I get it. And I get the rough responses over in the roll page. I’m here to quit. I want it gone. For me! I fell back into it. That’s my bad. But, I am here now. I’m sorry I let you all down in April ‘16. I thought I had it. I’m not a fan of vulgarity as you’ll notice in my posts, there’s plenty of it here...lol. One of my reasons for trying it out on my own. That being said...when I was going strong each day posting, I wasn’t dipping. I don’t want to fall back into it. I want my life back, I don’t want to make excuses. Yes, I take ownership for making excuses and being a coward in terms of saying no to my cravings.
But I’m here now. I will not make that mistake again. That’s why I stuck with the same login. I don’t want to pretend. I am quitting. Today September 16, 2019 is day 3 of no nicotine. Tomorrow will be day 4. I’m in this to the end. No more excuses, no more “just this once”. IM DONE.
Hey - vulgar language isn't my thing either. You can read all my posts and there isn't any. I've been here every single day for 1350 days. As for others and their language...that is their choice and it is what it is...boo hoo. I can't control them or you or anyone for that matter. In fact, I'd definitely say there are times that it probably warranted, but we are getting off topic.
Vulgar language is part of every day life. It is also an excuse. That excuse can put you back to the can. That becomes a pretty crappy excuse to me. It means you would rather not read vulgar language and kill yourself instead. I'd pick reading/hearing vulgar language and life one day at a time. Plus - it is just words versus cancer in a can.
Here is how you say "I'm done"...get in here each morning, post up, get to know others, talk about your life, encourage others, go to bed and do it again the following day. Addiction isn't something that goes away...it sticks with you until you are done on this planet. This is the place to help manage that addiction. That is how it works. Tough love for the addict persona but direction for the real persona inside of you being masked by the addict persona.
Buy in...all the way - each day! Then you will be "I'm done" for the day...then do it again the next day because someone else in your family will die again at some point in your life. Don't make that the excuse to go back to the can when that day comes.
