Dont really want to quit but I know its right

[wastepanel]

And...fail.

Nice job missing roll tomorrow after calling your shot. Don't worry. We don't remember shit like that around here at all.

[Wt57]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes  I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

So life got in the way of your quit. Damn the bad luck.

I lost my mom to cancer at the beginning of this month. Had to wipe her ass and change her diapers. Do I get to take a dip?

Fucking man up and quit with the candy ass excuses.

Nicotine only fixes the problems it created in the first place. You've been through a lot , but it's irrelevant . We all have excuses on why we used, your not unique and your no special butterfly. Your intro title says it all. Your not invested in your quit, so I don't know why you think we would be.

I appreciate all the input and the busting of my balls. My intro had to be truthful and thats what it was. If your not here to support me that's fine and won't bother me. Maybe by me helping the new class on what to expect and how to deal with the urges. Okay, yes. I failed but maybe my failure will help me with my new dip free life and assisting those that are quitting for the first time. I plan to quit and have quit. I feel for the guys that are going through the withdrawls or that are about to experience that ride. I don't really have those (i.e. night sweats, angry, nightmares etc.) since I don't dip everyday all day. I'm aware that I failed and I won't this time. I also admit that I'm an addict to nicotine but I also know that I can kick it and have. Thanks again for allowing me to post.

I'm here for you and will support you but I'm bothered by the implied thought that using occasionally is not a big deal! And that you don't have the same addiction as the rest of us. Maybe I missed it but what are you going to do different this time?

[punisher322]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes  I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

So life got in the way of your quit. Damn the bad luck.

I lost my mom to cancer at the beginning of this month. Had to wipe her ass and change her diapers. Do I get to take a dip?

Fucking man up and quit with the candy ass excuses.

Nicotine only fixes the problems it created in the first place. You've been through a lot , but it's irrelevant . We all have excuses on why we used, your not unique and your no special butterfly. Your intro title says it all. Your not invested in your quit, so I don't know why you think we would be.

I appreciate all the input and the busting of my balls. My intro had to be truthful and thats what it was. If your not here to support me that's fine and won't bother me. Maybe by me helping the new class on what to expect and how to deal with the urges. Okay, yes. I failed but maybe my failure will help me with my new dip free life and assisting those that are quitting for the first time. I plan to quit and have quit. I feel for the guys that are going through the withdrawls or that are about to experience that ride. I don't really have those (i.e. night sweats, angry, nightmares etc.) since I don't dip everyday all day. I'm aware that I failed and I won't this time. I also admit that I'm an addict to nicotine but I also know that I can kick it and have. Thanks again for allowing me to post.

[eric71]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes  I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

So life got in the way of your quit. Damn the bad luck.

I lost my mom to cancer at the beginning of this month. Had to wipe her ass and change her diapers. Do I get to take a dip?

Fucking man up and quit with the candy ass excuses.

Nicotine only fixes the problems it created in the first place. You've been through a lot , but it's irrelevant . We all have excuses on why we used, your not unique and your no special butterfly. Your intro title says it all. Your not invested in your quit, so I don't know why you think we would be.

Right = without a doubt

Will you stay quit = plenty of doubt

Can you change your attitude = without a doubt

Attitude change = quit

There is no try in life. We either do or do not. We do not try to live, we do. We, at KTC, do not try to quit, we do.

Are you going to do what we do or not is the only question you need to answer.

[Skoal Monster]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes  I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

So life got in the way of your quit. Damn the bad luck.

I lost my mom to cancer at the beginning of this month. Had to wipe her ass and change her diapers. Do I get to take a dip?

Fucking man up and quit with the candy ass excuses.

Nicotine only fixes the problems it created in the first place. You've been through a lot , but it's irrelevant . We all have excuses on why we used, your not unique and your no special butterfly. Your intro title says it all. Your not invested in your quit, so I don't know why you think we would be.

[Parputt]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

So life got in the way of your quit. Damn the bad luck.

I lost my mom to cancer at the beginning of this month. Had to wipe her ass and change her diapers. Do I get to take a dip?

Fucking man up and quit with the candy ass excuses.

[G]

Yup, Its me bro. I'm logged back into my account.

Okay, thanks.

