New and Day 1

[Scottm1682]

I've made my mind up. I'm getting up early to cook some bacon and eggs for the old lady, going to jump in the suburban and head on down the road to see my family. I talked to my dad tonight, it was his sister that passed away. He didn't ask me if I was coming but rather what te I would be there, then told me how him and my mom have been sick this week. With all of that said I just need to go and be with them. Depending on how the evening goes I might just stay down that way for the night and come home Sunday but we will see on that. I'm still strong and I can still take more... I might not be superman but I'll be damned if I stop trying!!

Nothing is more important than time spent with family and loved ones. PM me your number if you need someone to post roll for you so you can focus on the family stuff.

Thank you. I was able to post early before I hit the road, wasn't able to get on and keep updated over the weekend. I got to see a lot of family that I have not seen in a long long time, heck some cousins I never met before. I went to the early viewing and decided to go home after that to spend some time with my wife. Thins have been so busy and crazy at the same time we have not spent much time together. So here it is 4 pm I'm 2 hours from home and call her... Hey want to camp tonight? So we wound up hiking a couple miles up the mountain set up camp in the dark and stayed in the woods. It's been so long since I have done that. It brought back so many memories sitting by the fire. My wife wound up getting too cold so I have her my sleeping bag and mat then went out to build a fire to keep warm. I say by that little fire almost all night reflecting on the past 31 years of my life. The good the bad the joys the losses and you know the only time I thought about chew was when I was thinking about an old friend of mine riding in my jeep with me, I was trying to teach him how to pack a fresh can of cope with the seal just cut... Well I could see but he grabbed the can upside down, went to snap and the cope flew right into the defrost vent on the dash which was turned on high so it blew all over everything including in ours eyes. I laughed for a bit by the fire, not missing the cope but the good times with my buddies.

[Ajacks23]

I've made my mind up. I'm getting up early to cook some bacon and eggs for the old lady, going to jump in the suburban and head on down the road to see my family. I talked to my dad tonight, it was his sister that passed away. He didn't ask me if I was coming but rather what te I would be there, then told me how him and my mom have been sick this week. With all of that said I just need to go and be with them. Depending on how the evening goes I might just stay down that way for the night and come home Sunday but we will see on that. I'm still strong and I can still take more... I might not be superman but I'll be damned if I stop trying!!

Nothing is more important than time spent with family and loved ones. PM me your number if you need someone to post roll for you so you can focus on the family stuff.

[Scottm1682]

I've made my mind up. I'm getting up early to cook some bacon and eggs for the old lady, going to jump in the suburban and head on down the road to see my family. I talked to my dad tonight, it was his sister that passed away. He didn't ask me if I was coming but rather what te I would be there, then told me how him and my mom have been sick this week. With all of that said I just need to go and be with them. Depending on how the evening goes I might just stay down that way for the night and come home Sunday but we will see on that. I'm still strong and I can still take more... I might not be superman but I'll be damned if I stop trying!!

[cdaniels]

Awesome Cd I'll have to shoot you a text sometime.


Gotta love it when things start falling in place.

yes sir

[Scottm1682]

Awesome Cd I'll have to shoot you a text sometime.


Gotta love it when things start falling in place.

[cdaniels]

I hope you are doing better with your anxiety. I sent you my number in a pm if you want it. Keep us posted on the Doctor visit coming up.

Thank you will do. I'm not much of a talker these days because of my voice, I usually just try to text or send emails to avoid phone calls with the questions hey are you sick? Or man you have sounded like that for a while now... Think the chew cought up with you? Tomorrow there is a viewing for my aunt that passed away from cancer, it's sad that I am actually debating on going just so I won't have to talk or explain what's going on. I mean it's all family so I shouldn't care but at this point I am carrying all of this burden. My wife knows to some extent what's in my head but not half of it. I've always been the type to just keep stacking and piling things on I can take it. I'm stronger and I can take it. I thought of myself as invincible and in my mind I was. I always said ah cancer who cares I won't live long enough for that to hit me. By 21 most of my friends from high school were dead and I just knew the way I was running it would be long for me. I always said ill never see 21, then no way I'll see 25. Well at about 23 I was the last one standing, how could it be that everyone close to me was gone. At that point I shut out everyone for years. I have so many stories about screwed up stuff half of the people that hears them don't believe me then the other half say I'm lucky to be alive and must have an Angel watching over me. Well I hope that's true and she is holding on tight for this battle. You know the half that don't believe me usually come around after they hear someone else tell my story because they were there. It took my wife a couple months but after a while she said well I guess you are not a liar. Well I've rambled on long enough time to get back to work.

