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Re: Struggling
« Reply #25 on: January 17, 2012, 01:23:00 PM »
If you are a caffeine drinker, I'd knock that out as well.

Caffeine can be quite potent when you give up chewing, and its effects can be multiplied now that your blood is flowing nicotine free.

Congrats.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #24 on: January 17, 2012, 05:30:00 AM »
What are you doing for exercise bro? I remember early on that beating my body down physically it couldn't help but fall into slumber. There is some old chain gang mentality that a body that's spent puts a soul at ease. In other words, things become a lot clearer if you get some solid sleep. Work on that. And look at your diet. Coffee and such. Water. Drink lots of it.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #23 on: January 17, 2012, 01:52:00 AM »
I'm on day 34 and don't think I've had a good night sleep since. Like you, I have anxiety to the point I seriously thought I had something bad. Took about 3 to 4 trips to the docs, blood tests, EKGs- all good. Spoke to a few more docs and came back to the same shit... anxiety/stress. I'm not sure how long it's going to last but exercise is my only relief. I've held off any meds for now trying to stick to diet/excersise.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #22 on: January 14, 2012, 02:00:00 PM »
Quote from: jmiah
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I am on day 36 and although I am comitted to my quit this shit is not getting any easier for me. I feel everything, panic, anxiety, stress, crave, pissed and depressed.

I know its worth it and I will stay with the quit but I sure hope it gets better. Last night was probably the roughest night since I started. Didn't sleep. At all.

To proud to complain to the family but this is some rough shit and I feel like my whole body is going through a Hurricane. Looking forward to the day where I can function as a normal human being again. What a fucking asshole I am for starting this shit in the first place. I have so much to live for and I can't even get myself to a place mentally to enjoy it.

Sorry if I brought anyone down but just needed to get this shit off my chest. Someone told me document what I am going through.

With all this said. I am quit for today.
We are with you. It gets easier and a lot of good advice already given. The only thing I would add is exercise! It's very important to a healthy quit.
You guys are awesome and I really appreciate the much needed advice. Got 4 hours sleep last night which was pretty good under the circumstances and hope to improve that tonight. Even with 4 hours I feel a little better.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #21 on: January 14, 2012, 12:38:00 PM »
Quote from: jeff32
I am on day 36 and although I am comitted to my quit this shit is not getting any easier for me. I feel everything, panic, anxiety, stress, crave, pissed and depressed.

I know its worth it and I will stay with the quit but I sure hope it gets better. Last night was probably the roughest night since I started. Didn't sleep. At all.

To proud to complain to the family but this is some rough shit and I feel like my whole body is going through a Hurricane. Looking forward to the day where I can function as a normal human being again. What a fucking asshole I am for starting this shit in the first place. I have so much to live for and I can't even get myself to a place mentally to enjoy it.

Sorry if I brought anyone down but just needed to get this shit off my chest. Someone told me document what I am going through.

With all this said. I am quit for today.
We are with you. It gets easier and a lot of good advice already given. The only thing I would add is exercise! It's very important to a healthy quit.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #20 on: January 14, 2012, 11:04:00 AM »
If anybody is having trouble sleeping you should do something about it. Sleep is the number one must have for good mental health.

Over the counter try Benadryl. Talk to you Doc. perhaps you need a script for sleep to get you over the hump. Something like Lunesta, (non habit) or Ambien, there are
lots of meds for sleep no need to suffer.

If you feel anxious or depressed you might consider talking with your Doctor. Via nicotine withdrawal you may need a selective serotonin re uptake inhibitor. Wellburtrin is used wildly for nicotine withdrawal sufferers. For me, I started taking a low dose of sertraline (zoloft) it has worked well for me as I feel mentally great.

Jeff32 you have my number, if you need to talk call. If anybody else would like to talk PM Bbob and I'll give you my cell.

