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Offline bg124wpd

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Re: Intro
« Reply #35 on: September 14, 2018, 06:26:00 PM »
Day 33 - Migration Day.  I just wanted to add something that I found funny but also a realization.  I have posted earlier about my wife being supportive.  I found out today how supportive she actually is.  I was going to do yard work today and needed to go get gas for the lawnmower.  When I got home I put a huge dip of Hooch/SM combo in to do work.  My wife comes out to the garage and asked what I had in my lip.  I told her the fake and asked why.  She said because I just got back from the gas station and now had a big lip.  She said I was lucky because she would get on the laptop and let my friends know what I did.  So the moral of the story is get you wife involved in your quit, tell her about KTC, tell her who all the text messages are from first thing in the morning and then when the cravings come know she will rat you out if you puss out on your quit.  Just another reason to love her.

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Re: Intro
« Reply #34 on: September 11, 2018, 08:49:00 PM »
Great stuff here BG, keep killing it ODAATEDD
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Re: Intro
« Reply #33 on: September 11, 2018, 04:36:00 PM »
Quote from: Aumegrad
Well done BG, keep grinding and don't let your guard down. Nicotine lurks around the corner as a ravenous wolf, waiting to pounce. As Cap said, give your wife a hug as she will be instrumental in your quit. Also worth reminding her there things she can do to help with your cravings 'winker' . Though I am still trying to figure out how to politely get this across to mine 'bang head' :)
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Re: Intro
« Reply #32 on: September 11, 2018, 03:25:00 PM »
Well done BG, keep grinding and don't let your guard down. Nicotine lurks around the corner as a ravenous wolf, waiting to pounce. As Cap said, give your wife a hug as she will be instrumental in your quit. Also worth reminding her there things she can do to help with your cravings 'winker' . Though I am still trying to figure out how to politely get this across to mine 'bang head' :)
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Re: Intro
« Reply #31 on: September 11, 2018, 01:01:00 PM »
Keep battling man! Don't worry about that fake! Use it as long as you need it! Give your wife a big hug! Lots of dudes don't have that support! I quit with you today!
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Re: Intro
« Reply #30 on: September 11, 2018, 12:13:00 PM »
Day 30. Holy crap one month and so happy to be quit. I have had a lot of things solidify my quit over the past couple of weeks:

1. I read the pinned intro of Traumagnet. Yes I did read the whole thing from the start. If you have not read it yet, get off my bullshit post and go read it now. It is so moving. He was so committed to his quit and so strong to the very end. If I could only be half as strong as him the nic bitch would run away like a screaming girl.

2. I read Jenny  Tom Kern's Story. I also went through and read the comments and there was one from his daughter. Enough said. If you have read it, you know what I'm talking about.

3. I spent over an hour on the phone with my Dad. My dad was diagnosed with colorectal cancer two years ago, surgery to remove tumor and some of his colon, chemo, radiation and then remission. About a year ago it came back and has spread to his lungs. Back on the chemo and struggling. I listened to my Dad tell me how he struggles with everything including eating and unwanted bowel movements. Side note, my Dad did not get cancer from tobacco use. Talking to him reemphasized that putting a cat turd in my mouth everyday is not worth going through the hell of battling cancer. I did tell my Dad that I was quit after 25 years and he was so happy. I was then reminded how strong he is because he told me he quit cold turkey smoking June 1975. It also reminds me my quit date will always stay with me as a milestone in my life.

4. My wife is so supportive of my quit. There are so many things she does and one of the biggest is just listening to me talk about what else, my quit. She realizes KTC is a big part of my quit and doesn't take offense if I'm not conversing and just reading.

A couple of side note items:

1. Still using Smokey Mountain.
2. Tried Hooch but I think Smokey Mountain has more pros but considering buying both and mixing them.

Quit On, ODAAT, EDD

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Re: Intro
« Reply #29 on: September 01, 2018, 01:03:00 PM »
Keep it up brother. You're doing great with your quit. Post roll and promise yourself and others to QUIT everyday!

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Re: Intro
« Reply #28 on: September 01, 2018, 11:35:00 AM »
Day 20. Thank God I did not cancel that SM order.

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Re: Intro
« Reply #27 on: August 31, 2018, 09:21:00 PM »
I'm nearing the end of my third week, day 19. Decided to post some random thoughts about my week.

BM - Wtf is going on with being regular. The nic bitch is really messing with me on taking a dump. I know it's different now with WUPP and then coffee. Before I was quit it was CCS (chew, coffee, shit). I feel great saying I don't miss the chew part but damn I miss that morning dump and being regular. Lord, I hope it gets back to normal soon. This bloated feeling sucks. Sorry for grossing anyone out by talking about taking a dump.

Besides the BM part I have felt pretty good this week. Bad cravings are gone. I just have those times when a I have a craving that I can manage by occupying my mind with Smokey Mountain and other activities until it passes.

Tonight as I write this and maybe the reason I decided to is because I feel so incredibly awesome with my quit. I don't know how to express it in words but I feel so good about being quit. It's like something in my mind just shifted in another direction and said being quit is some good shit. Hard to explain just a great feeling.

