Introduction

[Airborne]

Very long weekend and am starting day 36. Drank waaayy too much on Saturday, but luckily there was nobody there who dipped. That does make it a bit easier when nobody around dips. The fog and restlessness are easing up a bit and I am starting to see the beginning of clarity. Total clarity is not there yet it's about 75%, still wondering around a bit in my mind. I think the shoulder pain I am experiencing has nothing to do with the nicotine withdrawal, but some sort of damage done in the past. One thing I have noticed is my appetite has started to subside a bit, that's a good thing because I'm pretty sure I put on several pounds. From what I have read on this site it would appear there may be a storm brewing at a last ditch attempt of nicotine to regain control before I hit 3 months. Nice to be 1/3 of the way to the first milestone.

[Airborne]

Since I was going crazy with cravings I had two pieces of chicken, some brisket and sausage. Cravings are gone, like 25 minutes ago.

So guys and gals load up on some BBQ and lets get this quit on!

[Airborne]

So right now I'm on day 31 and am having some crazy cravings. Not really sure what I'm craving though. Started that Paleo Diet in conjunction while quitting nicotine, not sure if that's such a great idea but all I've been doing is eating for the past month. My work pants are really getting tight! Am I craving bread or dip, bread or dip, bread or dip, bread or dip, bread or dip, bread or dip I don't know. Just want something now! A fucking Jack in the Box taco... man that sounds good!

I've been holding off on those non-nicotine things like back-off, but today am considering going down and picking up a can of that stuff.

Today fucking sucks!

And to top it off I was reading a bunch of stuff how dip is not that bad for you... WTF? Can we get some sort of consensus on this bull shit? If it's bad fine, if it's not WTF are all the labels on the can for? Makes you wonder when they put all that shit on back in the eighties if there was some sort of deal with tobacco where they (tobacco) switched to growing corn and the government agreed to buy it. Not sure of the time frame from the US basically going to a corn starch diet from pure sugar. You had better believe corn is not on the Palio diet... ahhhhhhhhhhh!

I'm sure some of you guys remember the labels being added to the cans of snuff. Shit that was basically when there was just SKOAL and COPE, both in cardboard cans. In those small towns they would keep them in the fridge so the dip would be ice cold when you bought. Fuck that sounds good right about now.

I'd rummage through the trash right now if there was some in there. Just saying.

Some ladies just came into the kitchen with left overs! Yea Baby! Brisket and Chicken... Feeling satisfied...

[FLLipOut]

Airborne...

I can definitely remember the jitters and anxiety. Remember that nicotine causes caffeine to leave your system twice as fast. So you might want to cut back on caffeine a bit and it might help with the jitters. I only drink caff free Dt. Coke now and I drink my coffee half-caff. No caff after noonif I can help it. It helps.

Frankly, though, the sleeplessness and jitters are real common as your brain and body are healing from the poison you fed it all those years and you will probably have to deal with it a bit longer. Hang tight, things do get better. Between cutting out nic and reducing caff, I sleep better now than I ever did.

I wish I could tell you the achey joints get better, but mine still hurt. Not sure why. Nic does act as a pain killer so that may be it. In my case it could be the extra lbs I put on.

Anyway, keep quitting one day at a time. You are doing great.

[Ready]

So I'm working on Day 23 right now. Had a dental appointment and that went real smooth, the lady who has cleaned my teeth the last few times asked how often I floss (I'm a big time flosser). Apparently they can tell when you floss. She also busted my balls last year at this time for High Blood Pressure, went to doctor and BAM on that shit since August. Man that stuff really make you thirsty. Just and FYI there is a diuretic in the med, really kicks your ass when you're drinking beer (that's two diuretics when your drinking, if you didn't know alcohol is a diuretic)... You're pissing like a MF!

I think I went off a little hard on some dude in the April Quit group today, kind of feel bad about it, but then again no.

Feeling pretty good about not dipping for the last three weeks. Not quite a note worthy benchmark, but I'm pretty happy about it.

