Time to say Never and mean it

[ChickDip]

PKO hits 2 years!
Keep it up. Congrats on another year of freedom.

[pab1964]

Congrats on 1 year quit PKO!

Congratulations pko! It keeps getting better!

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 1 year quit PKO!

[PastyKidOriginal]

So it has been a long time since I have posted to my introduction but i think this is one of the best places to vent my feelings and shit. I am currently on day 27 basically 28. I am also about 3 tall boys in over the course of 4 hours. Over the past 2 hours I have been dealing with cravings over the past 2 hours and I would most likely have caved if it weren't for my brother Mcarmo44. This brother saved my quit and gave me encouragement in my moment of need. He was able to give me guidance when I was struggling. I turned for help about 2 hours ago and he made me think about my promise to stay true to the quit I posted and I have been standing strong. When 11:50 pm my time rolled around the Nic bitch hung her ugly head once again. This time I did not go to the group me chat instead I was able to think and take my long board out and go for about a 10-20 minute ride. I said if i really wanted to get some sort of nicotine I would ride my long board around the entire campus then back to my apartment to retrieve my wallet and then back to my car (about 2 minutes long board ride to the parking structure where my car is parked) then from there I could drive to the circle K that is down the street. I made sure to leave my wallet so I would have to contemplate my actions of going to my car and what I would have to face for that small portion of pleasure. I did stay strong for the February FUCKERS out there. When i got back from my ride I decided to get onto Kill the FUCKING can instead of going to the car. I am proud to say that without this site and the brothers I have made I would not be where I am today. I give so much thanks to Mcarmo44 for making sure I was staying true to my quit.

[ChristopherJ]

Well today was really awesome! day 6 felt really clear. I also was really busy from the start of my day till current. I did have some cravings but I was able to lean on smokey mountain, which is allowing me to feel like I am chewing but without the nic bitch and tobacco within it. I felt proud that I have made it to day 6 cause I haven't been here in a long time. My friends and family are all proud of me and that seems to help me going forward in quitting 1 day at a time. My quitting brothers are also a great support such at CIKI. Just thought I could get y'all updated.

Great to hear you had an awesome day with a peek through the fog at some clarity. Each day is a victory and you help yourself and others by sharing like you have in your intro. Proud to be quit with you and stay strong this weekend.

CJ

[PastyKidOriginal]

Well today was really awesome! day 6 felt really clear. I also was really busy from the start of my day till current. I did have some cravings but I was able to lean on smokey mountain, which is allowing me to feel like I am chewing but without the nic bitch and tobacco within it. I felt proud that I have made it to day 6 cause I haven't been here in a long time. My friends and family are all proud of me and that seems to help me going forward in quitting 1 day at a time. My quitting brothers are also a great support such at CIKI. Just thought I could get y'all updated.

[leeron]

Congrats on 5 days of Freedom Sir.

I quit with you today.

[PastyKidOriginal]

Dude, you're 21 years old and SMART enough to quit. I dipped longer than you have been alive because I am fucking stupid. You are an inspiration to my quit. Not only do I come here to support others, I also look for motivation. Thanks for being part of today's motivation.

Macamania, thanks for your words of encouragement. I want to be a light for those in darkness and look for the light for when I am lost. I feel as if everyone here can do both be the light for anyone who is in darkness. Thanks again for encouraging me on my quit today. Yet again another day down the rest of our lives to go 'Cheers'

[Macamania]

Dude, you're 21 years old and SMART enough to quit. I dipped longer than you have been alive because I am fucking stupid. You are an inspiration to my quit. Not only do I come here to support others, I also look for motivation. Thanks for being part of today's motivation.

[PastyKidOriginal]

Well today has been awesome! kept myself busy from the time that I got up. I can't really recall me having a craving today. Yesterday was a battle sitting in the lobby in which i don't think you can get arrested for dipping while chilling in the lobby at nissan. Anyway i've been drinking a lot more water and eating a lot more food. rather interesting that it seems i am snacking way more that when I was dipping, but that would be due to the nicotine satisfying something like keeping the blood sugar up or something like that. Anyway today has been really awesome and I can mark yet another day of not giving into the temptations of the devil that has ruled my life for 3 years now.

[KingNothing]

Did KingNothing really say "darn some mittens"? He's right though, keep your mind off of it, I'm more of a flog your log guy. Happy to quit with you today.

Listen here TW, darn is a thing. Plus, he's much less likely to be arrested making some mittens than pounding the pud in the waiting room at QuikLube, so there's that.

'spin'

[Thumblewort]

Did KingNothing really say "darn some mittens"? He's right though, keep your mind off of it, I'm more of a flog your log guy. Happy to quit with you today.

[KingNothing]

this time I am stacking the deck in my favor.

Yep. It works.

[PastyKidOriginal]

Thanks Pab, I can just feel that the community here actually knows how it feels to quit. In previous "quitting attempts" no one around me knew what it was like being addicted to nicotine. no one understood what it was like to get mood swings due to the removal of that substance. But with all of these quitting brothers and tons of support this quit is different. This quit will be the last quit that I will ever need. This doesn't meant that it'll be easy, just that this time I am stacking the deck in my favor. The tools that I have found here and the dedication to seek help when needed and actually finding it is somethings that other places don't offer. Also I can then turn around after seeking help and offer help to others, which is freaking AMAZING. thanks for your support guys!!!

[pab1964]

Thanks guys for all the support. I have realized that this quit is different than the ones that I have attempted in the past. In the past I would have most likely given in like right this very moment. I am sitting in the lobby on day 3 waiting for my SUV to be released so I can go back to campus. I was told that I was looking at a 4 hour wait. If i knew that no one would care that I slipped up I would have a fat one in, but I know how the community feels here about helping others quit and that this site is for those who plan on quitting for good. That is my motivation as I am writing this to stay put and say once again 'Finger' to nicotine

Good on you PKO. Just remember nicotine will not help get your car back any faster. What the hell happened by the way?

I am taking it in for an oil change, tire rotation and a general check up so my sister can use it this weekend for a road trip with her friends. But I am so accustomed to putting in a pinch whenever I'm bored (this being a situation where I am bored).

Sounded like it was impounded or something. That would've been a better (but much more expensive) story. Get a Sudoku book to stay busy. Or darn some mittens. Just keep that crap out of your face. You've got this, you're in the right spot.

Ah nah, just a little maintenance. but it's just I need to stay strong, but especially about for the 3 minute period that the crave comes around where my body is trying to make me want to put that black shit back into my mouth.

Pko , stay strong my friend! If it starts getting really tough, reach out to another brother or sister. The main thing to remember is learn all your tools provided for you here and use them! Damn proud of you! Quit on!