Day 11 was a very tough battle for me. Like I mentioned before I coach basketball and today was the fourth game I've coached since I quit. I thought that I had the whole post game trigger under control finally. However the difference between today and the other 3 gamedays it that today was the first time my team had loss since my quit. It was a really close game and came down to the final shot. Once I left the game I had all kinds of emotions running through my head and it took absolutely every ounce of willpower in my body not to drive to the gas station and buy a can. Instead I came home and cooked some steaks and burgers on the grill for my wife and son and tried not to be a total ass to them. Then after I finished the game was still on my mind so I told my wife "man if only I could have a chew right now" luckily for me she immediately punched me in the balls a soon as I said that. It was the only time she's ever done that, but dammit I'm glad she did haha. I managed to pull myself together and hit the gym for a long two hours of weight lifting and once I finished I the urge to dip was long gone.
It was rough today, but KTC was in my mind the whole time and I knew I had to keep my word, because if I can't keep my word everyday to you guys then there is no way I would be fit to lead a team of 9-12 graders and preach things like integrity and character. Once again I am really thankful for everyone's help here at KTC and I appreciate the opportunity to vent like this.
I am still damn proud to be quit!
Your team may have lost, but you won today.
Chew wouldn't have made your team win or lessened the blow of them losing. Don't give it so much credit.
Also why fuck up a good bbq dinner by sticking a terd in your mouth after?
Any day you keep that shit out your mouth is a win. Keep racking up W's and things get easier. I promise.
Soon your team could get run out of the gym by 50 and the only thing on your mind will be teaming them a new asshole.
Hang strong, bro. Its worth it, trust me.