I'm having a real hard time sleeping. Real hard time. Not like I'm laying there thinking about a dip, just laying there thinking WTF! Why can't I sleep. So tomorrow I'm going to cut out caffeine, well maybe lets not get crazy about all this quitting stuff. Might need to test the waters on that, might start listening to the voices if I quit that too. Just cut down to no more past 10:00am, not sure about what time zone yet.

Overall I have a slight jittery feeling, that I know a dip will cure in a heartbeat. I'm not even contemplating that, just archiving the feeling. Just a yearning, beckoning in the background throughout the day. Really makes you wonder what kind of shit the chemist at big tobacco put in those cans.

"As far as solvents, I prefer BreakFree CLP. It's always done me good."

Sam, I haven't used that stuff since Nov 3rd 1989 ;-)

Holy hell. I forgot about the "jitters". They were the worst. Climbing out of my skin type shit.

Remember how it feels.

It gets better?

[Airborne]

So I'm working on Day 23 right now. Had a dental appointment and that went real smooth, the lady who has cleaned my teeth the last few times asked how often I floss (I'm a big time flosser). Apparently they can tell when you floss. She also busted my balls last year at this time for High Blood Pressure, went to doctor and BAM on that shit since August. Man that stuff really make you thirsty. Just and FYI there is a diuretic in the med, really kicks your ass when you're drinking beer (that's two diuretics when your drinking, if you didn't know alcohol is a diuretic)... You're pissing like a MF!

I think I went off a little hard on some dude in the April Quit group today, kind of feel bad about it, but then again no.

Feeling pretty good about not dipping for the last three weeks. Not quite a note worthy benchmark, but I'm pretty happy about it.

I'm having a real hard time sleeping. Real hard time. Not like I'm laying there thinking about a dip, just laying there thinking WTF! Why can't I sleep. So tomorrow I'm going to cut out caffeine, well maybe lets not get crazy about all this quitting stuff. Might need to test the waters on that, might start listening to the voices if I quit that too. Just cut down to no more past 10:00am, not sure about what time zone yet.

Overall I have a slight jittery feeling, that I know a dip will cure in a heartbeat. I'm not even contemplating that, just archiving the feeling. Just a yearning, beckoning in the background throughout the day. Really makes you wonder what kind of shit the chemist at big tobacco put in those cans.

"As far as solvents, I prefer BreakFree CLP. It's always done me good."

Sam, I haven't used that stuff since Nov 3rd 1989 ;-)

[Ready]

It will get better Airborne. You have no idea how great things will get. I could try to explain it but I suspect you wouldn't believe me.

It is worth it.

You can do this.

So it's true... your dick does get bigger. Nice :-)

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[Airborne]

It will get better Airborne. You have no idea how great things will get. I could try to explain it but I suspect you wouldn't believe me.

It is worth it.

You can do this.

So it's true... your dick does get bigger. Nice :-)

[Ready]

It will get better Airborne. You have no idea how great things will get. I could try to explain it but I suspect you wouldn't believe me.

It is worth it.

You can do this.

[Airborne]

Hey Bro I just finished off a 1/2 chicken 'm1' , got me thinking about you so I dropped by your page. Thanks for ruining Batman vs Superman for me , is that free on Netflix yet?

Whens the Pergo project starting? I once worked for a company that was "probably laying me off next month" for like 5 years.

Keep up the good work and QLF, glad to be quit with you in April 'Cheers'

BTW I heard people who hear voices shouldn't handle guns. 'winker'

Pergo project starts this Friday! Got all the kit, jut need to move all the stuff out of the room (that starts on Thursday). Should prove to be quite the "Goat Fuck" by the time we are done. Have to paint and all. Good times.

Sorry about the B vs S, thought I was always the last to see a movie, I think it's on HBO.

Don't worry about the voices, I've always heard them.

[Stillamarine]

Start of Day 17 ¡V Taking my lunch break at work and going through some of the post. I¡¦ve noticed that when I initially stopped using I was fatigued and slept. Now I¡¦m getting a bit more anxious at night and am not sleeping as well. I also noticed I¡¦m getting joint pains, not sure if they are connected, pain none the less. The drive to have a dip is much more in control, it does have a psychological advantage that I said I would be a douche bag today and dip.