There is no reason to walk around feeling bad and you have to sleep to promote good mental help.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #19 on: January 14, 2012, 03:01:00 AM »
-----------Right now I feel like a fucking hipocrite. Trying to help others in their quit and I'm struggling mightily with my own. Day 39 and I feel like total shit. I can't concentrate. I haven't felt this bad in any of my quit days. The addict inside is giving me every excuse to cave. I'm hanging on by every inch of my being. Dammit, why did I ever introduce this shit to myself. ---------

You know who wrote this? Me, at Day 39. It's really tough, but you've climbed too high to jump off now and start over. I know the pain, the anxiety, the depression. It goes away, and with it a sense of huge barrier breaking. You can do this, man. If my addicted ass can do it, so can you.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #18 on: January 14, 2012, 02:42:00 AM »
Hey buddy... U are not alone... Fuck we need to support each other. I am going through the same shit.... Pm me and I will give you my number ... Hang tough, don't let the bitch fuck with you... You got this shit!!!
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #17 on: January 13, 2012, 06:31:00 PM »
I am on day 36 and although I am comitted to my quit this shit is not getting any easier for me. I feel everything, panic, anxiety, stress, crave, pissed and depressed.

I know its worth it and I will stay with the quit but I sure hope it gets better. Last night was probably the roughest night since I started. Didn't sleep. At all.

To proud to complain to the family but this is some rough shit and I feel like my whole body is going through a Hurricane. Looking forward to the day where I can function as a normal human being again. What a fucking asshole I am for starting this shit in the first place. I have so much to live for and I can't even get myself to a place mentally to enjoy it.

Sorry if I brought anyone down but just needed to get this shit off my chest. Someone told me document what I am going through.

With all this said. I am quit for today.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #16 on: January 06, 2012, 08:33:00 AM »
Hang in there brother. I had a brief funk at about this time too and it passes. You got to believe it. Keep your promise and go about your biz and it will go away. Much much better times ahead. Keep reaching out if you need it.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #15 on: January 06, 2012, 08:12:00 AM »
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Well its been 28 days for which I was hoping would be a milestone of feeling good and proud of myself.

Unfortunetely since the 25th day all I feel is worse and worse. Anxitey, lack of concentration, moody, panicky, tired (lack of sleep) hungry with little will to eat.

I felt great and proud over the first few weeks but domething happened which is what I hear is the fog. Well its very dense in my case. The guilt of dipping all those years is overwelming. I lost my shit a few days ago but I didn't dip. I worked myself up into a frenzy and tried everything to feel better. I brushed my toungue so hard on the side just to try to get off some white that probably wasn't there causing irritation and a sore. Now my mouth is killing me which did not happen when I was dipping.

My work performance over the last week has been dismal. I own a company with over 60 employees and feel like I am not up too the task latley which concerns me greatly.

I have not been mentally available to my family or employees lately. I dont even remember the conversations with my customers five minuites after I hang up the phone.

For the first few weeks I was feeling just fine. Working out a few times a week, eating fine and sleeping ok. Within what feels like a minute all that has changed and I cant even leave the house.

With all that said. I have not dipped in 28 days and I have not dipped today.
Stay the course. Like everyone said, it gets better. Like I mentioned to you, that first month for me was so foggy that I was worthless at work. Being a business owner myself I can relate to what you are going thru. A big part of that was the insomnia that was bad that whole first month. In the 30's, though, something just clicked and I started sleeping normal and could actually accomplish a task at the office.

Fight thru it. It gets so much better. Freedom is a good thing.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #14 on: January 06, 2012, 07:39:00 AM »
It's a new day big boy. Get on Roll Call and give your demons a big FU. They can't have you today.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #13 on: January 06, 2012, 07:17:00 AM »
Outstanding Jeff! Welcome to the site. You won't regret this, that I can promise.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #12 on: January 05, 2012, 11:38:00 PM »
I would like to thank everyone for the positive feedback. I am very lucky to have this place while I am on this difficult journey. I hope the days get better, and the nights get calmer.

When I eventaully fall asleep again, I will look foward to posting on roll-call instead of grapping a dip. Its a rough road and somehow that little idea of posting a promise each day seems to make all the diffrence in the world right now to me. Genius idea.

I have had much success in my life through sports, family and business and always attributed those successes to having a strong and honest character and ALWAYS keeping my word.

You all have my word that I will not dip tonight and post on roll-call tomorrow morning.
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Re: Struggling
« Reply #11 on: January 05, 2012, 09:12:00 PM »
Don't give up jeff.

I can assure you that better times are literally just around the corner for you.
I think when we hit tough times we often have thoughts along the lines of "if it is going to be this bad for the rest of my life I can't go through with it". Luckily for us it does not stay like this. Don't worry about what thoughts and cravings you might be having. We all had them. Just power through.

This saying really is overused but it is so true. If I can do it so can you.
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