Promise

[racetrackcowgirl]

What a site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's good to see you old friend. Remember when you were the biggest asshole i spoke with on here.....well be an asshole and post roll - you've let a little bitch kick your ass and now I expect you to jump back into this rodeo!

[Winter Green]

Bleeker

Well bleeker you are either quit and don't give a shit or you caved again. Which is it? If you caved then get your ass back in here and post day 1. If you haven't caved then start posting roll man. You know how this site works. You need to be leadin the way for the newbies in your group. Not posting 40% of the time.

[Winter Green]

Bleeker

[Its_Got2Happen]

Bleeckerdogs Day 2 "Here you go, questions  answers:
What happened/Why did it happen. These two run hand in hand. 1st I stopped coming to KTC, stopped posting roll, stopped promising. I did great for about a month. I stayed true to my word to myself and the I fell into that "I can have just one" Just one turned into a can, a can to a sleeve and just like that a great quit died and Nicotene won. It happened because I stopped thinking that I was an addict. I thought my quit was easy. I figured that just one wouldn't get me. I cant take back what I did, I hate that I did it. I liked myself quit better than I ever liked myself chewing.
What will I do to make sure it doesn't happen again. I will always know what it felt like to fail on my quit. I will come back here everyday and post my promise. I will be honest with myself, you and the ones I love. I will also ask for help from you and others to make sure I don't forget.
I hope this is a better response than yesterdays, I hope that I can count on KTC and all you bad ass quitters. I promise no chew today!"

Hey Bleeker,

I hope you dont mind that I posted your answers here on your thread, (ABOVE). I am glad that you found your way back. I am glad that it didnt take years and maybe a cancer diagnosis to bring you back.

My greatest fear is that if I ever failed and threw all this work away I would never return. It took me years to develop the true desire to be done. Well I know that desirecan be fleeting.

Keep us posted man. I would like to see your name in April 13 everyday and April 14 can learn much from you. I suggest that you get involved, take over the spread sheet, help some brothers that struggle. All those things will benefit you.

Like I told you yesterday, I am in your corner. I will send you a pm with my number. Only take it if you are fully committed.

Ryan

[Its_Got2Happen]

Bleeckerdogs Day 2 "Here you go, questions  answers:
What happened/Why did it happen. These two run hand in hand. 1st I stopped coming to KTC, stopped posting roll, stopped promising. I did great for about a month. I stayed true to my word to myself and the I fell into that "I can have just one" Just one turned into a can, a can to a sleeve and just like that a great quit died and Nicotene won. It happened because I stopped thinking that I was an addict. I thought my quit was easy. I figured that just one wouldn't get me. I cant take back what I did, I hate that I did it. I liked myself quit better than I ever liked myself chewing.
What will I do to make sure it doesn't happen again. I will always know what it felt like to fail on my quit. I will come back here everyday and post my promise. I will be honest with myself, you and the ones I love. I will also ask for help from you and others to make sure I don't forget.
I hope this is a better response than yesterdays, I hope that I can count on KTC and all you bad ass quitters. I promise no chew today!"

[Wt57]

I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters.  Almost mean!  I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious.  I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years.  I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent.  I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time.  There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role.  I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.

It hurts to see people fail, part of that for me is that it reminds me of how vulnerable I am! Yep, we are just that stupid addict that's one dip away from a cave. You can't quit for anyone and you certainly can't save them from being stupid. "Stupid is as stupid does".

Man I still hate reading about a cave, I'm pissed that my efforts were wasted on someone. When I joined KTC 650 days ago I had no intentions or desire to hang around here for much past HOF. I figured I'd be "cured" by then. Now I realize I'm forever an addict. I may not need to post daily anymore but I'm not sure I can fight complacency so I'm still here, I won't throw my freedom away. The bigger part of my quit today is reaching out and sharing my quit experience and knowledge. I read your answers and thought what your going to do different weak. I'm not convinced that you get it yet. I hope I'm wrong, please prove me wrong.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Bleeker. 

Are you quit right now?

Do you want to be?

You know what you need to do.  Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave

Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.

