Derekc1986 - Day 3: Day 3 sucks pretty bad so far. Everytime I go out on the job, I want to dip. The candy that I'm using to curb the cravings is now tearing up my mouth just as bad as tobacco did. I'm looking at every gas station I come across to find that Smokey Mountain Snuff (All Herbal / No Nic / Quit Aid). The hardest time period has got to be when I'm sitting down in my recliner after a long day of work and after all 3 kids are to bed. I want a nice chew right then and there. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN WILL THE SUCK END!!!!!!!!!!!!
You will come back to read this several weeks from now and wonder to yourself what in the hell you were thinking. Derek, nicotine still has its talons dug deeply in the farthest trenches of your mind. Every day that you do not fail at protecting your quit, is another step closer towards loosening that grip.
Your belief that you want nicotine is misplaced. What you "want" is for the withdrawals to go away so you don't feel like crap any more. I have a quote in my signature line that worktowin spewed to a quitter awhile back: "Fuck nicotine dude. You don't need it. And you don't want it. It didn't do a thing for you and you know it." -- That's the truth. You don't need nicotine any more than you need a cancer diagnosis. It never did a damn thing for you except steal your money and adversely affect your health. That "bump" you feel like you need is your mind rewiring itself to adjust to no longer being subjected to a poison at certain increments throughout the day.
I understand that you do not fully grasp what I'm saying yet, but if you stick with this, you will. You probably think I'm just blowing smoke up your ass right now, but I'm not. It's all true. I am a mere 100 days further down the path than you, so I remember what it was like to be right where you are. I don't even recognize the brokenness that I was 110 days ago. I am a new man today. I wake up everyday feeling incredibly blessed to take this fight to nicotine today. Lord knows nicotine took the fight to me for long enough. Think about those kids when you think a dip sounds like a good idea. Then read
Tom and Jenny Kern's Story That should shore things right up my man. If you need anything feel free to reach out.