Making it stick this time

[kana]

Thanks for the support guys. The stress is pretty much gone now, it's just a matter of getting as much done as I can. I have told my boss about my quit but trying to talk to someone who is addicted to prescription pain killers is kinda pointless when you're looking at a couple of eyes that are shooting off in different directions or rolling back into his head half the time.

I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving this year. I'm thankful for KTC and everyone here. This will be the first holiday season where I don't have to disappear to go take a dip in the middle of a family get together. I'm past the worst which is what I wanted to be through for the holidays. I'm sitting pretty at 3 weeks and with one day at a time I will conquer my demons and look forward to the future.

Getting through those days one by one will save your ass. You'll gain confidence with each day knowing you CAN and WILL make it. Just remember it will get better. I alway's forget that too, but someone reminded me recently that when your feeling down, stressed, pissed, etc... stay focused, stay strong, It WILL get better...

[Powdersummit]

Thanks for the support guys. The stress is pretty much gone now, it's just a matter of getting as much done as I can. I have told my boss about my quit but trying to talk to someone who is addicted to prescription pain killers is kinda pointless when you're looking at a couple of eyes that are shooting off in different directions or rolling back into his head half the time.

I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving this year. I'm thankful for KTC and everyone here. This will be the first holiday season where I don't have to disappear to go take a dip in the middle of a family get together. I'm past the worst which is what I wanted to be through for the holidays. I'm sitting pretty at 3 weeks and with one day at a time I will conquer my demons and look forward to the future.

[Diesel2112]

Love it, especially the arguing with yourself in the car part. Sounds like you got a hell of a quit going. I know it's tough now, but just like back in the day when something fucked up happened and the only thing that went right was nobody died, even though at the moment you knew is was some serious shit you would say "Some day we are going to look back at this and laugh."

Same thing is going on with you right now. You're in the heat of the battle right now and you are going blow for blow with the nic bitch battling it out like a fucking CHAMP!!!! BELIEVE ME, months from now you will look back on this and not only chuckle a little bit, but feel a sense of unbelievable PRIDE, knowing you did the right thing and were beating an addiction one handed while stress was kicking you in the balls.

Keep fighting the good fight, bro. I know it's not easy but the nothing worth fighting for is. The freedom you will feel on the other side is beyond compare. I can't even describe how good it feels to be FREE from that nasty can of SHIT. The more battles you win and the more time that passes you will see that I am right.

Like I've said a million times...if a PUSSY like me can do this ANYBODY can!

[Notdeadyet]

Holy Shit this has been tough lately. Last week I got dumped on at work with a massive amount of parts that need to be done by thanksgiving and be sent out for some sort of electrolysis. These parts take 16 min a piece, not counting inspection, and I have a couple of tolerances of .0002 inches. These parts aren't easy to get going on a good day let alone when early in a quit and the stress of getting them done. Not to mention this contract is worth millions over the life of the project. I have came so close to caving in the past few days it isn't funny. I'm verbally arguing with myself in my car, I have a hard time sleeping (graveyard is a bitch as it is). I have stayed true to my quit though thanks partly to the fake chew and KTC.

I have figured out the numbers and there is no way I can get what they want done in the time frame I was given. Fuck em! I'll decided I'll get done what I can get done and that's all I can get done. It's not my god damn fault they can't schedule these fucking things in advance.

Good news is that I'm working on them right now and they are running great. I did not expect that. I've almost got 10 of the 100 done and the CNC lathe that they are on hasn't gave me any shit.

I have come so close to breaking. The anxiety has been so intense. I don't want to become another statistic of people failing to quit. I have been that statistic for the last 9 years. I am done being too weak to say no to the can. Today is 21 days without the cancer can. I don't want to go through this shit again, I choose to remain quit.

Powdersummit

You have realized nicotine will NOT help you get those parts done any sooner.

Nicotine solves nothing.

Well done my friend.

Close the door on nic. Make quitting the number one priority in your life and it will become a mild irritation before long. And tell your boss,

"Piss poor planning and lack of decision making on your part does not constitute a fucking emergency on my part".

I love that quote. Only got me fired from a few jobs.

Hang tough Powder, you are winning!

[Sharsky]

I choose to remain quit.

Powdersummit

We all have choices, Powder. Very well done...I am impressed. I quit with you today as well.....Sharsky

[redtrain14]

Holy Shit this has been tough lately. Last week I got dumped on at work with a massive amount of parts that need to be done by thanksgiving and be sent out for some sort of electrolysis. These parts take 16 min a piece, not counting inspection, and I have a couple of tolerances of .0002 inches. These parts aren't easy to get going on a good day let alone when early in a quit and the stress of getting them done. Not to mention this contract is worth millions over the life of the project. I have came so close to caving in the past few days it isn't funny. I'm verbally arguing with myself in my car, I have a hard time sleeping (graveyard is a bitch as it is). I have stayed true to my quit though thanks partly to the fake chew and KTC.

