I am a 28 yr old female with a husband and an almost 2 yr old son.. He was a preemie born 2 months early due to preeclampsia ( I had severe high blood pressure). I have been a stay at home mama ever since he was born. I am on day 3 right now, and it is hell..Others must have different symptoms.. I haven't experienced a fog, dizziness or anything like that.. I just have a constant urge to dip, and anger..I started dipping when I was about 12 or 13.. I was hanging with my cousins and brother and a group of their friends on a hay bale and we all got a dip, most of the guys got dizzy and fell off.. Well I got addicted have have been using ever since ( not near as much as most maybe 1- 1.5 cans a week).I used to dip timberwolf wintergreen longcut for a long time. I then switched to grizzly wintergreen longcut. I am weirdly in a greiving process.. I think it was my idenity, I needed it for comfort. I paint at night for income, and after my son was in bed I would get a dip, turn on the tv and paint.. It was my time....It gave me comfort.. now I am lost
Hi there. I am a female addict too. I can feel the emotions you are talking about as I read them. It is hell yes, but, remember this. As long as you keep that crap out of your mouth, you will never have to do today over again! I wanted you to know that you are not alone, these are completely normal feelings, they will pass, and it will get easier. More importantly, congrats on day three! That is just HUGE! The feeling of loss or grieving as you say, is also normal. You truly do not miss it however. It is just a trick that your addict brain is playing to keep your fingers in the tin and your lip packed. You will soon hate nicotine.....and that feels INCREDIBLE!
You are not lost. You just can't think as clearly as you would like to, but that's okay. That will also pass. You are not lost because there are people here that will help you. This is the perfect place to come to get help.
Besides realizing that these feelings are normal, what else do you need help with? Have you posted roll? What are you doing or using to help with the oral fixation?...the craves?.....your anger?
Quittin' like a girl is the best damn thing you will ever do for yourself! I guarantee you will never regret quitting!
Ginet day 588