Howdy. Today is day 7 of my final quit. Yeah, I've got about 4 failed quits under my belt. I'm sure many can relate. There's a difference this time though and I know that has been said before, but there is a resolute end to that nastiness that was (and I sincerely mean "was") a part of me. I'm tired of having that unnatural, caustic, messy, smelly, putrid shit in my mouth eating away at my gum and lip. My gums are receding and my teeth are becoming sensitive to brushing. A guy I work with has been quit for two years now. What really pushed him over the edge was an odd spot on his dental x-ray that turned out to be cancer. He ended up having a small amt of bone removed from his jaw. That hit a little closer to home. This wasn't a story of some one I'd never heard of. This was real life standing right in front of me. Funny thing though, even with that diagnosis he said quitting was and still is the hardest thing he's ever done. One other thing that is making my decision resolute are the images burned on my brain from the cancer pics on this site. Holy Shit!!! I'm an RN in the surgery unit. I imagined myself in that poor souls surgery as I stood there with a dip in my lip. The reality is that I just can't handle that shit any more, but I can and I will handle the quit. One crave, one day at a time.
On 2 prior quits I was posting on the site that the KTC founders came from. My name there was Hankster. I wasn't crazy about going back to there, so after lurking on this site a little bit I decided I would call it home. I've read some great stuff here. I know that you guys and gals will continue to inspire a whole lot of people and give us a kick in the ass when needed. I hope that I can do the same. Thanks for having me.
Gliderider