I messed up yesterday. It was day 2 and I broke down and had a dip. I feel terrible about it. Like I am a slave to this. So, today I will start anew and go change my roll call status to day 1. I have had my share of withdrawal situations in the past but that's a different story. I let myself down and everyone around me down. Really need help to do this. I have to find a replacement like gum or something.
I'm sorry to hear you failed in getting parole from NicoPrison (see my signature line for more info on that one).
For what it's worth, my mantra is 'I never use nicotine now.'. See, it's always now, right? It was now when I wrote this; it'll be now when you read this. So...when the craves hit, I just repeat that mantra. In other words, I take ODAAT (One Day At A Time) and compress it to the infinitely short period of time called 'now'. In other words...I may use nicotine later, but with God's help, I'll have enough guts to stay away from nicotine now. This is especially important for me, as I have a learning disability that makes parsing time in the traditional manner very difficult indeed.
One last thing: About that gum...I hope you don't mean nicotine gum. That stuff is no good, it just drags out the pain, and it's expensive as heck anyway.
So...brother...do you wish parole from NicoPrison or not? It's time to decide...kill the can (some treat themselves to That Very Last Dip Ever before they kill the can - I did - but it's better to just do it and be done with it).
But...keep at it. Stay quit. You'll be paroled soon enough. Wanna' keep that parole? Stay away from nicotine, fullstop.