Desire: increases resolve and determination.
Nicotine didn't do jack shit for me. Didn't matter the situation. Regardless if it was a victory, failure, stabilizer, or social. Nicotine was the biggest lie and deception in my life.
Everything I thought it did for me, it didn't. Just hate the shit so much that even if you were being tortured, you would rather be tortured and tormented than surrender to the lie of tobacco and nicotine.
As an addict, never focus past today. Everyday you wake, go to battle to win. No nic, Not today. Win each day and as they add up, you will enjoy kicking the shit out of the nic bitch.
Relish the pain and enjoy the hurt and suck of breaking the chains. Fresh start? Time for you to own that. Fresh starts aren't easy even if the break is clean, it takes time to heal. Day after Day.
You can do this. Reach out to your group and bleed together and embrace the suck!
258 days no nic for me and I haven't caved. I don't look to tomorrow. I quit today and focus on surviving and winning my match today.
Welcome to hell. You're going to hate it but if you stick with it and go undefeated to the HOF, you will feel a freedom and end up loving the journey to freedom...You will never want to repeat it either.