18 days...the slog is on!!; Quitttttt

[bnlelliott]

Day 900 (well actually 901 now) absolutely unbelieveable. I still do it the same way everyday. I get up in the morning, face myslef in the mirror and just say "that decision's been made today." It's been that simple...now, it hasn't always been easy, and that is why I bumped this intro page up. Some of you newbies might want to go back through here and read some of the stuff we went through...in fact I got so disgusted at one point that I quit posting in my month and started posting here...you'll see it. I don't recommend it, but thanks to nmc and Skoal Monster for sticking with me through that. My point being...regardless what it takes, you CAN do this, I promise.
Everyone waits for someone in my spot to say here's to another 900...I don't work that way...I say...that decision's been made today. I'm here for anyone, don't hesitate to ask for numbers or email...it's all here for you. Thanks to everyone who has helped along the way...and thanks to you newbies for letting me help you...and any of you vets who haven't done so yet, get involved in someone else's quit and make it your own. It will strengthen you like you can't believe.

[bnlelliott]

OK all....just a heads up for you newer quitters....and a huge thanks to some of you all who have helped me in my quit.

I am on Day 844 (not that I'm counting or anything) of my quit. I had a Cave dream last night...first one I have had since about day 45 or so...had lots of dreams about craving...lots of dreams about nic...but this was the first CAVE dream since early on. The difference between all of those is that in the dream I actually caved. Uncomfortable for someone who has been around a long time.

Anyway...I was in the "man cave" watching the Stanley Cup finals and convinced myself that "just one" with a Finals game was not going to hurt me or my quit, so, I did it...don't know where the can came from it was just there.

I put it in...and that very second this scene from the movie "Monsters, Inc" breaks out...you know the one where the Monster is contaminated by being touched by a child...all dressed in black HazMat suits are a guy in a Red Monster from Warner Bros suit...a guy wearing a "Mule" head...some kind of "rock sculpture statue looking guy", a huge fat blob....and an elk. All dressed in HAZMAT...all carrying an American flag. If you'll check out some Avatars around here you will know it was Skoal Monster, Mule, Loot, SmokeyG, nmc and Ready...dropping out of these helicopters from the sky and into my "man cave". Several holding me down...sM shoving Cope into my mouth a whole can at a time till I was sick...all of em screaming, "How was it?" "Was it worth it?" and beating on me the whole time. Standing in the back was this guy in a Black Suit...black sunglasses...beard...shuffling cards and rolling poker chips in his fingers saying over and over F-U Brian...now post Day 1 and come back (Chuwie)! What a dream.  When it was over...I literally woke up in a cold sweat...checked my lip to be sure that I hadn't caved...and was immeditately thankful for everyone on this site...vet and newbie alike.

If I haven't said it enough...thanks to all of you

Brian

Those cave dreams are too fucking real arn't they. I have had a few myself. Nice touch having the Honor Guard of Quit repelling from a chopper into your cave cave to beat the living shit out of you. On the bright side, that's the only place she has left. In your dreams.

Never again, for any reason.

Just an FYI Ready...I EXPECT that from each of you...just as know you all expect it from me. Although I'm not sure anyone wants to see me flying a helicopter

[Ready]

OK all....just a heads up for you newer quitters....and a huge thanks to some of you all who have helped me in my quit.

I am on Day 844 (not that I'm counting or anything) of my quit. I had a Cave dream last night...first one I have had since about day 45 or so...had lots of dreams about craving...lots of dreams about nic...but this was the first CAVE dream since early on. The difference between all of those is that in the dream I actually caved. Uncomfortable for someone who has been around a long time.

Anyway...I was in the "man cave" watching the Stanley Cup finals and convinced myself that "just one" with a Finals game was not going to hurt me or my quit, so, I did it...don't know where the can came from it was just there.

I put it in...and that very second this scene from the movie "Monsters, Inc" breaks out...you know the one where the Monster is contaminated by being touched by a child...all dressed in black HazMat suits are a guy in a Red Monster from Warner Bros suit...a guy wearing a "Mule" head...some kind of "rock sculpture statue looking guy", a huge fat blob....and an elk. All dressed in HAZMAT...all carrying an American flag. If you'll check out some Avatars around here you will know it was Skoal Monster, Mule, Loot, SmokeyG, nmc and Ready...dropping out of these helicopters from the sky and into my "man cave". Several holding me down...sM shoving Cope into my mouth a whole can at a time till I was sick...all of em screaming, "How was it?" "Was it worth it?" and beating on me the whole time. Standing in the back was this guy in a Black Suit...black sunglasses...beard...shuffling cards and rolling poker chips in his fingers saying over and over F-U Brian...now post Day 1 and come back (Chuwie)! What a dream. When it was over...I literally woke up in a cold sweat...checked my lip to be sure that I hadn't caved...and was immeditately thankful for everyone on this site...vet and newbie alike.

