Yep you guys are right. I'll toss it when I get to the truck today. I just had someone at the job throw me a can... I threw it back and I'm working on talking him into quitting
Dude.
You really need to get your head around this quickly.
You are quit.
I know it's day 2, but day 2 is/was one of my worst memories I've ever had. I was punch drunk by the end of the day and exhausted physically and mentally. If I had a can available that night, who the fuck knows what would have happened.
As my friends the 3 ballers say, "This much quit doesn't happen by accident".
Live for your quit. Plan from your quit. Learn from your mistakes.
(1) You stated that one of the hardest things is "70 mile drive each way is a tough battle" (YOUR WORDS). And, NOW, you are telling us you are keeping a log right there next to you. That's like me saying I keep my glok in my 4 year old's room. Stupid move, man. Stupid.
(2) You stated that last time " was working one day and someone handed me a pouch and I said ah one won't hurt and I was right back in" (YOUR WORDS). And, NOW, you are telling us that you were thrown a can at work? Take this the fuck seriously. Everybody who is anybody (and then some) knows that I am quit. That can would be pounded into their head if they did that to me. If that's too violent for you, simply don't catch it. Let it fly past you as you give a dirty look.
Then, pull down your pants and shit on the can.
No. I'm not going to let you go on this. I understand that 2 days is badass but it is such a small amount of time that you are still relying on your own stupid judgement that got you to this addicted point you are in now. We've been where you are. We know the route out. We are here to help. You are not special.
You can do this, but you NEED to want it. You NEED to want it even when you don't want it.