GTFAN - Yesterday was day 11 for me. For the first 10 days, things were under control. Survived the 1st 72 hours. The "suck" was not too bad. Went back to work last Tuesday for the first time quit, and things were more difficult. I expected this, because work is where I dipped the most and the triggers are. Still, survived all last week fairly easily. Last weekend I barely noticed any craves. Then, holy crap, was yesterday. I got hit very hard. Just like your day 8. The cravings were constant and intense. Every second all I could think about was having a dip. I tried walking around the block, closing the door and meditating, seeds, gum, live chat, cussing at Nic and calling her names, etc. Finally, I just had to leave the office, go home and call it a day. This despite the fact I have a ton of work that needs doing. But staring at my computer screen in a dense fog was getting me nowhere. I could not take it anymore. Here's the point. Do whatever it takes to not cave. Understand that you have put junk into your body for years. Junk that is the most addictive substance known to man. You can't just pull it all out cold turkey and not expect days like your Day 8. They will happen, just like my Day 11. Embrace them when they come. It is your body fighting Nic and beating the crap out of her. Yesterday sucked bad for me. Just like your Day 8. But I won the day, because even though I had to leave work, I did not cave. Nor will you. Stay strong and live free. Whatever it takes. No Dip. No Nic.
