Here I go again

[canless2014]

Griff — Shit. Nice job man. You've had a hell of a week.

Some advice on KTC: by now you've probably read a ton. You're accountable to your brothers and sisters in Quit by posting roll. Crazy to think, but since you've been quit a week now, you're not the newest quitter anymore. Go find some people who just quit — give 'em support, ride their ass if they think they're special, you get the point.

When I started on here at Day 70 I had gone that whole time thinking my quit is only about me. And a big part of it is... But now I know that the more people I support, the more people I'm going to let down if I cave. Honestly I've been here three days and the thought of the reactions of my October brothers if I were to break my promise and cave is enough to make me not do it.

I quit with you today.

[Thumblewort]

Seven long days ago I sat at this desk, in front of this same computer and I had no freaking idea what I was getting myself into. I was hungover. Well, I haven't really been hungover in a decade, mostly because I haven't gone a day without at least a half dozen drinks. That's a different addiction and I'll be back to that later.

If not hungover I was in my usual haze/daze and I had a big fat lipper of Skoal Long Cut Mint. I had been marginally successful as a Ninja dipper but I was slipping, losing my edge. She found a can (must have been hidden some time ago as it was all dry) in the garage in a toolbox. Thankfully not the toolbox with the 1/2 empty (alcoholics tend to see it as half empty) bottle of Hornitos.

Anyway, I went online looking for herbal alternatives or cessation aides. I've tried the patch, the gum, the Chantix (really bad shit- stay away if possible) nothing worked. Somehow found this site, sat down and read for hours. Signed up, tossed the cans I had hidden in the house/car/garage.... I'm sure I missed one or two. Going to laugh my ass off when I find them.

Back to my point. I suffered through days 1-4. Real, physical and psychological pain. Days 5 and 6, nice. More bad habit stuff than Nic withdrawl. Then Boom. Day 7 was bad. Not so much a hard crave as a 24 hour headache. Nothing helped. Actually got some sleep for a change and feel much better today, day 8.

I have to admit that there is no way on earth that I could have made it this far without spending a good deal of time on here with my brothers and sisters in Quit. Posting Roll makes it real. I honest to God find myself thinking how, in maybe a month or two, I can have a dip. I don't think about one today because, well, dammit, I posted Roll and I'm going to honor that.

The other reason I'm still quit, and plan on being so for good, is I haven't had a drop to drink. I know that if I have one I'll have a dozen and somewhere between 3 and 4 I'll sneak out, probably drive drunk (why should today be different right?) and buy a fucking can. Well, I'm not going to buy a can so I don't drink. My Dip Quit is so fucking important to me that I will not drink. Hard for me to believe but there it is. One Day at a Time and Killing two birds with one stone. Fuck Yeah.

Thanks folks, I really couldn't do this without you and I Quit Like Fuck with All Y'all every fucking day!

Griff Day 8

That's hardcore shit right there! I need to slow down my drinking as well, but focusing on no nicotine has my attention 100%. Good for you man!

[Griffin]

Seven long days ago I sat at this desk, in front of this same computer and I had no freaking idea what I was getting myself into. I was hungover. Well, I haven't really been hungover in a decade, mostly because I haven't gone a day without at least a half dozen drinks. That's a different addiction and I'll be back to that later.

If not hungover I was in my usual haze/daze and I had a big fat lipper of Skoal Long Cut Mint. I had been marginally successful as a Ninja dipper but I was slipping, losing my edge. She found a can (must have been hidden some time ago as it was all dry) in the garage in a toolbox. Thankfully not the toolbox with the 1/2 empty (alcoholics tend to see it as half empty) bottle of Hornitos.

Anyway, I went online looking for herbal alternatives or cessation aides. I've tried the patch, the gum, the Chantix (really bad shit- stay away if possible) nothing worked. Somehow found this site, sat down and read for hours. Signed up, tossed the cans I had hidden in the house/car/garage.... I'm sure I missed one or two. Going to laugh my ass off when I find them.

Back to my point. I suffered through days 1-4. Real, physical and psychological pain. Days 5 and 6, nice. More bad habit stuff than Nic withdrawl. Then Boom. Day 7 was bad. Not so much a hard crave as a 24 hour headache. Nothing helped. Actually got some sleep for a change and feel much better today, day 8.

I have to admit that there is no way on earth that I could have made it this far without spending a good deal of time on here with my brothers and sisters in Quit. Posting Roll makes it real. I honest to God find myself thinking how, in maybe a month or two, I can have a dip. I don't think about one today because, well, dammit, I posted Roll and I'm going to honor that.