I'm with Ron and Ryan on this 100%. I'm glad you have made the decision to come back again but what is different this time? April 14 needs to gain valuable insight as to what and why triggered your cave. We all struggle, we all have bad days and we all have been tempted.

Bleeker, go back and read your post from March 30th about the contract to cave. You had some pretty strong convictions at that time. Well strong convictions cannot keep you quit AND neither can pure will power in my opinion. Nope, at least I know they can't keep me quit. Most of us need strategies and tools that breed accountability. We need to be reminded that we are addicts. We need friends to lean on when we are weak and quitting seems hard. We need to be around people that understand what we are going through. We need to be reminded what failure means. We need to keep a healthy fear of nicotine's end game. We need to understand why the battle can only be won one day at a time. Well this place gives me all these things and I am not ashamed to admit that I need them. Does that make me weak? I don't know, and I don't care. It makes me quit and that is what I care about.



I don't know who wrote that contract to cave, but I love it. It has resided in my wallet for about 1 year. It will remain there, right next to a few quotes from skoalmonster. Knowing what I know now, I can never go back to using. I have come to far and I have learned too much.

Please answer the 3 questions for your new April group. They can learn from your mistakes and that is the price of admission. Well that and your daily promise.

1. What happened?

2. Why?

3. What will you do different this time?

Give these things some serious thought. Your answers to these questions will be sure to determine your success or failure this time around.

Best of luck man. Let me know if I can help you in any way. A lot of people here sure helped me out.

Ryan

[Kjstout]

Bleeker. 

Are you quit right now?

Do you want to be?

You know what you need to do.  Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave

Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.

I'm with Ron and Ryan on this 100%. I'm glad you have made the decision to come back again but what is different this time? April 14 needs to gain valuable insight as to what and why triggered your cave. We all struggle, we all have bad days and we all have been tempted.

[Wt57]

Bleeker. 

Are you quit right now?

Do you want to be?

You know what you need to do.  Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave

Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.

[Spartanron]

Bleeker.

Are you quit right now?

Do you want to be?

You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave

Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Bleeker.

Are you quit right now?

Do you want to be?

You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave

[racetrackcowgirl]

I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today, 

I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people.  Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit.  I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing.  "How can I help"  "heres my number call me" "stay quit".  I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass.  Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday.  Can we do it in JELLO?  You people rock.  I promised today!  I keep my promises!  Thank you all.

Feels DAMN good to have some heavy support, don't it bro?

Quit like MAD!

Hahaha - hey if all of the previous stuff didn't already help......

if you cave 1) you won't get the $1000 your buddy is going to pay in you in like 8 months and 2 ) I'm going to make you pay the $1,000 you already got for staying quit to me!

'archer' - Gotta love your friends right - they will break it down to the really important stuff - hahaha

[iizphilister]

I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today,

I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people. Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit. I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing. "How can I help" "heres my number call me" "stay quit". I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass. Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday. Can we do it in JELLO? You people rock. I promised today! I keep my promises! Thank you all.

Feels DAMN good to have some heavy support, don't it bro?

Quit like MAD!

[bleeckerdogs]

I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today,

I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people. Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit. I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing. "How can I help" "heres my number call me" "stay quit". I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass. Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday. Can we do it in JELLO? You people rock. I promised today! I keep my promises! Thank you all.

[wastepanel]

Everyone THANKS, venting was good, your support and the fact that I posted roll is enough to keep me going today. I will promise again tomorrow and my buddy Cowgirl is going to post for me this weekend. I will not ask her to lie so my ass will STILL be quit on Monday when I get back. I will be a solid 147 days. Nicotene is a tricky bitch. This near cave at day 143 proves what my Buddy CR4 tells me everyday "I am an Addict". This shit about it getting easier is bullshit, Today was fucking hard and I have no idea why.

It's because there is a nasty ass funk in the 120s (or thereabouts). You probably haven't run into one in about a month so this one comes at a surprise. Again, look at the spreadsheet. This is when a lot of guys think they're cured and leave (only to return later most of the time) or stumble.

You've been here for 143 days. Use the tools you've always used. I'm not asking you to quit for any longer than today. Fuck tomorrow.

You got my number and I'll gladly stand behind you and help you in any way I can.