I tell you what my wife¡¦s cooking is really getting good since I quit. I¡¦m eating the shit out of it, you know when you¡¦re contemplating that last beer? And you say yea I can drink it, then five minutes later your trying to purge it back out. That¡¦s what I¡¦m doing with food. Yum yum chomp chomp. ƒº

Still struggling with Superman getting killed at the end of Batman vs Superman¡K. Why would you have Ben Afflicted live? I just don¡¦t get it.

So I¡¦ve been cleaning one of my barrels for a couple of days. Is there something better than Hoppe¡¦s BR#9 Solvent to get copper out? There is no telling how many rounds my dad put through that gun, but damn. Every patch is blue/green as shit. Just surprised how much is coming off.

I'm really having a hard time staying focused today. I hear a lot of voices....

Brother, sounds like you are hitting that second fog. It happens to all of us. You'll make it out of it stronger than ever. Sounds like you are doing an amazing job getting on here and making your promise to your brothers. That's the only thing that has gotten me through. As a veteran you know that teamwork and small unit tactics are the backbone of any combat action. You are in combat with that Nic-bitch, utilize your team to close with and destroy the enemy.

As far as solvents, I prefer BreakFree CLP. It's always done me good.

AATW,

SAM

[Atown]

Hey Bro I just finished off a 1/2 chicken 'm1' , got me thinking about you so I dropped by your page. Thanks for ruining Batman vs Superman for me , is that free on Netflix yet?

Whens the Pergo project starting? I once worked for a company that was "probably laying me off next month" for like 5 years.

Keep up the good work and QLF, glad to be quit with you in April 'Cheers'

BTW I heard people who hear voices shouldn't handle guns. 'winker'

[Airborne]

Start of Day 17 ¡V Taking my lunch break at work and going through some of the post. I¡¦ve noticed that when I initially stopped using I was fatigued and slept. Now I¡¦m getting a bit more anxious at night and am not sleeping as well. I also noticed I¡¦m getting joint pains, not sure if they are connected, pain none the less. The drive to have a dip is much more in control, it does have a psychological advantage that I said I would be a douche bag today and dip.

I tell you what my wife¡¦s cooking is really getting good since I quit. I¡¦m eating the shit out of it, you know when you¡¦re contemplating that last beer? And you say yea I can drink it, then five minutes later your trying to purge it back out. That¡¦s what I¡¦m doing with food. Yum yum chomp chomp. ƒº

Still struggling with Superman getting killed at the end of Batman vs Superman¡K. Why would you have Ben Afflicted live? I just don¡¦t get it.

So I¡¦ve been cleaning one of my barrels for a couple of days. Is there something better than Hoppe¡¦s BR#9 Solvent to get copper out? There is no telling how many rounds my dad put through that gun, but damn. Every patch is blue/green as shit. Just surprised how much is coming off.

I'm really having a hard time staying focused today. I hear a lot of voices....

[GlockTherapy]

Start of Day 16 - Made it through a second weekend with no dip. Not too tough since nobody I was around has any dip, that kind of makes it a bit easier. Can't seem to sit still anymore, used to have a dip and just chill out watching TV. I have had a hard time to sit and watch anything longer than 30 minutes. Typical???

Man I am eating everything in site! Chomp chomp chomp... Not sure if things just task better or what. So is there a sister website KTF.org (Kill The Food)? I'm going to be needing that one pretty soon ;-)

Guns have never been so clean.

Peace

Finally! An army guy can clean a weapon!

You're right though - just sitting around without a dip is tough. It's those little things like that I hadn't planned on being a tough trigger but they are.

I'm also going through some fog today. It's been tough. But I quit.

[Airborne]

Start of Day 16 - Made it through a second weekend with no dip. Not too tough since nobody I was around has any dip, that kind of makes it a bit easier. Can't seem to sit still anymore, used to have a dip and just chill out watching TV. I have had a hard time to sit and watch anything longer than 30 minutes. Typical???

Man I am eating everything in site! Chomp chomp chomp... Not sure if things just task better or what. So is there a sister website KTF.org (Kill The Food)? I'm going to be needing that one pretty soon ;-)

Guns have never been so clean.

Peace