And tomorrow more bad shit will happen, and Wednesday becomes March 2017 and so on and so forth. Been there, done that.
Dude, you and I are addicts, and you know what addicts are good at? Lying to ourselves. I lied to myself and my wife every time I "stopped" using dip, until the next bad day came and I stuffed poison in my mouth.
Bad days will always happen.
The only thing that ever worked for me was to trust this site, go cold turkey, and quit.