I have figured out the numbers and there is no way I can get what they want done in the time frame I was given. Fuck em! I'll decided I'll get done what I can get done and that's all I can get done. It's not my god damn fault they can't schedule these fucking things in advance.

Good news is that I'm working on them right now and they are running great. I did not expect that. I've almost got 10 of the 100 done and the CNC lathe that they are on hasn't gave me any shit.

I have come so close to breaking. The anxiety has been so intense. I don't want to become another statistic of people failing to quit. I have been that statistic for the last 9 years. I am done being too weak to say no to the can. Today is 21 days without the cancer can. I don't want to go through this shit again, I choose to remain quit.

Powdersummit

You have realized nicotine will NOT help you get those parts done any sooner.

Nicotine solves nothing.

Well done my friend.

[Powdersummit]

Holy Shit this has been tough lately. Last week I got dumped on at work with a massive amount of parts that need to be done by thanksgiving and be sent out for some sort of electrolysis. These parts take 16 min a piece, not counting inspection, and I have a couple of tolerances of .0002 inches. These parts aren't easy to get going on a good day let alone when early in a quit and the stress of getting them done. Not to mention this contract is worth millions over the life of the project. I have came so close to caving in the past few days it isn't funny. I'm verbally arguing with myself in my car, I have a hard time sleeping (graveyard is a bitch as it is). I have stayed true to my quit though thanks partly to the fake chew and KTC.

I have figured out the numbers and there is no way I can get what they want done in the time frame I was given. Fuck em! I'll decided I'll get done what I can get done and that's all I can get done. It's not my god damn fault they can't schedule these fucking things in advance.

Good news is that I'm working on them right now and they are running great. I did not expect that. I've almost got 10 of the 100 done and the CNC lathe that they are on hasn't gave me any shit.

I have come so close to breaking. The anxiety has been so intense. I don't want to become another statistic of people failing to quit. I have been that statistic for the last 9 years. I am done being too weak to say no to the can. Today is 21 days without the cancer can. I don't want to go through this shit again, I choose to remain quit.

Powdersummit

[wastepanel]

It's day 11 and I'm still free. The past couple days I have been fighting some pretty good craves. I figure they will come in waves and hit me when I'm feeling down. That's at least what has been happening lately. I know things will get better with time but for right now it's a matter of fighting crave to crave and day to day.

Posting roll is an absolute must. It has kept me accountable. It may seem rather superficial but posting when you first get up and promise not to have any nicotine that day takes the edge off. It's like you are only quitting for today, don't worry about tomorrow. All you have to do is the same thing tomorrow. It works.

Read!!! Read what others have posted in the Hall of Fame. I can really relate to others in the Hall of Fame. I personally want to be there. I was reading a few of the posts in the hall of fame at work the other night and started to tear up. When you realize what the chew has done to your life, it hurts. I'm a big enough man to admit that I can cry. Quitting is a very emotional thing. The addiction has become part of who you are.

Overall things are getting better, I feel as though I am more level. Nicotine gave me mood swings that I did not realize. I started in high school when hormones are running strong. I thought that everything was normal for the last 13 years. Son of a bitch I was wrong. I have been able to keep a much more positive attitude now. I see myself becoming the man I want to be. Nicotine just set that back a few years.

You get it! You have a bad ass quit going on. There is still a long way to go but as long as you post roll early everyday and don't get complacent you will continue to win 1 day at a time. Im there quitting each morning too. Pm me if I can help with anything!

:wub:

I quit with you today man.

[Wt57]

It's day 11 and I'm still free. The past couple days I have been fighting some pretty good craves. I figure they will come in waves and hit me when I'm feeling down. That's at least what has been happening lately. I know things will get better with time but for right now it's a matter of fighting crave to crave and day to day.

Posting roll is an absolute must. It has kept me accountable. It may seem rather superficial but posting when you first get up and promise not to have any nicotine that day takes the edge off. It's like you are only quitting for today, don't worry about tomorrow. All you have to do is the same thing tomorrow. It works.

Read!!! Read what others have posted in the Hall of Fame. I can really relate to others in the Hall of Fame. I personally want to be there. I was reading a few of the posts in the hall of fame at work the other night and started to tear up. When you realize what the chew has done to your life, it hurts. I'm a big enough man to admit that I can cry. Quitting is a very emotional thing. The addiction has become part of who you are.

Overall things are getting better, I feel as though I am more level. Nicotine gave me mood swings that I did not realize. I started in high school when hormones are running strong. I thought that everything was normal for the last 13 years. Son of a bitch I was wrong. I have been able to keep a much more positive attitude now. I see myself becoming the man I want to be. Nicotine just set that back a few years.

You get it! You have a bad ass quit going on. There is still a long way to go but as long as you post roll early everyday and don't get complacent you will continue to win 1 day at a time. Im there quitting each morning too. Pm me if I can help with anything!

