Wow! You've had a very outrageous day! I remember when I was 31. "Aloof and uncompromising" is how one VP of the company I worked for described me. You are 31. My oldest daughter is 30. Your son is 8 months old. My grandson is 255 days old. I am 257 days quit. I didn't quit for him. I quit for me. I'm tired of using nicotine, and I'm addicted to it.
I admire you. I wish I had wanted to quit at age 31, not waiting until I reached 56. It is what it is, and I am what I am. If you stick with it, you can remain quit. You only have one other choice - using. You are using, or you are quit. Either way, you get to choose. You have only yourself to blame for either choice.
It's pretty simple, staying quit, but it's not easy. The only way to stay quit is to stay quit. Do what you have to do to stay quit. As long as it is as important as anything else in your life, you can make it work.
Read my intro, see what I've been through. Read others' intros, see what they've been through. You'll find someone who's quit is similar to yours. You don't have to go through this alone. Actually, it's almost impossible to go through this alone. I've seen some very strong people, retired USMC even, cave twice, trying to beat this addiction on their own.
Welcome to KTC.