[punisher322]

Man, where to begin. I quite for a long time, probably a year or more. Just got busy with wife and kids. Mostly all bad stuff. To sum it up I started smoking when my step father left my mom. Now, my mom and I do not get along at all. Well, I had to move her into my home to stay with me then lets see....we'll make this easier and less boring to read....lol

1. filed for divorce twice
2. had to evict my mother (going to court and all)
3 embarrassed because it all transpired where I work (which is for a judge)
4. mom got cancer
5. sister is crazy as a shit house rat / nuttier than a porta pot at a peanut festival
6. had to take care of mother and watch her die
7. put her in nursing home which I swore I would never do
8. promised her I would quite smoking when she passed (which I did do and yes I'm clean of the smoke stick)
9. mom died in my arms October 13, 2011
10. started chewing occasionally on or about January 2012
11. Continue to chew once or twice a week for a total of 12 hours I'd say
12. Here I am again!!!

[punisher322]

Yup, Its me bro. I'm logged back into my account.

[G]

Is it possible your old name was Punisher322?

Quit in 2008?

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Yeah, that sounds about right as far as the date and the Handle. Thanks for checking into that for me.

Are you able to log back into your original account? If so, please do that and discontinue using this subsequent account. If not, let me know and I'll direct you to someone who can help you get logged back into your proper user name.

Does this sound like you? It's an intro from punisher322.

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[wastepanel]

It sounds like you really have a handle on this.

Why do you need our help?

BTW...What group were you in before?  When you say " a few years ago", when?

It is wasting our time if you don't really want to quit because quitting is your decision alone.  We can help, but we can't make you.  You have to do this and I (for example) don't like to have people have my back if they aren't fully committed.

I wouldn't necessarily say that I have a handle on it. If I did I wouldn't have started back up. I contain it yes, but I don't have it all the way gone. I'm hoping to get help through the stress part and that will assist with the can. Unless you have any other suggestions????

Learn from the past-Learn why you failed last time. Tell us about your specific failure (i.e. how long you were away from the site before you failed, your specific cave, etc.). Tell us why you failed. And, finally, tell us what you are doing differently this time. The past is the past, and we cannot change it. We can only learn from our mistakes.

Quit for today.-Just put your promise down on roll call and do everything you can to stay quit today.

Fuck the future-Tomorrow doesn't matter if you can't get to it by staying quit today.

We all will fail when left to our own devices. That's why we come here. From your profiles, I can deduct that you are a police officer. Much respect man, but in order to succeed here you've got to understand that you just don't have this. The minute that you think you do, you become too overconfident. That's the moment your ADDICTED brain starts the process of returning to the drug.

You state that you "don't really want to quit", and I contest you are either lying with those words, or you are wasting our times. There was an old 80s movie called "Eddie and the Cruisers" where they dwelled on the importance of "Words" and "Music" coming together to make something special.

This forum is your words. It is your promise to yourself and to us that you will stay quit today. It is a reminder that boredom, forgetfullness, and complacency are all quit killers.

Your actions are the music. Anybody can promise to stay quit. It takes a true badass to keep your word. You can limp through it, or you can fucking own this. It's your choice.

Words and music man. Words and music.

Please contact an admin about resetting your old account, go to the March 2009 group and explain to them what happened, and post roll in January 2013 with a similar explanation.

I got your back, but ONLY IF YOU ARE SERIOUS.

[G]

Is it possible your old name was Punisher322?

Quit in 2008?

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Yeah, that sounds about right as far as the date and the Handle. Thanks for checking into that for me.

Are you able to log back into your original account? If so, please do that and discontinue using this subsequent account. If not, let me know and I'll direct you to someone who can help you get logged back into your proper user name.

[punisher1093]

It sounds like you really have a handle on this.

Why do you need our help?

BTW...What group were you in before? When you say " a few years ago", when?

It is wasting our time if you don't really want to quit because quitting is your decision alone. We can help, but we can't make you. You have to do this and I (for example) don't like to have people have my back if they aren't fully committed.

I wouldn't necessarily say that I have a handle on it. If I did I wouldn't have started back up. I contain it yes, but I don't have it all the way gone. I'm hoping to get help through the stress part and that will assist with the can. Unless you have any other suggestions????

[punisher1093]

Is it possible your old name was Punisher322?

Quit in 2008?

Total Cumulative Posts 91 ( 0.01% of total forum posts )
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Yeah, that sounds about right as far as the date and the Handle. Thanks for checking into that for me.

[wastepanel]

Is it possible your old name was Punisher322?

Quit in 2008?

Total Cumulative Posts 91 ( 0.01% of total forum posts )
Posts per day 0.1
Joined 22-November 08
Last Activity: Apr 17, 2009, 7:02 pm
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