Now that I have had 26 days to get to know the site better, post every day, participate in chat, etc...I really think I can do this!
I have been chewing since I was around 15 or so. I started with Kodiac in H.S., and then moved to Cope in College. Played rugby in college and almost the whole team chewed... I am 38 now and have a wonderful family. I had gotten to a point in my chewing that I would put in a dip and not need to spit...swallowed the shit. I did that to hide the fact that I had a dip in at work and at home.
The day I quit, I was on my way back from work (I take the train), and was putting in a dip. Just as I was putting in my dip, with my suit on, I spilled part of the tin on me and my seat... I looked around me and saw a number of people looking at me in disgust! Man, what a looser... That, and trying to constantly hide the sit from my two kids, family, etc...
This is a great site and helps me every day. I am going to beat this fucking thing, and each day this fight is making me stronger and stronger.
The one thing that I am going to try and do more now, is help others on the site rather than just sitting back and reading other posts to help myself.