This site is amazing in so many ways brother. I know your life way to well even not knowing the details just what you have said is plenty. I never thought I would live to see 30 but hear I am. Life has a way of bring together what needs to be. I truely believe that. So with that said with out my details my number is there if you want to text. I will have you in my prayers and thoughts. Go or not go I have been in that spot several times these past few years. Sometimes I went others I did not. Peace on you my friend

[Scottm1682]

I hope you are doing better with your anxiety. I sent you my number in a pm if you want it. Keep us posted on the Doctor visit coming up.

Thank you will do. I'm not much of a talker these days because of my voice, I usually just try to text or send emails to avoid phone calls with the questions hey are you sick? Or man you have sounded like that for a while now... Think the chew cought up with you? Tomorrow there is a viewing for my aunt that passed away from cancer, it's sad that I am actually debating on going just so I won't have to talk or explain what's going on. I mean it's all family so I shouldn't care but at this point I am carrying all of this burden. My wife knows to some extent what's in my head but not half of it. I've always been the type to just keep stacking and piling things on I can take it. I'm stronger and I can take it. I thought of myself as invincible and in my mind I was. I always said ah cancer who cares I won't live long enough for that to hit me. By 21 most of my friends from high school were dead and I just knew the way I was running it would be long for me. I always said ill never see 21, then no way I'll see 25. Well at about 23 I was the last one standing, how could it be that everyone close to me was gone. At that point I shut out everyone for years. I have so many stories about screwed up stuff half of the people that hears them don't believe me then the other half say I'm lucky to be alive and must have an Angel watching over me. Well I hope that's true and she is holding on tight for this battle. You know the half that don't believe me usually come around after they hear someone else tell my story because they were there. It took my wife a couple months but after a while she said well I guess you are not a liar. Well I've rambled on long enough time to get back to work.

[cdaniels]

I hope you are doing better with your anxiety. I sent you my number in a pm if you want it. Keep us posted on the Doctor visit coming up.

[Scottm1682]

I'm at 25 days now still quit- I have been cutting back in the seeds and candies. I'd really like to get some fake but battling myself to not at the same time. Sometimes I grab a tea bag and toss it in lol or chew some loose tea... It's actually pretty tasty like that.

Awesome job! I tried Smokey Mountain, but it just didn't do it for me; made me want a REAL dip even more. So I tossed the can. Seeds and gum, mainly gum, have worked much better for me. Plus, gum has the added bonus of not screwing up my mouth. I quit with you today!

Wade you were the first to text me and you stay up on it... Thank you for keeping up with me and keeping me going this far.

[Wade]

I'm at 25 days now still quit- I have been cutting back in the seeds and candies. I'd really like to get some fake but battling myself to not at the same time. Sometimes I grab a tea bag and toss it in lol or chew some loose tea... It's actually pretty tasty like that.

Awesome job! I tried Smokey Mountain, but it just didn't do it for me; made me want a REAL dip even more. So I tossed the can. Seeds and gum, mainly gum, have worked much better for me. Plus, gum has the added bonus of not screwing up my mouth. I quit with you today!

[srans]

I'm at 25 days now still quit- I have been cutting back in the seeds and candies. I'd really like to get some fake but battling myself to not at the same time. Sometimes I grab a tea bag and toss it in lol or chew some loose tea... It's actually pretty tasty like that.

Great job

Great job Scottm.. I'm on day 57 and I'm feeling so much better than when I was on day 25. I was getting to many sores in my mouth. Had to calm down with candy and fake. My mouth is a lot better now that i'm not using the fake. The fake really helped at the beginning though and if I couldn't control a crave,, i wouldn't hesitate to buy me a plastic can of smokey mountain. Stay quit my friend,, you are inspiring me everyday with your quit!!

[Scowick65]

I'm at 25 days now still quit- I have been cutting back in the seeds and candies. I'd really like to get some fake but battling myself to not at the same time. Sometimes I grab a tea bag and toss it in lol or chew some loose tea... It's actually pretty tasty like that.

Great job

[Scottm1682]

I'm at 25 days now still quit- I have been cutting back in the seeds and candies. I'd really like to get some fake but battling myself to not at the same time. Sometimes I grab a tea bag and toss it in lol or chew some loose tea... It's actually pretty tasty like that.

[Scottm1682]

Crossed the three mark and still QLF. Just noticed my jeans still have ring in the back pocket. I think I need to get some new pants to get rid of the branding.

[Scottm1682]

21 days! Busy crazy schedule keeps my clean.

Made my dr appointment to get my throat checked out...not going to be fun at all.

At least you are not going to that appointment still chewing!

Exactly! And that's such an awesome thing. Your throat is 21 days better.

I hear you, hopefully tge damage isnt too bad. Man what a stupid thing I was doing. I should have listened to everyone when I was growing up. Friday I got a call that my Aunt was put in hospice given a month or two, Sunday I got a call that she passed away in the morning. I know she had issues with lung cancer from smoking but I think it wound up spreading to her throat... And here I am can't half talk, sore throat and who knows what's wrong with me. All the more reason to stay quit