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[Dagranger]

Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.

Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.

Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.

Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.

Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.

Great stuff Brad. Keep up the good work. Sounds like you are on a great path.

Quit with you

Nice Brad, good to hear you're still around.

[FMBM707]

Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.

Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.

Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.

Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.

Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.

Great stuff Brad. Keep up the good work. Sounds like you are on a great path.

Quit with you

[bradf]

Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.

Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.

Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.

Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.

Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.

[FMBM707]

Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.

Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.

Quit on, one day at a time.

I quit with You Today Brad!!
Congratulations on Your 100 day milestone. Big stones you have there Mr. Quitter!
Proud of You.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period

Belated congrats on 100 Brad! Proud to be quit with you

[30isEnuff]

Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.

Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.

Quit on, one day at a time.

I quit with You Today Brad!!
Congratulations on Your 100 day milestone. Big stones you have there Mr. Quitter!
Proud of You.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period

[bradf]

Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.

Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.

Quit on, one day at a time.

[30isEnuff]

Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.

- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office

Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.

ODAAT

Keep fighting the good fight. Keep your head up things will turn around. Quit with you.

I quit with You today. All day.
Nicotine never did us any good.
Quittin' does us a world of good!

[FMBM707]

Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.

- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office

Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.

ODAAT

Keep fighting the good fight. Keep your head up things will turn around. Quit with you.

[bradf]

Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.

- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office

Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.

ODAAT

[30isEnuff]

Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.

You are re-wiring for "the better".
The poison robbed us of many things, including who we really are and what we are really capable of accomplishing. I'm living proof. You're doing it. Just keep doing it. Keep learning and re-wiring to this great poisonless life. Keep posting roll and learn to forgive yourself and be very gentle and forgiving of those in your life. I knows it sounds ghey, but Love really does work. She cares or she wouldn't be there, period

[Dagranger]

Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.

I remember those days. Really tough, you are solid in your quit but you can't get over the fucking funk. Only thing I can say is it will pass, so keep grinding Brad.

[Mthomas3824]

Keep the faith!

[bradf]

Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.

[Tuco]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.

21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.

Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).

Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.

Some well-earned peace of mind. Seems light years from Day 1, doesn't it? Taking back that control, bit by bit.

Quit with you today, Brad.

[FMBM707]

Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.

Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.

Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.

On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.

Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.

You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'

Nice work.

Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.

I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.

Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.

Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.

21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.

Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).

Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.

Great to here the test results came back good. Keep that filter clean and enjoy the freedom from nicotine. ODAAT. Quit with you!