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Hey everyone.
I'm here to answer my 3 questions and hopefully some (probably not all) will accept me back. I WANT to quit, I WANT to be free, I WANT this
1) What happened?
I caved. I was beaten by my addiction. You are an addict. I am an addict. The difference bewtween you and me is that from my day 1 I have come here, listened to these people, trusted and believed every word that they have said, and accepted that I knew SHIT about quitting an addiction. I had to trust these guys and the results are 354 straight days of no nicotine. You were not beaten by your addiction. You made a conscious decision to return to slavery. Had you kept your word, your promise to us, you would not be in this situation.
2) Why did it happen?
I didn't reach out for support - and I have plenty of numbers. I sat around during the mid-afternoon craves and I let myself get tricked into thinking that I can't do this. I didn't feel I was confident enough to fight my addiction but that was probably my addiction talking. This is a weak answer. You didn't want to quit. You didn't quit. You stopped for two days. Then you used nic-gum, lozenges, patches, and who knows what else. IF you took the time to read anything on here, and were serious, you would never would have made that mistake.
3) What are you going to do different this time?
I'm going to use my support system before I do something stupid. I won't question my gut. I won't beat myself up if I feel I can't do this and NEED help. I'm going to quit, just for one day. Success starts with POSTING ROLL. I don't see your name on there. That's a issue. Next. After posting roll you need to keep your word ALL DAY; you had a problem with that last time. Third, what about all that NRT stuff you or your gf bought. Where is it? Are you keeping it for an emergency? Whose numbers do you have? Name names! Who has your number?
Let me know if my head isn't in the right place. -- You tell me. Are you in the right place?