Sheriff,
Well since I was one of the first to reach out to you and offer support I took the time and read through everything in your intro today, checked on your posting percentage and damn man. I sure as fuck hope if you really quit this time that you actually get into the water in lieu of just dipping a damn toe in it. Any excuse you could give is all addict babble bullshit. As a lawman and a father you should be a role model, step the fuck up and do it this time. Life is going to happen and will continue no matter the circumstance. During my quit I have had several things happen that made me contemplate "just one, just for a minute" but the difference between you and I is that I didn't give into temptation.
Sure people are going to be hard on you but that is because all of us want the same outcome, you being quit. If you really want it this time, then answer these three questions and don't answer them for any of us, answer them for your own edification and understanding. You owe it to your old, group, your new group and all of your voluntary supporters. I stand beside you still as I want to see you quit, and in this battle against nicotine no one gets left behind.
1. What happened?
2. Why did it happen?
3. What are you going to do differently this time?