If I haven't said it enough...thanks to all of you

Brian

Those cave dreams are too fucking real arn't they. I have had a few myself. Nice touch having the Honor Guard of Quit repelling from a chopper into your cave cave to beat the living shit out of you. On the bright side, that's the only place she has left. In your dreams.

Never again, for any reason.

[bnlelliott]

OK all....just a heads up for you newer quitters....and a huge thanks to some of you all who have helped me in my quit.

I am on Day 844 (not that I'm counting or anything) of my quit. I had a Cave dream last night...first one I have had since about day 45 or so...had lots of dreams about craving...lots of dreams about nic...but this was the first CAVE dream since early on. The difference between all of those is that in the dream I actually caved. Uncomfortable for someone who has been around a long time.

Anyway...I was in the "man cave" watching the Stanley Cup finals and convinced myself that "just one" with a Finals game was not going to hurt me or my quit, so, I did it...don't know where the can came from it was just there.

I put it in...and that very second this scene from the movie "Monsters, Inc" breaks out...you know the one where the Monster is contaminated by being touched by a child...all dressed in black HazMat suits are a guy in a Red Monster from Warner Bros suit...a guy wearing a "Mule" head...some kind of "rock sculpture statue looking guy", a huge fat blob....and an elk. All dressed in HAZMAT...all carrying an American flag. If you'll check out some Avatars around here you will know it was Skoal Monster, Mule, Loot, SmokeyG, nmc and Ready...dropping out of these helicopters from the sky and into my "man cave". Several holding me down...sM shoving Cope into my mouth a whole can at a time till I was sick...all of em screaming, "How was it?" "Was it worth it?" and beating on me the whole time. Standing in the back was this guy in a Black Suit...black sunglasses...beard...shuffling cards and rolling poker chips in his fingers saying over and over F-U Brian...now post Day 1 and come back (Chuwie)! What a dream. When it was over...I literally woke up in a cold sweat...checked my lip to be sure that I hadn't caved...and was immeditately thankful for everyone on this site...vet and newbie alike.

If I haven't said it enough...thanks to all of you

Brian

[loot]

Consider this...invest in someone else...help someone else to get from "quitting" to quit. It might save yours as well.

This very concept is what built this place.

You can boil it down to two things:
1) Take what you need when you have to.
2) Leave it cleaner than you found it.

[kneedragger]

Just some thoughts rolling around in the noggin this morning...

I quit 2/16/09...I had a few rough moments, but guys like Skoal Monster, nmc, outernal, and believe it or not Smokeyg saved me from myself a few times (lots of other vets too, but I can't thank everyone everytime I post). I have noticed a disturbing trend recently that I want to warn some newbies about...that trend is the quitter who made HOF and then returned to post a Day 1.

As best as I can remember ALL of them had one thing in common...they made HOF, maybe even hung around 50 some even 100 days after that and then quit coming here. I could be wrong about ALL...but I'm not far off. I will confess as well, that I walked the "high wire" for a while as well. I left for a while at about a year and came back after nmc started PMing all of May 09 to come back and post on one of our anniversary's (I think it was day 500). I was one of the Lucky ones...and yes I use the word lucky here intentionally. I usually refuse to use the word luck in here, but I didn't go back to Day 1 after I left.

Now, I have no business telling anyone how to use this site, but considering the evidence it seems wise to me NOT to allow yourself to drift away whether it's Day 1, 100, 1000 or 10,000. The simple principle works for us all regardless of the day. I promise you today that I will not use nicotine in any form (first thing when I got up this morning I promised myself the same thing...OUT LOUD, YES VERBALLY...WITH WORDS). I then fight through today helping myself, and finding some other quitter to help and invest myself in them as well.

So, here is my simple request and suggestion to help us stop this trend. If you are at the Hall...or beyond...and are starting to get bored with your quit, or complacent...go to the current new quit month find yourself 1,2 or 3 newbies and invest yourself just as hard into their quit as you invested yourself in your quit. Then do it again, and again, and again, and again. If you can't find someone else to get invested in...get invested in my quit. I can always use the help and at the very least it will keep you coming back here everyday.

I'm not going to name any of the people that have caved after the Hall...we've all seen their Day 1, the grief and guilt it caused them (even before people in their quit month took their pound of flesh). Consider this...invest in someone else...help someone else to get from "quitting" to quit. It might save yours as well.

By the way, down 17 pounds!

I like you're "you know who you are" approach. Very diplomatic. Well, I know who I am, and I'm one of the people you're talking about. And I want to thank you for this advice. It's spot on, and I intend to follow it.

Congrats on the 17 lbs. Can't wait to see the new avatar pic.

[bnlelliott]

Just some thoughts rolling around in the noggin this morning...

