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[Croakenhagen]

Thanks Gents. For the name Daddy_shark - I wish I could change it but if any of you have kids, you can probably guess where it came from. They're all cheering me on and this is the name I got.

DS, Shark, Brian, I don't care - call me fat/ugly just don't call me a dipper anymore because I'm done man. F-this stuff.

I know they say to do it for yourself, and I am, but holy shit if there's not a million other Gosh Darn reasons to do it as well. I just got done reading that Jenny/Tom (?) story and it spoke to me as I'm sure it did everyone else. Yeah, he had 6 amazing reasons to quit. 4 for kids 1 for his wife and 1 for himself. That story, obviously made me think of me. I'm done man, I'm done ....period...end of story. F-This.

I just hope the quit ain't too late.

Man, you definitely have the right mindset to make this a successful quit. Keep that up! Your introduction reminds me of why I quit as well. I still deal with anxiety and touches of depression, you are not alone here! Reach out if you need anything. Be proud you that you put yourself and family first ahead of addiction!

[Daddy_shark]

Thanks Gents. For the name Daddy_shark - I wish I could change it but if any of you have kids, you can probably guess where it came from. They're all cheering me on and this is the name I got.

DS, Shark, Brian, I don't care - call me fat/ugly just don't call me a dipper anymore because I'm done man. F-this stuff.

I know they say to do it for yourself, and I am, but holy shit if there's not a million other Gosh Darn reasons to do it as well. I just got done reading that Jenny/Tom (?) story and it spoke to me as I'm sure it did everyone else. Yeah, he had 6 amazing reasons to quit. 4 for kids 1 for his wife and 1 for himself. That story, obviously made me think of me. I'm done man, I'm done ....period...end of story. F-This.

I just hope the quit ain't too late.

[Capital70]

Shark that intro was epic! Love your honesty! I too have some wicked anxiety but together we can do this! IÂ’m sending you my number. Use it whenever you need it!

[rfweezy]

Agreed that it does get better, but you have moments where you think it won't. Those feelings come in waves. Make note of them over time and if they decrease in intensity, duration, or consistency then count that as a win. I experienced a lot of anxiety, enough to go to the doctor because it was disrupting my work, sleep, social life, etc. That is VERY common. I ended up getting some low dose medication that I hardly used, but it was nice knowing I had something if it got unbearable. I also talked to professionals, mental health is no joke. Don't try and get through something alone. I noticed a fairly sharp change at about a month, but timing is different for everyone. I look back at some of the thoughts I had in the first few weeks and they were pretty irrational. Just get through this one day at a time and it WILL get better. Like I said, there will be moments when that doesn't seem possible, but if you ask anyone around here they will say the same thing. Best of luck in your journey, use the November quitters as accountability and the veterans as a resource.

[Broccoli-saurus]

Yes it gets better. Yes, it's going to take some time to get there. You did all this damage to your body. It takes a good bit for your body to get right again. What I can tell you is you'll wind up feeling and being better than you ever thought possible, and better than your pre-dip memories....eventually. Going to take some work and some one day at a time mental attitude. Mine got better around a year quit. Guess how I got to a year? One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time. Developed relationships and got involved here. You can do this, you just have to want to bad enough. Go post roll in Nov '18 and take your life back.

[BubbaM]

Check your PM. Top right. I know exactly how you feel about anxiety and the emotions. Same boat here. My digits are on the way.

DonÂ’t by a whimp either. If you need to talk just text me.

[SRains918]

I've been dip free for approximately 2 weeks.
NICOTINE free for 3 days. It sucks, I have no other way to describe it.

My anxiety is through the roof and I'm having a hard time telling what is the reason for it anymore, I'm going to give quite a bit of information here and please, if it's too long, just roll on by. I feel though that to give the background is worth mentioning because life is very difficult right now.

June 8th I had a vasectomy. Felt pretty solid - was still dipping, heavy user of alcohol, etc.
July 18th noticed a lump on my right one, had an ultrasound, turned out it was scar tissue from the surgery.
Later July I noticed an enlarged lymph-node under my chin (I assume it's cancer ... lost my mom when she was 44 to BC) - turns out nothing.

That day I said I'm done. There's no reason to have this stress in my life when I'm purposefully trying to live for my wife and kids, I need to do this for me. I started with the Nicotine gum for about 2 weeks or so and did pretty well. Honestly, it wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be. What I quickly noticed though is that the nicotine gum is basically dip. You chew it, then "park it" aka DIP IT for about a half hour. It that after those few days that I found this site and a post in which someone said something to the effect of, "I can go to war but I can't fight dip?! WTF"
Well that's me. I started dipping in Iraq and 13 years late here I am.
I'm on day 3 though, and it sucks.

