Day 1 Intro

[Morgan]

I have Epilepsy, or at least that is what the doctors called it when they could not figure out why I started having seizures about 25 years ago.  Personally I think it is because of tobacco but that is a story for another time.  Everything is well controlled with medication and I can’t tell you the last time I had a seizure.  About 10 years ago I asked my doctor about quitting the medication I’ve been taking.  The conversation went something like this:

Me:  Would it be possible to stop taking my medicine?
Doctor:  Are you having seizures?
Me:  No
Doctor:  Are you suffering from any adverse side effects from the medication?
Me:  No
Doctor:  Are you having trouble affording the medication?
Me:  No
Doctor:  Then why do you want to stop taking the medication?
Me:  Uhhh.....

And that was the last time I asked that question.

Last Summer I went on a 12 day backpacking expedition in the Rocky Mountains.  I had planned for a long time for that to be my graceful exit from KTC.  It was an easy addicts excuse to not post roll anymore everyday.  I’ll be up in the mountains with no way to charge my battery and I don’t even know if I’ll have a cell signal.  I justified it with myself by saying it’s not fair to my April 2018 Brothers and Sister to say hey, give me some slack on posting roll while I’m gone, it would be best if I just left the group.  I also thought it would be the right thing to do to let everyone know why I was leaving.  There are so many past brothers that have just gone poof into the air and I wonder what happened.

The time came to announce my intentions and I wrote it out just like I had planned.  I even left the hope there that I still may be able to post but don’t count on it.  Almost immediately I started getting calls and texts but not about what I expected.  I figured my group would congratulate me on what I had accomplished so far and wish me luck on my trip.  Not the case, they all were about ways to keep up my posts, what they could do to help me and about not leaving the group, some were nice about it and others not so nice about it. 

What am I going to do now?  I thought about it for a while and asked myself this:

Am I using tobacco/nicotine products while posting roll?  No
Am I suffering from any adverse side effects from posting roll everyday?  No
Am I having trouble financially posting roll everyday?  No
Then why do I want to stop posting roll?   Uhhh.....

Needless to say, drove to REI in Kansas City the next day and picked up a nice little solar charger that fit on my backpack to keep my phone somewhat charged.  I think I was able to post roll every day but 1 when I was actually out of cell signal for a day (several of my brothers received pickup requests as soon as my phone hit a signal).

I am so glad I did not leave.  I’m pretty sure I would have been back on tobacco by now, I’ve had some urges lately to take a dip but something as small and easy as my daily post has kept the crap out of my mouth.  It’s easy, if you are thinking you don’t need this anymore just think about those questions that doctor asked me 10 years ago.

[Doofus]

Poof

[Doofus]

Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf

[Doofus]

Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u

[Skolvikings]

Well done my friend well done. 200 days quit and not looking back, proud to be quit with you my brother.

[mike2017a]

Keep winning those battles like this morning, one by one. They will start stacking up and making your quit stronger and stronger.

[Morgan]

Day 9 - Uncharted territory

Today is new ground for me, I've never gone this long without dip. Longest I've ever been was 8 days and that was not a quit, it was a necessity. I was overseas on a mission trip and 1) Part of the contract I signed said I would not use tobacco along with many other things. 2) I did not see it in the stores where I was (probably would have gone Ninja regardless of the contract if I could have found it). I did not want to quit, that was just a stop until I got home.

Cravings have hit hard today for the first time, my entire drive to work today a little voice in my head was trying to convince me that it was OK just to buy 1 can or bum a dip from someone at work. I think the only things that kept me going today have been I posted roll early and have been in contact with other quitters. The cravings are gone now that I'm into my day and I'm pretty damn proud I did not cave. I know it's only going to get worse from there but as long as I'm ODAAT I'll make it.

[eric71]

Day 7

Damn, I made it a week, hard for me to believe that I got it done. There is so much going on with me it's a little overwhelming, seems like every good has a bad to go along with it. When I can fall asleep I sleep well however i'm having trouble falling asleep and waking up way too early.

I've got the weirdest feeling in my head, it's hard to explain. Everything seems to be very clear but there just seems to be a void in my head. Don't know any other way to explain.

For a good thing, I made a couple hour drive yesterday which was always a good opportunity to have a big fat dip. I was getting around this morning and realized that not only did I not have a dip on my drive but I did not even think about having one. Anyway 7's a big deal for me, I'm ready to move forward.

Keep moving forward, one moment at a time. Get some contact numbers because you never know what may trigger a moment of weakness. Wake, piss, post roll, repeat.

[Morgan]

Day 7

Damn, I made it a week, hard for me to believe that I got it done. There is so much going on with me it's a little overwhelming, seems like every good has a bad to go along with it. When I can fall asleep I sleep well however i'm having trouble falling asleep and waking up way too early.

I've got the weirdest feeling in my head, it's hard to explain. Everything seems to be very clear but there just seems to be a void in my head. Don't know any other way to explain.

For a good thing, I made a couple hour drive yesterday which was always a good opportunity to have a big fat dip. I was getting around this morning and realized that not only did I not have a dip on my drive but I did not even think about having one. Anyway 7's a big deal for me, I'm ready to move forward.

[Falcon67]

Hey Morgan --

Way to go you POSTED ROLL today! That is where the rubber meets the road on this site.

Lots of people troll this site, post an intro but do not have the balls to actually commit and promise to be nicotine free for a day to themselves and their fellow BAQ'ers. You did that today so I applaud you! Keep doing it EVERYDAY -- that is how things work here.

Proud to quit with you today!

[wastepanel]

Hello, it's day 1 trying to beat a 30+ year habit. I've never really tried in the past but I'm just sick of this shit and don't want to do it anymore. It's been 22 hours and it has been tough so far but I'm determined to beat this.

Nice man and congratulations on 22 hours. That's fucking awesome.

What made you quit?

How have you done it so far?

How do you plan on doing it tomorrow?

[scottludwig]

congratulations on your decision to quit. I made the same decision 429 days ago and it has changed my life. Head over to the 2018 April quit group and post roll. Do this every day , as soon as you wake up. Remember, every day . This isnÃ,’t a habit, itÃ,’s an addiction. I never thought I would be where I am today.

Edit: I saw youÃ,’re posted, great job!!! Do it again tomorrow when you get up. Good to be quit w you

[nybowhunter21]

Welcome. You got this brother! I'm new myself. Plenty of good people and help here.

[Morgan]

Hello, it's day 1 trying to beat a 30+ year habit. I've never really tried in the past but I'm just sick of this shit and don't want to do it anymore. It's been 22 hours and it has been tough so far but I'm determined to beat this.