Long time dipper, first time I've really had a want or will to quit forever. I've quit 1000's of times, told myself I was done in tomorrow, threw 100's of cans out of the truck window, bought only one can at a time because it was my last....I did that 100's of times, if not in the 1000's over 20 years.
I was a closet dipper too. My wife hated it. I went in the basement, DIP. I went outside, DIP. Truck, DIP. I even got away with hidding it in my lip walking through the house. I was able to watch TV and my wife have no idea SAD stuff man.
Now I'm done, It ran my life and I've had it. 8 days Nic free and i'm feeling great.