"I'm back home with my girlfriend, my family, and I'm staying clean."
Again, this makes it sound like you can only stay clean because things are "just right". What are you going to do when shit gets hard again? When posting roll is inconvenient because you're hiking in the mountains? When you have to travel for a job again? When you're fighting with your girlfriend? When life just gets shitty because that's what life does? What will be different this time?
3. What will you do different this time?
Have a tighter quit plan, regardless of the circumstances. Not allowing myself to think a drastic change in a situation can allow me to dip. I did come back home for good, due to family reasons, not due to dipping. I can't revolve my life around avoiding places where I am prone to caving, I have to man up and protect my quit in these situations.
Oh, FFS. Are you being purposely obtuse?? WHAT IS YOUR NEW "TIGHTER " QUIT PLAN?
Fuck it, I'm going to argue with my pillow. It will probably be more effective.
My new tighter quit plan? Man the fuck up really. Stop trying to look at shitty situations in life and finding an excuse to dip. Listen, I can get hammered with my buds, or sit in a pub all night and not cave(I did prove that in my short time here). Its when life gets fucked when I get really worked up. I can't avoid the abnormal, so I've got to face it just surrendering to the fact that I refuse to touch the shit again.
Look man gotta be honest with you. A lot of us in October put a lot of effort into your quit. Remember your whole unable to get a cell signal at some concert crap? We put up with a lot of heat for you because we thought you were dedicated to the quit. Then after all that poof you're gone. No explanation no nothing. You say its because you got this job super quick and you weren't going to be able to post in Iraq. Bullshit. WINTER BRAND is serving in Afghanistan and she posts roll everyday. Read that sentence again and realize your reasons are just shitty excuses.
You say you are going to man up? Prove it because right now I have this strange feeling that when the going gets tough you get going right to the gas station to finger bang the nic bitch. Grow a spine, get to quitting, and PM your number out to as many December guys as you can. Matter of fact why don't you PM me your number as well. That way I can help December make sure you ain't cheating on them with the Nic Bitch like you did us.
Canuck, you seriously don't sound like you get it yet. Giving BAM shit while she's trying to help you isn't really showing you're on the right path. You're still making excuses. You made a fuck ton of money doing electrical work in Iraq and you started dipping again. That's what I've learned about you. Life got hard for you and you caved. What has changed? Don't make excuses. Don't use you're POG ass Fobbit job in Iraq as "stressful".
You had numbers. You had support. You choose to dip and made excuses in your own mind allowing yourself to cave. There's fucking cell phones and internet in Iraq. You could have stayed here, yet you Quit before you even left this side of the world.
I'm not feeling that you've really bought into this Quit. I hope so, but I'm not buying right now.
