Day 7.
So I have noticed some definite irritability. I thought hey maybe a I won't be one of those bitchy, whiny quitters! But it seems I am after all. My wife face timed me to ask me if I would walk her through cleaning her new revolver she got a week or two ago. Now normally I would be all over this, who doesn't love a chance to show your woman how "manly" and knowledgable you are at doing "manly" things, *insert Tim the tool man Taylor grunts* but for some reason it just completely pissed me off?!? It literally angered me that she would have the audacity to call me right when I get back to the hotel from work (away for business for a few months) right when I'm anout to unwind for the evening! I mean the nerve of her!!! I was pretty shitty looking back, bad enough I realized what was happening and apologized to her later. I still have not told her I'm a quitter. She has wanted me to quit since we met some 3-4 years ago, but this quit is about me and I decided to do it on my own, the only people who know are you guys(ladies), a few trusted friends at work and my mom.
Maybe I should bring others into this too? I guess it would give me even more accountability, my only fear is the ones who won't help. You all know who I'm talking about, the people who try and drag you back down to addiction with them.
Any thoughts?
On a side note, it is amazing to see how much affect this drug has on your personality. The ability to make you lash out at loved ones for literally NO reason. If I could go back I would never have started this. But like they say "better late than never".