Brother, just quit! I'm on day 12 now, and I get what you're saying, all of us here do. If I had not of found this site and joined a quit group, I would most likely have a pinch in right now. But it is not worth it, any amount of time you have away from that crap is precious, and every time you want to have some, think of the days you will have wasted, and the people you will have disappointed, including yourself. Everyone on this site is more than willing to encourage you and give you the tough love you need to kill this nic bitch.