over. Drink water, exercise, read everything on this site.
I urge you to join the January quit group (you will get to 100 days at the same time as those bad ass quitters). Post roll today, and every day -- your promise to yourself and all here that you will not use nicotine for 24 hours.
Exchange digits with fellow quitters so you can support eachother at times like right now.
I quit with you today.