Just placed another order for 10 rolls of Smokey Mountain snuff. The way I'm feeling right now (really good) I almost cancelled the order but thanks to being on KTC, I know better. Through reading some of the posts from the vets on here I know the nic bitch will sneak up on you and I need a plan, so I will keep a good supply on hand. Someday I would like to be free of the fake also but as quitters say ODAAT.

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Re: Intro
« Reply #26 on: August 29, 2018, 03:48:00 PM »
Stick with it and develop an absolute HATRED for Nic and Tobacco.

Think about all the money wasted....

Think about all the men's years cut short from their families....

Think about all the pain and suffering cused by cancer because of a filthy weed...

I developed the HATRED early in my quit, I remember driving by my old C store that I would buy a can a day and sceaming "FUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKK YOU!" out the window as I passed.

There is gold all over these walls, read as much as you can and buy the fuck in, all the way in..

I quit with you today..
Be humble... grow everyday.

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Re: Intro
« Reply #25 on: August 29, 2018, 02:57:00 PM »
bg, thanx for posting. I too was here a long time ago and it didn't last because I did not take the time to fully understand the process here. That story is in my intro. If you want to read about it, it is in my intro, somewhere fairly early in there. I posted one time in 2012, on my day 19, without so much as a promise or a return to these hallowed pages to see the outpouring of support that was here for me then. I am so happy to be here and on the quit path and proud to quit with you
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Re: Intro
« Reply #24 on: August 29, 2018, 12:48:00 PM »
I am glad that you are a quitter to, and I would be glad to quit with you!
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Intro
« Reply #23 on: August 29, 2018, 12:34:00 PM »
I am posting this intro on day 17 as I started reading another intro and realized I do not have a intro to build on as I am quit. I am pasting what was supposed to be my intro and then a post from within my group. They will serve as a starting point to this intro/journal.

August 13, 2018 (Intro as bg124)
I have been addicted to this stuff for the past 25 years. Now that I wrote 25 years, it sounds terrible. I have tried to quit before but it never worked. This time it will!!!! I have a very supportive wife and I actually spoke to my doctor about it this time. I was prescribed Chantix which I think has helped with the nicotine withdrawal but there still is that part of me that enjoyed the dip and the routine of dipping when driving, after a meal etc. I think the last dip out my can was the longest I have ever kept a dip in. It was like saying goodbye to my best friend. I feel pathetic saying that but it is the truth. I feel like I had a relationship with Skoal. Hopefully the accountability of this site (once I figure it all out) will be that extra push. Sorry for rambling on. I'm glad to be here.

August 14, 2018 (post in the November Nut House)
I just wanted to thank everyone in this group that initially reached out to me as a new account and now this one. I want to assure you I was not trying to be deceitful by not logging in here with the old account. It was from 8 years ago and I did not remember anything about how I created that account. It is fine that it is what I am using and on there now that I joined in 2010 and my quit date was yesterday. It helps me remember where I have been with this addiction and where I want to go. It is hard to think of yourself as an addict but that is what i have been for the last 25 years. Sure it is not heroin or cocaine but it still ruins your life. I want to take back the control I lost to that $5 can I emptied every day.

To go back to the 2010 thing in case my response was not read. Yes I was a loser and caved to my weakness for chew. I was weak, took the easy way out and bought a can. I have not looked back since then. I just started chewing more. There were the occasional times I would say I'm going to quit but that lasted about as long as it took me to drive and buy a can. So what's the different this time? I am really into this quit. It is something I need and want. I went to the doctor and he put me on Chantix. I don't know what anyone thinks of it but it has helped a lot. I found an herbal pouch stuff that I like and it helps. A big difference this time is that I realized there is a psychological addiction that needs to be dealt with also. Chew has become a day to day habit for me. I need to realize I don't need to have a dip to drive to and from work, don't need one after a meal etc... One last thing I realized (because I'm rambling and probably posting this in the wrong place) this site can really help me. It helped me earlier when I wanted to wig by just simply occupying my time, trying to navigate the forum, reading old post.

I can honestly say I am so glad to be a quitter for the first time in my life.

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Re: bg124wpd Intro/Journal
« Reply #22 on: November 30, 2018, 10:42:55 AM »
Day 110 - HOF speech complete and posted.  See link below



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Re: bg124wpd Intro/Journal
« Reply #21 on: November 26, 2018, 01:21:02 PM »
You know what is better than 100 Days quit?  101 Days Quit!!!!! Yesterday was awesome reaching the HOF but it is just the beginning. 

Proud to be here and to quit with all of you!!!!!!!  -quittogether
Congrats on that FIRST 100 brother!!!

Now, get going on the HOF speech! You never know who it might help!
Congrats again on 100 and 101 and then some. You were talking about getting back in here for some more thoughts, but like this guy^^^ says, start working on a HOF speech. It does not have to be anything huge, or 1000 words long or whatever. Just talk about your quit, what helped, who helped, how it was different than expected, etc. Your words could be exactly what someone else needs to make the decision to quit here at KTC
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