Day 38. Glad to report that there has been no big drama. The fake dip has been useful when I needed to get over the hump, but the humps are fewer and further between now. I do always keep some fake, some jerky chew, and some gum near me or on me at all times. The post-food cravings are the only ones that seem to be more consistent and insistent now. I HATE how quickly that crave will come up occasionally, and I find that's when I use my fake the most. As long as it gets me through, I'm ok.
Emotional ups and downs are still there. Not sure how much they were there before or if they are tied to the dip as I probably just used the dip to push through in the past, so could be that they are consistent with before quitting but I'm just dealing with them head on more at the moment.
Ties to family seem stronger, and I'm taking the time to make them that way.
Grumpy....yep....at times.
Dreams....more than I remember lately...only occasional nic dreams.
Uncertainty and weird thoughts of my worthiness as a person, husband, father....occasionally and they come out of nowhere.
The more I think about it, the more I think it's just this thing called LIFE, and not using the nic bitch as a crutch just makes me notice it more these days? Not sure about that theory yet. Been focused on quitting, my family, and my girls that I coach in hs, and things are good.
Solid, reliable, and somewhat boring.....and I'm slowly getting used to that being ok....I think.
