It sounds like you really have a handle on this.
Why do you need our help?
BTW...What group were you in before? When you say " a few years ago", when?
It is wasting our time if you don't really want to quit because quitting is your decision alone. We can help, but we can't make you. You have to do this and I (for example) don't like to have people have my back if they aren't fully committed.
I wouldn't necessarily say that I have a handle on it. If I did I wouldn't have started back up. I contain it yes, but I don't have it all the way gone. I'm hoping to get help through the stress part and that will assist with the can. Unless you have any other suggestions????
Learn from the past-Learn why you failed last time. Tell us about your specific failure (i.e. how long you were away from the site before you failed, your specific cave, etc.). Tell us why you failed. And, finally, tell us what you are doing differently this time. The past is the past, and we cannot change it. We can only learn from our mistakes.
Quit for today.-Just put your promise down on roll call and do everything you can to stay quit today.
Fuck the future-Tomorrow doesn't matter if you can't get to it by staying quit today.
We all will fail when left to our own devices. That's why we come here. From your profiles, I can deduct that you are a police officer. Much respect man, but in order to succeed here you've got to understand that you just don't have this. The minute that you think you do, you become too overconfident. That's the moment your ADDICTED brain starts the process of returning to the drug.
You state that you "don't really want to quit", and I contest you are either lying with those words, or you are wasting our times. There was an old 80s movie called "Eddie and the Cruisers" where they dwelled on the importance of "Words" and "Music" coming together to make something special.
This forum is your words. It is your promise to yourself and to us that you will stay quit today. It is a reminder that boredom, forgetfullness, and complacency are all quit killers.
Your actions are the music. Anybody can promise to stay quit. It takes a true badass to keep your word. You can limp through it, or you can fucking own this. It's your choice.
Words and music man. Words and music.
Please contact an admin about resetting your old account, go to the March 2009 group and explain to them what happened, and post roll in January 2013 with a similar explanation.
I got your back, but ONLY IF YOU ARE SERIOUS.