Am I normal?

[Sportsfan231]

congrats on 12th floor friend.. 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'

[Mthomas3824]

I am sure most of us have lied when we were using ..... The best part
of quitting is not lying....

We all do the same shit. My journey of quit has been a victory. A victory as a result of facing the pain and facts of reality and living life on life's terms.

So many debates on labeling addiction as a disease vs lack of willpower.

Addiction is a disease. What is a disease? Well it's chronic, it reveals itself with the same signs and symptoms. If left untreated, it can lead to death.

Lying is one symptom. KTC will teach you how to treat your illness.
Just like a diabetic that needs to take an insulin shot, you need to be a man of your word.
If you can post roll(make a promise), keep that promise. Knowing your promise made is only today.
(The diAbetic doesn't know blood sugar levels tomorrow they only know today's)

Make a daily promise by posting roll, keep that promise. Don't sweat being quit tomorrow next week or for life. Just quit today. When you wake and have a new today repeat.

Alway a diabetic just like always an addict. Daily treatments then live your life. Honesty is one sign you are in recovery.

Recovery is nice. Hurts at times but less of a burden and more healthy for you and relationships.

[Quitforsoj]

I am sure most of us have lied when we were using ..... The best part
of quitting is not lying....

[cbird65]

Half Comma bumpage

[Scowick65]

CWC is right. You are no different than him, or me, or 90+ % of the folks here.

Why is my instinct to weasel my way out of it?

You, sir, are an addict.

Once you come to grips with that fact, your mindset will change. Your mindset has to change. Nicotine is not a habit or any other thing. It is, in fact, one of the most addictive and dangerous substances in today's society. We all addicts of the worst kind. There is no other reason we would hurt, deceive, and mislead the people who love us most.

One other correction: you have never quit, period. Not cold turkey or any other way. You took a few breaks. You have to committ to "never again". It can be done one day at a time, but we, as addicts, can never have "just one" again. You have proven that to yourself, now you have to choose to accept that fact. It took me a while, but I finally shut the door.

I hope you are beginning to see how serious we are about this. For the first few months, quitting has to be the foremost thing in a persons's world. After 2 years, I am still a quitter before all else. Every day.

Reach out if you need any help.

Yea, you are normal. Here is something to read. It is called the law of addiction. It is as true as the law of gravity. It explains why you and I, we, can never have a dip again. We are addicts.

http://www.killthecan.org/robs/law.asp

Know who you are, an addict, and know you only have to quit today. The rest takes care of itself.

[Radman]

CWC is right. You are no different than him, or me, or 90+ % of the folks here.

Why is my instinct to weasel my way out of it?

You, sir, are an addict.

Once you come to grips with that fact, your mindset will change. Your mindset has to change. Nicotine is not a habit or any other thing. It is, in fact, one of the most addictive and dangerous substances in today's society. We all addicts of the worst kind. There is no other reason we would hurt, deceive, and mislead the people who love us most.

One other correction: you have never quit, period. Not cold turkey or any other way. You took a few breaks. You have to committ to "never again". It can be done one day at a time, but we, as addicts, can never have "just one" again. You have proven that to yourself, now you have to choose to accept that fact. It took me a while, but I finally shut the door.

I hope you are beginning to see how serious we are about this. For the first few months, quitting has to be the foremost thing in a persons's world. After 2 years, I am still a quitter before all else. Every day.

Reach out if you need any help.

[copingwithoutcopen]

Hey Dip,
You'll soon notice a common theme running through all of these threads. We're all addicts. There was a time we would put nothing before our need for the nicotine fix, not our relationships, not our kids and not our livelihoods. You are no different then anyone else here except one thing...
We posted a promise to each other and ourselves to not ingest nicotine in any form today while I don't see your post in the January'13 Quit group. Take a look at the Welcome Center tab in the upper left corner and post up.
We post the promise, stick to it and repeat the next day... Honor your word.
If you do this for you and let nothing get in your way you'll be successful.
Send me a PM if you've got any questions or need help posting roll.
Welcome to the Suck!

My apologies, I missed your post initially. Nice job and welcome again!

[copingwithoutcopen]

Hey Dip,
You'll soon notice a common theme running through all of these threads. We're all addicts. There was a time we would put nothing before our need for the nicotine fix, not our relationships, not our kids and not our livelihoods. You are no different then anyone else here except one thing...
We posted a promise to each other and ourselves to not ingest nicotine in any form today while I don't see your post in the January'13 Quit group. Take a look at the Welcome Center tab in the upper left corner and post up.
We post the promise, stick to it and repeat the next day... Honor your word.
If you do this for you and let nothing get in your way you'll be successful.
Send me a PM if you've got any questions or need help posting roll.
Welcome to the Suck!

[DipThis]

Hello All,

I first started dipping when I was 19. I think I may have tried it once or twice in high school, but never on a regular basis. When I was 19, I started to really do it. Dipped my way through work, college, and more work. Occasionally, I would "take a break" from it. But by the time I was 25, I took a break from my breaks. Finally, when I was about 36 or so, I quit cold turkey. But, occasionally, I would have small relapses and do it for a little while.

You see, around that time I got married. And since then I've had a son. Both excellent reasons to stay off the stuff. But I occasionally would find an urge, or an excuse to dip. I figured, as long as no one knows, I'm not hurting anybody. However, I am not destined to do any master spy work, for I never truly "erased my tracks" and would get questioned by my wife. And I'd lie about it. Emphatically deny what I knew to be true. My wife is not stupid. She presses. I'm stupid. I lie some more. She presses. I admit that I've done it. Fireworks ensue. She does not like dip. She does not want me to do it. But what she really can't abide, is my lying about it. Why is my instinct to weasel my way out of it?

So, I have to quit quit. That means quit for good. I can't undermine my family's trust over a ground up leaf in a little plastic can, even if they do put tin lids on all of them now. I just can't.

Interested to know if this struck a cord with anyone else. Have you gone back to the can and lied about it?

Best to all,
DipThis