It's day 2, and this couldn't suck any more at the moment. I'm sitting at work with absolutely zero foucs, the nic bitch just keeps running through my mind, and the funny part is as much as I want to cave right now. I posted roll this morning and will whole heartedly stick to it. I have no idea why, i don't know any of you for shit as yesterday was my first post (that I basically was torn a new one for because i worded it poorly), maybe its just because my story isn't all that far off from a lot of those that I have read.
I never did post my intro yesterday, so here goes. When I think back on it I really have no idea why the fuck I even started. I must have thought it was cool at the time.
I was 15 my buddy on the lax team had stolen a can of cope from the grocery store. He took it home, put in a dip while taking a shit, and proceeded to puke his guts out.
And yet having never done it before and hearing his story. I still took the can off him.
I never did like cope, was more of a skoal man throughout highschool, then went off to college and money for booze was more important so cut back on the expensive shit down to the red seal, timberwolf, and rooster.
Then before I knew it the only thing I was using on a daily basis was wintergreen griz (what i have deemed the absolute scum of the dip world) I mean I might as well have just been sticking straight fiberglass in my mouth.
I've tried to quit numerous times throughout the years, the longest i ever made it was 13 days before a cave. I've read, and read, and read some more and will continue to do so. I have been back and forth on KTC since 2006 (however the last time I was here the site looked nothing like it does today)
I know i'm just rambling at this point, but i oddly feel better from just bitching it all out.
Day by day I plan to honor my roll call. and apprecaite the support i have received so far.
'bang head' 'na na' 'bang head' 'na na' 'bang head' 'na na' 'bang head' 'na na' 'bang head' 'na na' 'bang head'