I can't tell what's my PTSD from the service vs. what's the anxiety from the surgery (vas.) which is a real thing, vs what's the anxiety from the lack of drinking (yeah I'm trying to quit that too) and what's the anxiety from the nicotine. I'm a walking ball of fucking anxiety twine. I cry at the drop of a hat, I don't want to get out of bed, I'm quite literally miserable for most of the day, can't dip (WONT DIP), want a drink / won't. FUCK!


Tell me this gets better?

Thanks-
Daddy_shark

Shark (sorry man, I just can't bring myself to call you "daddy") - yes, at some point things will get better. That's what you wanted to hear, right?

The thing is, this is going to absolutely SUCK until one day it doesn't. That's probably the part you didn't want to hear, right?


The first thing you need to do now that you're completely nic and NRT free is post roll with your November quit group here. There are a bunch of badass quitters and supporters that post up in there daily, and they can help you along this journey.

This site is pretty straightforward, and you'll get out of it what you put in. This is the minimum:

1) Wake up
2) Piss
3) Post roll (your promise to Quit for today)
4) Repeat daily

If you do those four things you will QUIT. Simple, right? Except where it's not...

KTC is built on Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

This means that the more Brotherhood you have (posting and interacting online, opening up to your quit brothers/sisters) and the more Accountability you have (texting, talking to others, meeting others, keeping each other involved and helping each other) the greater your Success will be. We're here to help and support each other, and that's a HUGE part of why we're successful as quitters with the site.


As far as the anxiety goes, every one of us is a little different. Some people don't struggle with it as much. Some people (like me) feel like it's crushing at times. I know I spent a few days quite literally balled up on my sofa watching (sort of) football and feeling like I wanted to absolutely give up. This isn't the place for expert advice as far as that goes, but by getting involved and reading and researching on the site I'm pretty sure you'll find that you're not different from anyone else. We all pretty much go through the same things at the same time, albeit with different degrees of intensity.

It is INCREDIBLY important that you make sure you're taken care of with regard to your mental health though, so don't be afraid to reach out to a professional (in fact, I highly recommend it if your anxiety is that crushing). There's no shame in taking prescription meds to help quit - many addictions like nicotine happen as coping mechanisms for other things. With that gone, you will need to find another way to resolve those issues.

I really didn't mean to ramble on this long. Hopefully you have enough info to get going. I'm going to PM you my contact info (look in the top right of the window when you're scrolled all the way up for your inbox). I highly encourage you to reach out to your fellow quitters in November as well as some of the bad-ass vets that are supporting them.

Welcome to KTC!

SRains918 (Steve)

[Daddy_shark]

I've been dip free for approximately 2 weeks.
NICOTINE free for 3 days. It sucks, I have no other way to describe it.

My anxiety is through the roof and I'm having a hard time telling what is the reason for it anymore, I'm going to give quite a bit of information here and please, if it's too long, just roll on by. I feel though that to give the background is worth mentioning because life is very difficult right now.

June 8th I had a vasectomy. Felt pretty solid - was still dipping, heavy user of alcohol, etc.
July 18th noticed a lump on my right one, had an ultrasound, turned out it was scar tissue from the surgery.
Later July I noticed an enlarged lymph-node under my chin (I assume it's cancer ... lost my mom when she was 44 to BC) - turns out nothing.

That day I said I'm done. There's no reason to have this stress in my life when I'm purposefully trying to live for my wife and kids, I need to do this for me. I started with the Nicotine gum for about 2 weeks or so and did pretty well. Honestly, it wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be. What I quickly noticed though is that the nicotine gum is basically dip. You chew it, then "park it" aka DIP IT for about a half hour. It that after those few days that I found this site and a post in which someone said something to the effect of, "I can go to war but I can't fight dip?! WTF"
Well that's me. I started dipping in Iraq and 13 years late here I am.
I'm on day 3 though, and it sucks.

I can't tell what's my PTSD from the service vs. what's the anxiety from the surgery (vas.) which is a real thing, vs what's the anxiety from the lack of drinking (yeah I'm trying to quit that too) and what's the anxiety from the nicotine. I'm a walking ball of fucking anxiety twine. I cry at the drop of a hat, I don't want to get out of bed, I'm quite literally miserable for most of the day, can't dip (WONT DIP), want a drink / won't. FUCK!


Tell me this gets better?

Thanks-
Daddy_shark