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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #14 on: March 17, 2013, 04:30:00 PM »
My brother dipped straight coffee grounds, and there is a trick you can do with tea bags (I haven't tried it.) where they can be used effectively.

Here's the thing:

DON'T GET CAUGHT WITH YOUR PANTS AROUND YOUR ANKLES!!!!

You fucking quit the moment you decided to quit, and we told you that your roll post is a way to "plan" to be quit. You post roll and say you will be quit, and you take the fucking steps to stay quit.

The first few days of my quit I planned out every moment. In fact, it was Fourth of July weekend and I went as far as NOT DRINKING AND TELLING MY SON WE COULD CAMP OUTSIDE THAT NIGHT SO HE'D PULL MY ARM OUT OF THE SOCKET TO GET HOME AT DUSK. I made sure (and still make sure) to have seeds or gum or fake stuff somewhere accessible at my house or my office.

I also tell EVERYBODY that when you are looking for herbal snuff, please call ahead. I know I may not have survived walking up to a nic counter on day 3 and being told there was none.

But don't just act like the shit just fell into your mouth when this option was out the window. You chose to use it. No more. Make that decision.

You are not a feather in the wind.

Get some fucking control.

I'll be watching.
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #13 on: March 17, 2013, 03:13:00 PM »
Quote from: Ducatirider98110
I apologize to all of my KTC brothers that I let down in August.  I hit an extremely tough crave, jumped on KTC for support, was told to get some fake, ran around town looking for fake and no one carried it.  I caved.

Fair enough to ask what I learned from my last quit.  0) setting a quit date is a joke.  now is the time to quit.  1) KTC gives me a tool to be accountable daily to my self and others 2) nic replacements are BS.  For me, quitting nicotine is all or nothing. 3) don't underestimate the power of the psychological component of this addiction.  The physical is really a very small hurdle.  After 30 years of conditioning, having a back-up of fake to overcome my Pavlov trigger response is key moving forward. 4) this addiction will kill me, if it hasn't already and I truly want to live a life free from addiction

Moving forward I am quitting with a vengeance and posting daily.  I'm done putting tobacco poison in my face.  Thanks to the information on KTC, I'm also stocked-up on fake to help manage the conditioned response component of this addiction.  If I have to stuff tea leaves in my lip to get through a rough patch, so be it.

Scott
For the benefit of others ... The first 2 days when I didn't yet have herbal chew, I soaked peach herbal tea leaves in a little water and put those in my cheek.

Yes, the oral and psychological parts of quitting are the devil aren't they!

Thanks for posting. Happy Birthday tomorrow. I quit with you today.

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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #12 on: March 17, 2013, 01:19:00 PM »
I apologize to all of my KTC brothers that I let down in August. I hit an extremely tough crave, jumped on KTC for support, was told to get some fake, ran around town looking for fake and no one carried it. I caved.

Fair enough to ask what I learned from my last quit. 0) setting a quit date is a joke. now is the time to quit. 1) KTC gives me a tool to be accountable daily to my self and others 2) nic replacements are BS. For me, quitting nicotine is all or nothing. 3) don't underestimate the power of the psychological component of this addiction. The physical is really a very small hurdle. After 30 years of conditioning, having a back-up of fake to overcome my Pavlov trigger response is key moving forward. 4) this addiction will kill me, if it hasn't already and I truly want to live a life free from addiction

Moving forward I am quitting with a vengeance and posting daily. I'm done putting tobacco poison in my face. Thanks to the information on KTC, I'm also stocked-up on fake to help manage the conditioned response component of this addiction. If I have to stuff tea leaves in my lip to get through a rough patch, so be it.

Scott
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #11 on: March 16, 2013, 10:32:00 PM »
Guess the dude has it all figured out this time? I guess he doesn't feel the need to explain to KTC or his Nov12 brothers he let down. If I was in his quit group I would like to hear answers to the 3 questions before I put my quit in his hands. This doesn't seam like wanting to quit with a "Vengeance" and "Connect with others" if you can't answer up and be accountable to your new quit group. Let's do this !! NAFAR
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #10 on: March 15, 2013, 12:35:00 PM »
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BS - since no one is going to demand it I will

(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
I believe CBird is right, looking at the spreadsheets I believe you may want to say hello and give your reasons to the NOV12 group as I see your name there.

