You gotta read more dude. Fan the flames of hatred. A big part of quitting is understanding your addiction. Read the Kern Family Story. Read that part about his daughter holding on to his foot in the hospital crying "don't go, daddy" as he died. I'm pretty sure the Kern family wouldn't reminisce about how much he once loved dip. In fact, I bet the mere sight of that shit in a store makes her about so goddam angry at American tobacco companies that she could just shit.
An important part of quitting is understanding your addiction. I hear what you're saying...I know you THINK you loved Copenshit. I thought that too. But you didn't. We loved nicotine. We loved the routine of getting our fixes...nothing else.
It is okay to admit...all of the badass quitters on here were once where you are. That is part of the mindfuck of addiction. Try the fake stuff. It tastes equally as awful as Copenshit did when you first stuffed it in your lip at camp or in high school or whatever, but without the nic. I bet you quit dipping that crap too. It has nothing to hook you. It is just honest to goodness crap to stick in you face so you look fat-lipped and stupid and spit alot...or was looking stupid and carrying around a cup of your own spit what you enjoyed?
Stay strong, stay quit, brother. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!