Day 2. In rolls the fog. I was driving to the store to get coffee this morning and constantly would have to recorrect my driving. I walked into the store and was instantly pissed off. There was no noise or anything. I couldn't count the money out of my wallet. I ended up just handing a 20 when it was only 5 bucks for coffee and doughnuts. Sleep was iffy through the night. I would wake up every hour or so. It would take about 30 minutes to fall back asleep. I've been leaving cans of skoal and copenhagen around to get used to seeing temptation. It's been rough and it's gonna be rough. But every bit of pain and suffering is worth it. With the help from my brothers, I'll pull through this. Thanks to all.
Keep it up T. Right now it's grit-your-teeth and get-through-it time, but it won't last forever. You won't always be ready to explode. Soon enough you'll be doing complicated tasks with a clearer mind than you remember having.
Please take the following wordy word of caution. You should stop tempting yourself.
Temptation will come on its own without your deliberate help. Don't trust yourself. You are an addict, and this behavior of giving your stash to a friend to hold, or leaving cans where you can find them, is the sort of thing that addicts do.
Imagine a scenario in which you blow up at your captain, a proby, your wife or child - whoever fits in your story - and you say something thoughtless because right now you're a foggy-headed idiot who can't make change. For the next days you're left trying to figure out how to make it right. Suddenly, quitting tobacco might seem like a relatively unimportant thing to do compared to keeping your job or patching up your marriage. It's all a lie, of course - you wouldn't have this rage problem if you hadn't abused your body with nicotine - but it won't matter; you planned for this exact situation.
Follow me? You're walking a tight-rope for the first time (because this time, you're going to stay quit, which you've never done before). But you're so tough, even though you know you don't have all your wits, you're bouncing on the wire. You're showing off to yourself! No good. Flush those cans - don't keep them. Stay quit everyday - and that's all you'll need to show you're a badass.
You're already a badass. Congratulations on your big day 2.