I quit 2/16/09...I had a few rough moments, but guys like Skoal Monster, nmc, outernal, and believe it or not Smokeyg saved me from myself a few times (lots of other vets too, but I can't thank everyone everytime I post). I have noticed a disturbing trend recently that I want to warn some newbies about...that trend is the quitter who made HOF and then returned to post a Day 1.

As best as I can remember ALL of them had one thing in common...they made HOF, maybe even hung around 50 some even 100 days after that and then quit coming here. I could be wrong about ALL...but I'm not far off. I will confess as well, that I walked the "high wire" for a while as well. I left for a while at about a year and came back after nmc started PMing all of May 09 to come back and post on one of our anniversary's (I think it was day 500). I was one of the Lucky ones...and yes I use the word lucky here intentionally. I usually refuse to use the word luck in here, but I didn't go back to Day 1 after I left.

Now, I have no business telling anyone how to use this site, but considering the evidence it seems wise to me NOT to allow yourself to drift away whether it's Day 1, 100, 1000 or 10,000. The simple principle works for us all regardless of the day. I promise you today that I will not use nicotine in any form (first thing when I got up this morning I promised myself the same thing...OUT LOUD, YES VERBALLY...WITH WORDS). I then fight through today helping myself, and finding some other quitter to help and invest myself in them as well.

So, here is my simple request and suggestion to help us stop this trend. If you are at the Hall...or beyond...and are starting to get bored with your quit, or complacent...go to the current new quit month find yourself 1,2 or 3 newbies and invest yourself just as hard into their quit as you invested yourself in your quit. Then do it again, and again, and again, and again. If you can't find someone else to get invested in...get invested in my quit. I can always use the help and at the very least it will keep you coming back here everyday.

I'm not going to name any of the people that have caved after the Hall...we've all seen their Day 1, the grief and guilt it caused them (even before people in their quit month took their pound of flesh). Consider this...invest in someone else...help someone else to get from "quitting" to quit. It might save yours as well.

By the way, down 17 pounds!

[Greg5280]

I'll gladly live on Blue Bell 's Chocolate Decadence Ice Cream and Hostess Cupcakes and Reese's Peanut Butter Cups if it will help keep me Quit today! Still working my Day 3 Quit. Peace

effin Reese Cups..... _



they do work.....but still....


effin reese cups..... _



i'm with you cousin.....1203 today.....and 269 lbs. (up 50 from day 1....i walked yesterday and am determined by the fall to be back down to 220)

KILL THE CUP!!!!!

Start slowly. I started walking each night with my daughter. Moved on to a little bike riding in the evening.

Now I am working out six nights a week. P90X ! Kicks your ass, but will certainly get you back in shape.

Do your best... forget the rest !!

Kill the cup... TIFFS !!

[sts]

this is much easier to take on than a quit, that's for sure!

you can do this. calories in  calories out = weight loss.

[bnlelliott]

Down six pounds this week! Thanks parputt I need the encouragement...I started running at one point last year...developed some shin splints from bad shoes and bad stretching and then gave up...need to start again!

[Parputt]

Go for it Brian!!!!!!!!!!! I started running and exercising in general again last month, after about 20 years, and I feel frickin' great. I too had put on some weight with my quit and the exercise and running is paying off in spades. Hell I even ran a 5K two weekends ago. If I am sitting around doing nothing and start feeling stressed or fidgity I just throw on my shoes and go for a run or drop to the floor and do some push ups. Kinda hard to stuff food in your face when the body is in motion.

Just keep moving bro and you will see a difference.

[mule]

I'll gladly live on Blue Bell 's Chocolate Decadence Ice Cream and Hostess Cupcakes and Reese's Peanut Butter Cups if it will help keep me Quit today! Still working my Day 3 Quit. Peace

effin Reese Cups..... _



they do work.....but still....


effin reese cups..... _



i'm with you cousin.....1203 today.....and 269 lbs. (up 50 from day 1....i walked yesterday and am determined by the fall to be back down to 220)

KILL THE CUP!!!!!

[TheMissingPeace]

I'll gladly live on Blue Bell 's Chocolate Decadence Ice Cream and Hostess Cupcakes and Reese's Peanut Butter Cups if it will help keep me Quit today! Still working my Day 3 Quit. Peace

[Greg5280]

I know what you mean. I was adding weight at a quick pace early in my quit. I tipped the scales at 202 one day and decided that was it.

I started doing P90X and just watching how much I ate and have dropped 22 lbs already. It was actually easier than I thought. I never worried about what I was eating, just how much.

Good Luck ! its amazing how dropping 20 can make you feel.

[minuteofangle]

Great intro brudda. I can relate. If you have keep the bitch at bay for 2 years then sheding a few well earned pounds will be a walk in the park....stay strong.

MOA