As I woke up this morning with the dreaded, "I can't believe it's fucking Monday" blues, my mood quickly changed.
Why did it change you ask?
I realized as I was getting ready for another day at the office, that today marked my 50th day!
50DAYS without a dip......I never thought I would make it to this point.
I know we reflect back on the days of our addicition when we hit the HOF but I want to celebrate this occasion and then move on with another 50....then another 50, then another, etc.
The first 50 have been good and bad. I have made it through major craves and temptations. That little nic bitch will pop up at the worst times.
There were days that I thought I would just explode.
There were days that I might have eaten my young.
There were days that I could have ripped off someone's head.
There were days that I could have ripped a mature tree out of the ground and thrown it 100 yards.
There were days that I stood in line to get a cup of coffee to see that blue tin behind the counter.
There were days that I couldn't sleep because I wanted a chew.
There were days that I thought I would never make it.
There were days that I wanted to cave and tell all of you to fuck off!
There were days that I existed in a fog and had no idea how I got anything done.
And then there was a day that I didn't think about it, didn't miss it, didn't care about it.
Then there were days that I needed something, anything that would make the pain go away.
There were days that I wanted to chew off my fingers.
There were days that I know I killed an entire forest of trees as a result of my toothpick consumption.
There were days that I would just spit for no reason.
And now there is today. I have made it 50 days without dip.....and I like it. No, I fucking hate it, no I like it.
There will be days. Today is just like any other day. Today I remain QUIT.
All of you assholes, in some shape or form, have helped me make it to this day. You will help me make it the next 50, then the next, then the next, then the next.
The only thing is, you need to stay quit with me! I want to see all of you post each and every day!
See you at role in the morning ladies.