[Powdersummit]

It's day 11 and I'm still free. The past couple days I have been fighting some pretty good craves. I figure they will come in waves and hit me when I'm feeling down. That's at least what has been happening lately. I know things will get better with time but for right now it's a matter of fighting crave to crave and day to day.

Posting roll is an absolute must. It has kept me accountable. It may seem rather superficial but posting when you first get up and promise not to have any nicotine that day takes the edge off. It's like you are only quitting for today, don't worry about tomorrow. All you have to do is the same thing tomorrow. It works.

Read!!! Read what others have posted in the Hall of Fame. I can really relate to others in the Hall of Fame. I personally want to be there. I was reading a few of the posts in the hall of fame at work the other night and started to tear up. When you realize what the chew has done to your life, it hurts. I'm a big enough man to admit that I can cry. Quitting is a very emotional thing. The addiction has become part of who you are.

Overall things are getting better, I feel as though I am more level. Nicotine gave me mood swings that I did not realize. I started in high school when hormones are running strong. I thought that everything was normal for the last 13 years. Son of a bitch I was wrong. I have been able to keep a much more positive attitude now. I see myself becoming the man I want to be. Nicotine just set that back a few years.

[SirDerek]

82 Hours in Yeah! The fog has lifted for the most part. I'm able to think more clearly now. I was kind of worried there for a bit. I'm volunteering at the local middle school to help with their Lego robotics league. At the last meeting I couldn't even do the simple math for calculating a turn. I woke up at 4am this morning feeling clear headed and was able to start my lesson plan for calculating basic movements.

The best thing right now is being able to full on kiss my wife with no worries. The only time I was able to do that is when I was chewing just the nicotine gum and I hated the gum. I think it was causing an allergic reaction and I was coughing up all kinds of shit because of the crap. I feel closer to my wife now that I ever have. I do have my mood swings but I know and she knows to expect them. They are starting to level off.

It's going to be a long road ahead. I know that I am never cured and that I will always be an addict. It's my choice to do the right thing though.

Carl

nice job powder - each day is now a victory, but never forget what you have gone through as it will help strengthen you quit in the comming days, and unless you are a sadistic sucker, why would you want to go through that again.

There will be a lot of mind games comming up, learn to recognize them for what they are, enjoy the good days but always be prepared to fight the days that are not as good.

Quit with you today

[Powdersummit]

82 Hours in Yeah! The fog has lifted for the most part. I'm able to think more clearly now. I was kind of worried there for a bit. I'm volunteering at the local middle school to help with their Lego robotics league. At the last meeting I couldn't even do the simple math for calculating a turn. I woke up at 4am this morning feeling clear headed and was able to start my lesson plan for calculating basic movements.

The best thing right now is being able to full on kiss my wife with no worries. The only time I was able to do that is when I was chewing just the nicotine gum and I hated the gum. I think it was causing an allergic reaction and I was coughing up all kinds of shit because of the crap. I feel closer to my wife now that I ever have. I do have my mood swings but I know and she knows to expect them. They are starting to level off.

It's going to be a long road ahead. I know that I am never cured and that I will always be an addict. It's my choice to do the right thing though.

Carl

[Skoal Monster]

powder, your right about the blood sugar, keep it steady. sipping on sweet juice like cranberry or pineapple will do it. A blood sugar crash will cause you to crave a dip. Steady is the key. Not a box of ding dongs.

sM

[Diesel2112]

You're adjusting to "wearing shoes that actually fit". When your addicted to nic its like your constantly walking around in shoes 2 sizes too small. They hurt and are uncomfortable, but you get the most satisfying relief when you take them off and rub those achy puppies, ie popping in a dip.

Problem is once u spit that dip out the size 9's go back on even though you wear an 11. You walk around irritable and in pain, always looking forward to taking them off again and rubbing the barking dogs. Gets so bad it starts to control you and you are consumed with taking your shoes off and rubbing your hurting feet. Its like the best feeling in the world now but you've lost sight of the big picture and why your feet hurt so bad to begin with.

Here's an idea. BUY SOME SIZE 11'S!!! Might take awhile to get used to since you're brains so fucked up it THINKS short term relief for a major problem is actually "normal". Trust me, over time you'll be gliding down the street in your size elevens wondering why the fuck you were jamming your feet into size 9's for so many years.

[redtrain14]

Your body will be constantly adjusting during your quit. I noticed different things during the first 200 days or so. An odd heartbeat, not feeling my pulse in my neck, neck pain, headaches, insomnia, always tired, a weird eye tick (right eye only), numb tongue, sore teeth, sensitive teeth, most definately gas and a whole bunch of other shit I can't remember now.

Oh yeah...I got fat too. That's because I ate everything in sight and didn't excercise....don't do that. Eating is fine, but get your ass off the couch.

Zen state of quitting. I would describe that as the feeling of hovering 6" above and just to the left of my body.

Yeah, I know, it's weird....but that's what it felt like.......

Congrats on your decision, I promise you won't regret it.