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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #9 on: March 15, 2013, 12:24:00 PM »
BS - since no one is going to demand it I will

(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #8 on: March 15, 2013, 12:24:00 AM »
Scott welcome aboard. Your story sounds familiar. Don't slack off.

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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #7 on: March 14, 2013, 08:53:00 PM »
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This is a quick intro to let you all know that I'm here fighting for my life with all of you.  Over the past eight months I gave up on ever quitting again and fell deeper into my nicotine addiction.  I spent a bunch of time lurking around the site after caving in August before I could recommit.  I orginally planned to wait unitl spring break on 3/30 while on vacation, but that's addict thinking.  Now is the right time.  This moment is all that matters.  I'm back with a vengeance to live and connnect with those that are fighting back.  No more tobacco and bullshit nicotine replacement.  It's day 4 for me.
Glad to see you made the wise decision to come back to KTC. Hope you have a good plan to stay quit this time. Looks to me that with 11 posts back in August you weren't around very long the first time? After 8 months of sucking the nic bitch off again I'm sure you figured out what went wrong and have answered the 3 questions over and over and over again? Again glad to see you are back and are quit today. NAFAR!!!!
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #6 on: March 14, 2013, 05:55:00 PM »
This is a quick intro to let you all know that I'm here fighting for my life with all of you. Over the past eight months I gave up on ever quitting again and fell deeper into my nicotine addiction. I spent a bunch of time lurking around the site after caving in August before I could recommit. I orginally planned to wait unitl spring break on 3/30 while on vacation, but that's addict thinking. Now is the right time. This moment is all that matters. I'm back with a vengeance to live and connnect with those that are fighting back. No more tobacco and bullshit nicotine replacement. It's day 4 for me.
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #5 on: August 06, 2012, 10:40:00 PM »
Welcome boys!

Hang in there - Ducati, the man you described was me 53 days ago. I was hiking in Bryce Canyon, Utah, with my wife and my two boys almost two months ago and had that moment when I saw myself for what I really am - an addict. I lied and concealed my addiction as best I could for 30 years and now, like you guys, I am on the road to recovery.

Stay the course, commit for a one day at a time, and post every morning. Go through the hell and come out on the other side.

Let me know if you need anything - please don't hesitate to contact me.

I quit with Ducati and kana today
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #4 on: August 06, 2012, 10:15:00 PM »
Welcome ducati, glad you made it and proud to quit with you!
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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #3 on: August 06, 2012, 07:44:00 PM »
welcome kana and ducati,

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Re: Sick & Tired
« Reply #2 on: August 06, 2012, 07:21:00 PM »
I'm with you my friend. The more I read the more I see myself. So funny because I never thought other people did the disgusting things I did. I read one that said you tilt your head back when you need to talk to someone or spit will leek out. I can't believe I used to do that. What's really hit home for me is my son. He's 5, and was starting to look at me funny with my spitter bottle. embarrassing.. I know he wanted to ask me what it is, but was afraid I'd snap at him. Not anymore... the cravings are really sucking right now, but I feel good.
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Sick & Tired
« on: August 06, 2012, 06:48:00 PM »
Started at 18, chewed for 30 years minus several fully clean years. Those clean years are long lost in the past 15 years of my nicotine induced haze. I am a nicotine addict who is sick and tired of living with the can controlling my life.

- I chewed nearly every waking moment, except when eating (oh, OK, sometimes when eating )
- I have consistently chosen nicotine over exercise
- I am completely embarassed by this addiction
- I've been addicted to chew and smoking simultaneously
- I've used chew and patches simultaneously (looked like I was going to die)
- I've licked used patches to get a bigger hit. While maintaing my "quit plan"
- Popped nic gum and lozenges like candy, one after another
- I've packed my upper and lower lip minimize the localized damage
- I've slept with chew in my mouth
- I've spit on public area floors
- I avoid people when chewing
- I've lied to my family and wife repeatedly about my chewing
- I've subjected my wife and children to countless nicotine deprived rants

I'm on day four of my quit. I'm here for myself. I don't want to live or die with this shit in my mouth. I promise to follow this program daily to live a life without nicotine flowing through my veins.

- Scott (ducatirider98110)
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