The other reason I'm still quit, and plan on being so for good, is I haven't had a drop to drink. I know that if I have one I'll have a dozen and somewhere between 3 and 4 I'll sneak out, probably drive drunk (why should today be different right?) and buy a fucking can. Well, I'm not going to buy a can so I don't drink. My Dip Quit is so fucking important to me that I will not drink. Hard for me to believe but there it is. One Day at a Time and Killing two birds with one stone. Fuck Yeah.

Thanks folks, I really couldn't do this without you and I Quit Like Fuck with All Y'all every fucking day!

Griff Day 8

[Ron_Cross]

Recommend you spend a lot of time on this site over the next few months learning about nicotine addiction and how the KTC method and tools will set you free. I chewed for about 20 years. I'm 374 days quit now. If I can do it. Trust me. I know you can. Read Read Read. Be active in your quit group. Make some friends. They just might save your life.

[Candoit]

Welcome to KTC....
Embrace the suck it will come and go, don't give up. Reach out to everyone that you can, share your cell number, get in the live chat, make contacts. They will help you, but more importantly it will be reciprocated at some point. They will need support and you will be there. I quit with you today.

[lighty7]

The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.

Stay strong and get through the first few days and it starts getting better. Hope you are tough and stick it out. I've seen a couple folks from Greeley. A guy in Sept that hit 100 days either today or yday and MCO. You should hook up with MCO. He has nice pics he's willing to share.

Yeah - I almost look forward to sunflower seeds on my shitty commute home in Atlanta traffic. It's the only time I eat sunflower seeds. It's tough to break these "routine" things but I dipped on the way home from work everyday for 15+ years. Now I just eat seeds and it's no big deal. As we say all the time, it sucks for a little while and then it doesn't. We were all nicotine fiends - if I can do it then you can too.

Lighty

[Done4Me]

The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.

Stay strong and get through the first few days and it starts getting better. Hope you are tough and stick it out. I've seen a couple folks from Greeley. A guy in Sept that hit 100 days either today or yday and MCO. You should hook up with MCO. He has nice pics he's willing to share.

[Air Force ADDICT]

The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.

[Griffin]

Sitting in Court at 3:45 waiting for the fucking idiot DDA to make my idiot client a crappy offer that I'll reject and set this stupid case for trial. A trial I likely won't get paid for. Pretty flappy afternoon in Greeley Colorado.

Don't misinterpret this rant as a result of late day 3 withdrawal. I'm pretty much an asshole either way and everything I said above is true.

I'm pissed because the hour drive home from this courthouse on a Friday afternoon is one of the few highlights of my job. Get a sixer, perhaps a shooter or two and a new can, just in case.

I won't be doing any of those things today and I'm almost shaking.


Send some strong Quit force my way. I look forward to posting my successful arrival home.

[Thumblewort]

I like the attitude Griffin, you seem to get it already, with the dumping of the cans and such. Stay strong through this Day 3, and soon the fog will lift, and sleep will get better. I quit with you today!

[Nolaq]

Saw the name of this thread "Here I go again" and couldn't help but hum the Whitesnake song...

The difference here is the next line... "on my own. Going down the only road I've ever known."

You sir are not alone. Together we're going to take you down a road you've never known. The path to freedom.

Welcome aboard sir.

chewie

That ^^^ is an awesome 80's hairband reference.

Chews, you get extra credit points. You can now have recess.

[chewie]

Saw the name of this thread "Here I go again" and couldn't help but hum the Whitesnake song...

The difference here is the next line... "on my own. Going down the only road I've ever known."

You sir are not alone. Together we're going to take you down a road you've never known. The path to freedom.

Welcome aboard sir.

chewie

[Gabriel]

Keep it going minute by minute Griff. You should be in the suck pretty bad about now, but it's going to get better soon. I'm quit with you today.

[Doc Chewfree]

Griffin,

Thanks for the support, I'm going to need it. Looking forward to posting another 98 roll calls with you.

98? That's just the beginning. This addiction doesn't go away and if your wise you won't either (from this site that is).
Welcome and congratulations. There are a lot of tools, literally and figuratively, on this site. Your number one weapon is knowledge about your enemy...the nic whore. So arm yourself and prepare to fight.
When it gets tough, slow down, breath deep and focus...the crave will pass with or without nicotine. But, if you use...they will never get better.
PM me if you need anything.

[ChewingDoc]

Griffin,

Thanks for the support, I'm going to need it. Looking forward to posting another 98 roll calls with you.