Hi guys,
My name is Ryan, and I have been dipping for a little bit over a year now. I had tried it before that year started rarely doing it but started big my senior year of wrestling when I had to cut a lot of weight. Never been proud of it, always hiding it from my friends and family. It started by just doing it once a week on Thursdays when I would get home late after school, practice, and work. Then it became a bigger habit.
By the time I got to college, it got even worse. The beginning of the semester I did not do it for probably the first 3 weeks then I started again cause a friend offered me a lip. Then I started buying my own and doing it while I studied. Then I started attributing my good grades on exams and stuff to a stupid superstition that, "I do really well on exams when I dip." but I hardly ever gave myself a chance not to study without dipping. I'm on Christmas break and I told myself it would be a perfect time to quit. And I am a week away from school and I still haven't quit. I think I am going to be straight up with my parents and tell them about this tonight. I had a dip in today and just thought and felt ashamed that I threw it out and started looking. Found this place, and I know I can't say today is my quit day, but right now is when I start. And I want to quit. Bad.
Thanks, I guess it just feels nice to get it out there.